Poetry: Suicidal

The breeze was crisp as it blew

Coming in different directions

Pushing and Pulling 

Tagging and Dragging my emotions 

As if trying to forcefully remove it from it's roots...

All I knew was that I shouldn't have lied

All I knew was that I shouldn't have loved

All I know is that you shouldn't have left

Now I'm at war with myself

You are at peace with your choice

My weapons constantly raised

Your's polished and placed

I keep missing my target

And you keeping hitting the bulls eye

Without even looking.

All I knew is that I shouldn't have lied

All I knew is that I shouldn't have loved

All I know is that you shouldn't have left

So I await for the war 

The very one you declared

While you sit comfortably

Picking at my insecurities

Like they are sweet grapes

How long my love

Till you decide I'm no longer your queen

How long, my love

Till you decide that your heart is no longer mine

How long, my love

Till you slip a drip of poison in my drink

And I gulp it like sweet nectar

Living a trace of it on the corner of my lips

And you trace my hips

Realise that its not like jelly

But the curves are wider

As the crossfire of your lies

And my fantasies. 

All I knew is that I shouldn't have lied

All I knew is that I shouldn't have loved

All I know is that you shouldn't have left

So instead while you shower

In my pain

And wash the smell away with your in denial

I stab my heart for you

That way you won't have to

When you come to realise that you are bored of me

I will be long gone

And you mind cleansed.

I knew I should not have lied

I knew I should not have loved

I knew you should never have left