Happier

WARNING: Suicide, angst

I hope he's happy with them.

He looks happy.

I hope they treat him better than I did.

I screwed up, I know I did.

I pull the photo out of my pocket.

He looked so happy in it.

I had my arm around him, he was laughing, still wearing his old jacket. Remus was on the other side; he took the photo.

I turn my head up towards the moon. I used to come here almost every night.

With him.

Funny.. Reminds me of that song. I start singing, singing into the silence.

"When somebody loved me

Everything was beautiful

Every hour spent together

Lives within my heart

And when he was sad

I was there to dry his tears

And when he was happy so was I

When he loved me

When he loved me."

A tear slides down my face.

I know I screwed up.

I just want my Stormcloud back.

But that's not happening.

He loves someone else now.

I can see the way they look at each other.

I smile a little as I remember the nickname I gave them.

The emo and the nerd.

I just want my Stormcloud back.

But that would be torture for him.

He left us to escape.

He didn't want to live with us, and I understand.

I screwed up, I screwed up so badly.

I apologised, I tried.

But he wouldn't take it.

And he left me.

"Baby, you look happier, you do

I knew one day you'd fall for someone new

But if he breaks your heart, like lovers do

Just know that I'll be waiting here for you."

I kiss him, my Stormcloud, the photo.

And place it safely back in my pocket.

He'll be with me in my last moments.

I walk towards the cliff.

I can't do it any more.

I need Virgil.

As I stand on the edge I hear a shout and turn around.

"Janus, please!" It's Remus. "Don't do it! Please!"

I just smile sadly and shake my head.

And push my foot back, losing my balance and falling.

Sweet oblivion.

Baby, you look happier, you do

I knew one day you'd fall for someone new

But if he breaks your heart, like lovers do

Just know that I'll be waiting here for you