The Feelings

It's been more than a month since Kenzou and Lex live together.

It's mid test for students, Kenzou prepared so well for the test, he learns again about the topic that discussed in class and do research by his own about the material that will be test later.

Lex is the same but it's the amount of times they spent to review the lessons are totally different.

Kenzou spends hours to learn and read the book while Lex spend only one hour to restudy again about the test subject.

"Why didn't you ask for day off at your work during test?" Kenzou who stayed late welcoming Lex who just arrive at home at 2 am

"You are not sleep yet? Are you waiting for me now? Let me hug you...come here" Lex teasing as he come closer,but Kenzou kick him on the butt to stop him

" Hey....why are you so rude? I was only joking" Lex rubbing his butt and seated on his bed

"You deserve it, answer my question first, why not take any day off during test? Didn't it too exhausting?" Kenzou looking back to his laptop screen

"Maybe later.....as long as I can handle it that okay, I want to spend my day off somewhere else" Lex change his clothes to comfortable shirt and pants.

He thinks about going to Jeju island or an island will be great in his day off.

No more comments from Kenzou, he is busy reading the articles.

Lex is come closer and see what is this guy doing.

"Are you going to study until tomorrow? It's 2 already....go sleep" Lex sudden speaking behind kenzou ear, he almost jump out from his startled.

"Do you really need to come here to say that?! Just say it there!" Kenzou is protesting about Lex habit which always surprise Kenzou to the dead.

"You will not listen to me if I say it there....why? you don't like it" Lex laying on Kenzou's bed.

Since the day he did the kiss attack to Kenzou in the beach now it's become easier to him to tease Kenzou.

"Never mind....just go sleep if you not study anymore, no need to bothering me" Kenzou push his focus on the laptop screen, lightly the weird thing things come out from his mind

now Lex is here why can't focus at all?

"I won't bother you....go a head, study...study...." Lex relaxs on Kenzou bed, he plays his phone, not really pay attention to Kenzou who's going downstairs to take some drink.

Back to their room Kenzou only can sighing seeing this big Lex-bear falling sleep on his bed.

Looking at Lex's messy bed makes Kenzou even more stress.....there are books, clean clothes, some sport equipment even there.

Lex is not a really neat boy but he likes clean stuff. Kenzou just continue studying until 3 am.

Then he try to wake Lex up.

"Enough enjoying my bed now go back to your place!!" Kenzou shake Lex body,

"Hmmmm..." That's the only sound come out from Lex mouth, Kenzou then give up and go to Lex's messy bed, put all the things down and sleep.

In the next morning, Lex startled woke up from hearing the alarm near his bed, he almost threw the alarm when he then gathered his mind, looking around and find its still the same room but from different corner.

Aahhhhh this is Kenzou bed, he stand up right away and wakes Kenzou up

"Wake up!! Didn't we have test today?" Lex pick his towel to get shower, Realising Kenzou didn't move even inch makes Lex throw back his towel and now joining Kenzou who still sleep, give him a backhug and some rubbing on his chest.

Lex curious how will Kenzou expression if he know Lex is now rubbing his firm body.

"Hmm....." Kenzou removes Lex hand from his body out of consciousness

Lex make sure again this boy has wake or still in dreamland.

"Ken.....Kenzou....." Lex whisper on Kenzou ear.

Kenzou unconsciously swing his hand to hit Lex, maybe he is dreaming about a big mosquito flying near his ear now.

Lex take his phone and taking picture of him kissing Kenzou on his cheek for prank Kenzou later.

Kenzou open his eyes upon hearing a click sound from Lex's camera.. He suddenly seated and look at Lex who still laid down looking for the pictures that he took before.

"Why are you here?!!" Kenzou get out from Lex's blanket

"Why? This is my bed...." Lex arguing, he happily shows the picture he took to Kenzou, Kenzou focusing his eyes to see clearly what is Lex showing him. Slowly Kenzou figure out those two boy in the picture is him and Lex.

"Hey!!! Why are you...ughh I hate you" Kenzou didn't continue his word because he knows there is no use fighting with this stubborn boy then he  leaving for shower.

Lex following behind him without minding about Kenzou madness.

"Aren't they cute? Look, we looks cute here...." Lex keep following Kenzou step

Kenzou stopped and turn around.

Takkkk!!!!!

One slap on Lex's head " That's for your head so that your brain can think normally!! " he into the bathroom and lock it.

Kenzou don't have any idea why is Lex acts this way

Maybe he want to tease me but for what? Is this because he thinks I'm a gay? Then he is a gay too if he doing this intentionally. Uggghhhh...!!!.

Lex sitting in the kitchen waiting for Kenzou to come out. Lex enjoy the morning view from the kitchen windows. Actually he feels grateful for Kenzou alarm which waking him up, usually he will wake at 9 where the class already begin.

Kreekkkk.......

The bathroom door open then come out Kenzou, looks like a man magazine model now. He half dried hair, fair skin, firm muscle. Knowing Lex sitting down near the window waiting for his turn to shower Kenzou just leaves, he still holding a grudge over Lex acts this morning.

When he about finish dress up Lex coming without any guilty on his face

"Ready to go? Wait for me....go together with me today" Lex pick his clothes from drawer and change with faster mode.

Kenzou pretending not to hear what Lex says, he grabbed his things and wear his shoes.

Suddenly Lex run to the door and lock the door and save the key on his pocket, Kenzou watching what he doing and get more annoyed.

"Don't you dare to leave me, didn't I asked you to wait for me?" Lex grab his belongings, wearing his shoes then standing near the door wait for Kenzou "come on, let's go" he calls Kenzou and open the door.

"If hitting people is illegal, I won't think twice to hit you now!" Kenzou grind his teeth from annoyed. Lex is smiling.

"Do that after finish the test later.....complaining so much will ruin your handsome face, come on" Lex offering ride to Kenzou as he walk toward his car.

Kenzou walking toward the opposite way makes Lex run and grab Kenzou's hand.

"Okay I'm sorry for teasing you the way too much....now can we go peacefully to campus because we will be late if we keep fighting... Okay? You can ask me anything for lunch, I'll treat you....how about that?" Lex feels sorry now looking at how mad Kenzou is.

Without saying anything Kenzou finally get in the car but he still put a long face means that he still annoy. Lex drive faster but carefully.

Kenzou just don't want to be late because of some stupid stuff like this, he will get his revenge after the test over.

In the class, Kenzou join Kiyo and Shim who already have their seat. Kenzou sit beside Kiyo, they talk about the test. Lex walking silently behind kenzou without any words, he have a seat behind Kenzou,

There coming a group of  girls they come to say hi to Lex

"Good morning Lex...." Their cheerful voice attract the class attention, they call themselves "Lex-urious" Lex knows about this Lex-urious just a week's ago. When Kenzou hand him some present from Lex-urious, he read their letter for him, some of his fans are those girl who sometime come to their bar.

"Oh hi.....good morning" Lex smiling, he didn't really used to something like this but he try to not disappointing his fans

"Can we take some picture with you?" The girl ask politely

"Sure....." Lex stand up and the girl surrounding him leisurely hug him.

"You guys can take picture with us too if you want" Shim offering themselves to the girls

"No thanks....." Says some girl makes Kiyo and Kenzou laughing at Shim who now dumbfounded

The Lex-urious leave after say thanks and give out their gift to Lex.

"Hahaha.....what so special about you until they turn their self to be your fans?" Shim sit beside Lex who is focusing on his phone screen.

" I don't know, maybe you should be one of them to know that" Lex not really reply Shim question. Kenzou and Kiyo are busy talking about some article in the book that might come out as exam test. Kenzou secretly put an ear to hear the conversation between Shim and Lex.

Just then the lecture come and give out the test paper for written test.

Kenzou finished his test and put them paper in lecture table while the lecture walking around to check their test.  Kiyo finished his and join Kenzou outside, they are going somewhere to eat their lunch but then Kenzou remember that Lex promised him to treat him for lunch.

In the other side Lex who just finished his test now on his way to his favourite restaurant to eat. He think about to call Kenzou but he decide not to. He walks in to this simple and clean looks restaurant and sits near the window on the corner, his favorite spot.

Just then someone call him, it's Kenzou

"Hello.....where are you now?" Kenzou speaking

"Why? Where are you?" Lex didn't answer yet he questing Kenzou

"Why can't you just answer my question? I'm on my way back home"

"Alone?"

"No, I'm with one big dinosaur and 2 elephant on my side, of course I'm alone you stupid" Kenzou annoyed, when will I had a normal conversation with this dumb fellas.

"Hehe sorry....come here to my favourite place"

Lex later send the text to Kenzou

15 minutes later

There is no sign that Kenzou coming, Lex order a drink and still waiting.

At home, Kenzou is laying down on the bed watching television. He was just want to revenge to Lex who always teasing him. It's been 2 hours but Lex not calling or texting yet.

He just let it slide away, he knows that Lex is smart enough to know that he won't come.

In the restaurant Lex is relaxing enjoy the nice weather and the view. He look at the clock on his phone, it's almost evening then he order the food and eat by himself.

On his way home, Lex stopped by the bar where he is working. Some of his friends are there and he just joins them, they drink and got drunk. He will spend the night at his friends home nearby.

At home there is Kenzou who is anxiously looking at his phone, deciding to call Lex or no.

Ahhh just call him, he grab the phone and call Lex's number.

Tut....tut...tut...

"Hello....Kelly speaking" the girl voice answer the call

"Emm.....is Lex there?" Kenzou hesitate about what to say

"Yes, he is very drunk now that he can't drive....are you his roommate? Can you pick him up in my place?" seems like the name of Kenzou in Lex phone is Roommate

"Huh? Well.....eh....sure" Kenzou end the call after Kelly gave the address.

Arrive in Kelly's place, Kenzou needs to carry Lex on his back to the car.

"Thanks so much..." Kenzou bow to Kelly who following them to car to send them off.

"That's okay....I never saw him drunk like this before, he must had a bad day.be careful on your way" Kelly waves to Kenzou who drive the car away after had Lex seat at the back.

"What matter with you...why bothering everyone with your problem" said Kenzou staring at the review mirror where Lex now lay down there

"How many time should I carry you home like this....is it my job now? Carry drunken man in the midnight?" Kenzou talking by himself.

For the second time Kenzou carry Lex to his bed again and go downstairs to park the car. Lex just unconscious now, sleeping like a big baby hugging his pillow with that handsome red face from drinking too much alcohol.

Kenzou looking at Lex who is trying to take off his long sleeve shirt.

"Let me help you...." Kenzou come to Lex's bed and help him to take his shirt off, then Lex throw himself to bed again laying down facing the wall. Kenzou just stay while looking at Lex's back. Wondering what could be a possible problem in this guy life.

"Why didn't you showing up in restaurant today?" Sudden question coming from Lex who still got his eyes close makes Kenzou a bit surprised.

" You know I'm not going to come why still invite me" Kenzou defend himself

"......" No reply from Lex

" Sorry then...." Kenzou initiative

"You know..... I'm just feeling so lonely these days since I sincerely let my love go for the other man"

"You mean that girl whom we met at Kiyo's party?"

Lex just continues his story without answering Kenzou question. So Kenzou just figure out by himself which girl could it be, it's must be the one that they met in Kiyo's party because that night, Lex looks so different.

"After what we've been through together, it's feel like buried half of your own body into the ground and watching them disappear like they never been a part of you"

Kenzou just continue listening. For kenzou, the most hurtful separation that he has is when his one and only grandma who have taking care of him since he was young died.

No more conversation, they didn't move an inch. Falling into their own thought. Kenzou about going back to his bed but his hand grabbed by Lex. Kenzou looking at Lex in the eyes, there is something he would like to tell there but then he just let Kenzou hand go and facing the wall again to back sleep.

Kenzou walking to his bed but then stop, turn around and join Lex on his bed, give Lex a back hug. They fallen sleep without speaking at all, deeply feel the heart beat of each other. They didn't really understand what happened to them, the warmth from those hug lingering around calmly.

After several thing happened unintentionally. Don't know who started it first but now Kenzou and Lex are used to sleep together, hugging each other in the night without saying anything.

Today is the last day of mid-test. Lex busy with his fans in the parking area, they are inviting him to join their party but Lex refuse because he has his own plan to spend his holiday.

In the other side Kenzou, Kiyo and Shim are preparing their holiday with some of their friends. They are planning to go to Hawaii for 4 days.

"Are you planning to go somewhere to spend your holiday?" Kenzou texting Lex, he is on his workplace now, spend time with his workmates.

"Yes, i'll depart tomorrow....how bout you?" Lex reply

"We will spend our holiday together abroad" Kenzou reply

"Well, have fun then....enjoy your holiday, I will spend my night at my friend home tonight, so bad I can send you away tomorrow" Lex replying with tearing emoticon

Since when this guy became such an expressive boy, he never used emoticon before, Kenzou thinking.

"that's okay; you too, have fun with your holiday" Kenzou pausing. Then send the message.

Spend his night at friend place means that no goodbye-night hug for Kenzou tonight.

This room feels empty without Lex here. Kenzou finished packing up his things and now staring at picture of him and Lex in Polaroid paper.

"I don't think this is right to falling in love with a boy.....since I was young I always dream about one day I will falling in love with a lovely girl but why now this strange feeling always in my head if I didn't see this guy.....this feeling, I miss his hug in the midnight, his heart beat and his parfume" Kenzou close his eyes, the picture of Lex smiling playing on his mind

"I must be crazy now".

In the morning, Kenzou wake up. He slept only 2 hours, he couldn't fall sleep thinking about how is Lex's feeling when not have Kenzou around his arm, is he feel the same or not.

Kenzou going to the airport and join his friends there. Kiyo is welcoming him with hug and wide smile. Everybody knows that Kenzou and Kiyo are best friend but since Lex come, the feeling of Kiyo to Kenzou now slowly change, Kenzou sometime tell too much story about Lex. Kiyo realising there is something between them.

"Did you sleep well last night?" Shim approaching

"Not really....why you guys still here?" Kenzou asking because they suppose to be departure 5 minutes from now on.

"They delayed the flight, there is a problem with the weather" Shim in charge to explaining to everyone who asking.

After two hours waiting, they are allowed to enter the plane which is get ready to take off.

Kenzou looking for his seat and finally found it, it's near the window. The other busy looking for their seat that's when someone familiar come closer to Kenzou seat.

"Kenzou?!" This guy taking his sunglasses off

"Lex?! Why are you here?" Kenzou eyes become big

"I'm on my way to Hawaii....so you guys going to Hawaii too?" Lex have his seat beside Kenzou

"Yes...what a coincidence"

"So....how is your sleep last night? Did you sleep well?" Lex now asking this question to Kenzou.

"Why would you ask those questions out of blue?" Kenzou try to avoiding

"I'm just afraid that you might feel different without having me beside you, I'm spending my night in my friend place so that you will use to it, I'm afraid you might hugging your friends in your sleep later" Lex telling his plan honestly

"I don't know, but I can't sleep until 4...."

"were you missing me? Or something like that?"

"There you go again....!!!" Kenzou looking outside the window. Lex hold Kenzou's hand and whisper to him

"I know it weird but I'm  happy to see you here".