I feel...

I feel like every time I say I'll get something done

I feel like I'm going for a ten mile run

But I put myself down for being to lazy

But I procrastinate anyway and it's driving me crazy

I half to smile for my friends and play pretend

But they support me and it feels like I owe it to them

Truly I love them, they've got my back

But my head can't seem to stay on its track

I'm running in circles and getting no where

I've got piles of homework and I can't seem to care

I excel in class and I know I can pass

But I no longer feel a push to be the best

I stay at home saying I have nothing to do

When really that's a lie that will never be true

I don't have a rough life I've got it easy

That may be the issue, nothing can please me

I guess I could try something new for a change

But doing something else feels abnormally strange

Writing and art have always been an escape

Maybe that's what keeps me from opening the gate

Maybe it shouldn't be just an escape

Something I can do, it's a trait

I think maybe I can try to get my work done be productive

So I guess bye for now I'll try to be constructive