Next to You Without Hug

"I dont know if you are planning this but you know what...you are so mean Kiyo, I never know you are this selfish" Ken wants to leave but Kiyo hold his wrist

" Ken please...I just wanna show you that only me the one for you, only you Ken...you can have all of me, he just going to hurt you and I can't bare myself seeing you get hurt, please understand this Ken" Kiyo is begging

Ken tries harder to let his wrist off from Kiyo

"Just let me go!!"

"But Ken...answer me first, promise me you will think about it " Kiyo still has not let Ken go

"Why didn't you think of this by yourself...!! let me go before I hate you Kiyo!" Ken becomes mad

At the same time, the door is open and there Lex appears confuse seeing these two boys in front of the door fighting

"Let him go!!" Lex grabs Kiyo hand and release Ken wrist "What are you doing to him?!" Lex is throwing one punch to Kiyo face

"You tell me what you are doing here?! And why are you lying?!!" Ken in rages toward Lex

"I can explain that to you...I'm sorry, lets go home I will explain the things to you" Lex tries to reach Ken hand but he just dodge it.

"I don't want to talk with both you two, you guys really disappointing me, don't come after me or I will hate you guys" Ken with great disappointment leaves the hospital.

Calling taxi and going somewhere to hideout so that they cannot find him.

Ken feel really disappointed in Lex, he practically lie in front of him when he makes call telling him going to help out on the bar. Why didn't he tell the truth? What so wrong with telling the truth when they don't have any special relationship anymore.

Suddenly all the happiest time spended with Lex starting to fade out, why suddenly all those things now seems fake after seeing him smiling with Yori behind his back.

Ken turns his phone off and staying in a small guess house near the beach to calm his heart.

Maybe this is was wrong step that I took to walk on this rough path

Maybe it already wrong since the beginning but all seems very nice and feels so happy at the time. I never knew if I had a weak heart like this, I never cried over something like this before but why is it so hurt now

What was on his mind when he lies to me like that, he didn't seems in guilty at all when he put that smile on his face in front of that girl, I know they are still have feeling for each other but why lying to me? Why hugging me every night...am I just his runaway place?

Ken cannot stops thinking about things until the sun rise up he still awake, his tears falling unconsiously wetting the pillow, he cannot imagine and what suppose he say when he meet Lex later, and finally he fall asleep.

1 day passed, he still dont feel like going home and meet Lex yet so he decide on staying one more night.

Actually he also worried about Lex, how if he looking for me all aorund the town, How if he get into an accident while looking for me? How if he put himself on dangerous desicion? Those thought kept on appearing in his head then he decides to turn his phone on.

Sudennly Ken phone is ringing, it's from Lex and Ken won't pick it up.

He rejected it and wearing his clothes to go to the beach for some fresh air.

Ting!

One message coming but Ken didn't want read it yet. He is just walking among people who comes to enjoy the beach too. Sitting on the sands and slowly looking at his phone and open the messages from Lex

"Where are you? You must mad to me right?"

"I know I was wrong...I know my words now will sound fake for you and you will just keep hating me for it but if you read this...please don't forget to eat...You always skip meals when you are angry, don't get sick alone there...Call me when you feel like to talk and listen to my explanation. take care Ken"

Ken put his phone back into his pocket and lies down on the sands, thinking about  calling Lex or no.

The sun almost down and the sky colour changes to golden as the sun goes down, disappearing. Ken stand up and walking to the guess house...on his way to the house, his stomach growning from hungriness but he still didn't feel like to eat.

Arrive at the guess house, one of the staff comes to him brough some food and fruits, telling that someone left them for him.

Looking around after saying thanks,Ken wondering who did this and thinking about Lex right away

Of course he thinks about Lex, he just texted him about don't forget to eat

One more time Ken asks the staff that gave the things to him before, then the staff just telling the way where the man went out plus the outfits he wore which grey hoodie and black jeans.

Half running Ken is chasing the guy who left the fruits for him, on the walk path beside the hotel which full of walking guestes Ken run and see on figure from behind that looks exactly like the staff told him. Figuring out the height of the guy from behind, Ken can tell that the guy is Lex.

Happily run and chasing the guy is Ken, getting closer to the guy Ken instantly give him a back hug, no care about those eyes which seeing such a weirdos on the street Ken just keep on hugging the guy.

"Thanks so much" says Ken

Slowly the guy turn around, it's Kiyo

"Ken..I thought you will hate me" Kiyo looks so happy. Suddenly Ken face changes into confusing state, he didn't expect this to be Kiyo.

"Kiyo? Why are you here? And where did you know I'm here" Ken slowly release his embrace from Kiyo's body

But it getting worst when Ken eyes sees someone stand on the other side of the road looking at them hurtedly and that is Lex who is frozen from what he just saw in front of his eyes. Ken don't know how long he stand there already.

"Ken....I'm so happy...I'm so afraid that you don't want to see me again" Kiyo hugs Ken body tightly

"I'm sorry Kiyo...I will talk to you later...I have to go!" Ken run to after Lex who walked away disappointed

"Where are you going...hey!!...." Kiyo became confuse seeing Ken running like crazy after gave him some hug

As he run, Ken dial Lex's number but it unaviable and he is nowhere to be seen now. Ken hurriedly to the guess house take his things and back to their house because there the only place he can think right now.

Arrive at home when it almost dark, directly to their room tocheck whether Lex's things still there or no. Thankfully his things still there and now Ken just want to wait for Lex here.

Think about how Lex might think when he saw Ken and Kiyo huging in the middle of the crowd,he must hurted and disappointed.

Ken tries to call one more time but the number still unavaiable, laying on his bed Ken fell asleep.

Waking up in the midnight, Ken looks around and seems like Lex haven't come home yet.

Ken thinking out what to say to Lex, he can't forgive Lex yet but he want to explain what was happen between him and Kiyo too

Maybe he is with Yori now

Maybe he is not think about me at all

Maybe he is happy with this, maybe this is what he expected

What should I say to him if he coming, there is no way I am apologising first

How if he ignore me? How if he.....

Krekkk...! the door opening

Lex is coming from there, he looked a bit shock from seeing Ken in there but then he didn't say anything.

He just sit on the bank of his bed, facing Ken who also has the same pose as him,they are facing each other but nobody can start the conversation, they just stay still in the silence.

It really the opposite of what happening inside their heart, so many question they want to ask but there also many reason to hold back.

Both of them don't want to start the conversation as they afraid that could be their last conversation. Both of them couldn't see the worriness and the frightening of losing each other on their eyes because they couldn't even bear themselves to look at each other eyes.

Lex stand from bed to the cabinet and changes his clothes while Ken still stay unmove on his bed, Lex went to the washroom and spends minutes there washing up and when he come out, he can see that Ken also change his clothes to the comfy ones.

Lex is laying on his bed and face the wall to avoid seeing Ken, pretending to sleep Lex can hear the step sound of Ken's feet and the sound of him turn the light off and laying on his bed.

Lex's thinking about

Maybe I was wrong since the first time I saw him

Maybe it's my fault to put him on such condition now

Maybe I'm not the right guy for him, He looks happy when he hugs Kiyo before

He must disappointed a lot at me because I lied to him

Why my heart like this? Why it feels so hurt here?

Ken in the other side of the room thinking with his eyes closed. Suddenly he miss those mischievous Lex who always teased him and the ignorant side of Lex who never care about what Ken might think if he tease him like that.

Just why the atmosphere getting cold as nobody talk, trying to get into other mind not easy at all after all what happened between them within this week.

Ken gives up and tired from thinking so hard that he once more fell asleep.