Chapter 11: This nightmare ends with bliss

| WARNING: Mentions of homophobic slurs and abuse. |

- Noya's pov -

" You disgust me"

I look around.... where am I? I feel a stinging sensation on my face, I bring my hand up to my cheek before looking up and seeing my father holding a glass cup.

I remember this.

I look over and spot my mom fearfully looking over at us. My dad wasn't always like this... He used to be fun. He didn't always hit me and cuss me out. I remember the times when he taught me how to play volleyball like it was yesterday. Those were the fun times. I wished it could've stayed that way.

but nothing always stays the same.

" WHY COULDNT YOU BE NORMAL AND LIKE GIRLS YOU FAGGOT"

I don't know dad, I really don't...

" WHY DID I HAVE TO END UP WITH A GAY SON!"

I look up and take notice of the cup. This is a dream, I know that of course.

and If I remember correctly... This is where he splashes cold water on me and then throws the glass cup at my head resulting in me getting cut. I wait for the cold water to soak my clothes but it never happens.

I look up and my eyes widen. Instead of my dad now... it's Asahi?

" Asahi?! What?!"

Asahi glares at me and I feel my body tense. He continues to glare at me and I notice a figure appear next to him. I stare at the figure appearing and it's Ryu... with a face less woman? The woman grabs ahold of Asahi's hand and Ryu.

" WAIT ASAHI! WHAT ABOUT ME?!"

I get up and start running to Asahi and Ryu but the more steps I take towards them the farther they become.

" ASAHI! RYU! DONT LEAVE ME BEHIND!"

I shout desperately trying to push back the tears forming in my eyes. Asahi stops and walks over to me before placing a hand under my chin before coldly saying

" You are disgusting "

I stand up in my bed now hyperventilating, I begin to look around and take notice of my surroundings. I'm sitting on my bed and in my room Asahi and Ryu aren't anywhere to be found.

I take in deep breaths but it seems like no matter how many times I try to catch my breath, I can't. My breathing has quicken and a tingly sensation has appeared in my fingers and feet.

My chest is burning.

I faintly hear the door squeak before everything becomes dizzy. My chest is burning, My hands are tingling. I can't breath. I can't breath at all! " Noya! ARE YOU OKAY?!" I recognize that voice... It's suga! " TANAKA GET SOME WATER NOYA'S HAVING AN ANXIETY ATTACK!!"

An anxiety attack? I haven't had one of those in ages... I feel my throat begin to close and suddenly I feel like I'm floating. I look up and spot Suga who's looking at me frantically but for some reason... he has three heads?

I can't think, I'm so tired. I want to close my eyes and just sleep. I can hear my heart pounding and my stomach feels twisted. I hear loud thumps that sound like foot steps approaching and a loud yell but I can't quite make up the word that are being spoken.

Well whoever is screaming sounds scared, I hope they're okay..

I close my eyes and everything goes blank. It's finally quiet.

I can finally sleep.

- Time skip to when he wakes up cough cough *insert crying* -

I open my eyes and I hear a loud series of beeping. Where am I? I sit up and take notice to Suga and Tanaka sleeping on a couch to the right. I look down and spot an IV in my arm. HUH?! I look around and take notice of the unfamiliar hospital room I'm in. I look over in the corner of the room and spot Daichi? Wait? IF DAICHI'S HERE DOES THAT MEANS ASAHI IS TOO?!

A second later the doors open and reveal a disheveled Asahi holding onto a sleeping Ryu. Noya simply takes in his appearance. He looks tired, and drained... but above all worried. Is this because of me?! Did I worry him? WAIT?! WHY AM I EVEN HERE?!

" Noya?.."

I look up and look at Asahi who has now stopped at the entrance. I look down at my hands... what do I say?! My mind seems to make up its own mind because before I can even tell I'm already talking.

" oh hi you!" Asahi swiftly sets down Ryu gently next to Suga before slowly making his way to me. " you're okay?" Asahi mumbles out before sitting onto the hospitals bed and cupping my face.

"yesh" I manage to say through squished cheeks. He pulls me into a hug and lets out a sigh of relief. " Y-you scared me! Suga called me last night saying you fainted during an anxiety attack and I freaked out and before I even knew it I was at the hospital!" I look up at Asahi stunned. I had a panic attack?! I try to recall the events of last night but all I remember is having a really bad dream..

"OMGSH NOYA'S AWAKE!" Tanaka who seems to have no risen from his beauty sleep screams shaking Suga and lightly judging Ryu. Suga instantly pops open his eyes and pushes Asahi gently out of the way before wrapping me into a suffocating hug. " NISHINOYA YUU I SWEAR IF YOU EVER SCARE ME LIKE THAT AGAIN I'LL KICK YOU WHERE THE SUN DOESNT SHINE DO YOU UNDERSTAND ME!" Suga yells now shaking me violently.

I simply nod before what looks to be the doctor comes in " I see you're awake Mr.Nishinoya! That's pleasant news!" I look over at the doctor who is eyeing suga cautiously before speaking " Was it that big of a deal that you guys had to keep me here over night? I mean it was just a panic attack right?" The doctor looks over at Suga once again and gulps before mumbling " We would've released you last night but... err.. you're friend here is very scar- I mean persuasive so we decided to just keep you for observation!"

I look over at Suga who's smirking in satisfaction I should've known he would go into mama mode... sighhh. I smile and nod and the doctor turns around to make his exit. As soon as he exits Ryu plops up next to the hospital bed and makes grabby motions " Shi-chan can I sit next to you!" I smile and gently lift him up " Of course you can Ryu!" Ryu sits in my lap facing me and frowns I continue to look at him and tilt my head " What's wrong Ryu?"

Ryu looks up at me and starts sniffling " S-shi- chan hash a boo-boo" he says in between sniffles. I quickly freeze.... RYU IS CRYING BECAUSE OF ME?! NOOOOOOO!

I quickly wrap my arms around him and begin to talk to him eu a soothing tone " I'm okay! There's nothing to worry about Ryu!" Ryu looks up at me and wipes his face with his hands and sleeve " You promise?" I instantly nod my head violently earning a laugh from him. I look over at Asahi who is smiling at the both of us. I motion him to come sit next to me and he does. He also wraps his arms around my waist while I hold onto Ryu.

Ryu perks up in my lap and looks up at me with determination before plopping a light kiss on my forehead. I smile and look down at him " What was that for Ryu?" Ryu smiles and claps his hands " I'm going to kiss your boo-boo away! Papa you help too!" I instantly blush at the mention of Asahi kissing me and I turn around to peek over at him. He has a soft smile displayed on his face. He then gently says " Alright Ryu papa will help"

Asahi then gets up and places a light kiss on my right temple and I can't help but giggle. Both Ryu and Asahi both look at each other before placing a light kiss on my cheeks, Ryu on the left side and Asahi on the right. I let out a loud laugh" What am I going to do with you two?" Suga and Tanaka then cut in " I don't know about you but I call dibs on Ryu!" Suddenly Daichi rises from the dead.

" RYU WAS MY NEPHEW FIRST TANAKA!" Tanaka then turns to Daichi and holds up his middle finger. I quickly cover Ryu's eyes while Asahi covers mine. I then hear Tanaka yell " I DONT CARE HE LIKES ME MORE!" I hear Ryu let out loud giggles before he moves my hand and turns to Suga " Suga-chan! Carry!"

Suga looks over at both Daichi and Tanaka and flashes them a smirk of victory before turning to Ryu with his sparkly aura and says " Of course Ryu! Let's go get a snack from the hospital cafeteria!" Ryu eagerly nods as Suga carries him out of the room. Tanaka and Daichi look at each other before pushing each other out do the way and yelling " WAIT SUGA! WAIT FOR ME!!"

Now that everyone has left it's gone peacefully quiet. I turn my attention back on Asahi who's already staring at me. I simply rub the back of my neck awkwardly before he speaks " Are you... really okay?" He ask questioningly. I look over at him and nod before looking back down at my hands. He then speaks again " What did you.... have a panic attack about?" Well shit.

What am I supposed to say?! Oh I had a dream where you ran off with some face less woman?! That sounds so lame! I start fidgeting with my fingers anxiously before Asahi puts his hand on top of mine causing me to stop fidgeting and says " You can tell me Noya.. I want to be there for you!" I simply stare at him and smile. I'm so silly... The Asahi in my dream isn't the Asahi in front of me now!

I look at him and sigh " I had a dream about my dad... the ones where he used to beat me after I came out to him... he called me disgusting and a faggot like usual so it wasn't really scary... but then... you appeared in it and you were holding hands with this face less woman and she was holding Ryu... and then y-you called me d-disgusting... and I don't know..." Saying the dream out loud was actually way more emotional then I intended it to be. My voice was nearly cracking and my eyes were beginning to water.

Asahi gently lifts me up from the bed bridal style before sitting on the hospital bed with me on his lap. He kisses the top of my grand and lightly smiles " I would never call you disgusting Noya to me you aren't remotely anything close to disgusting. You're beautiful and exquisite. I wouldn't want anyone else. Not even some face less woman. Your dad... he has no idea what he's talking about! Someone this beautiful could never be disgusting!" He then places light kisses on both my eyelids as he begins to wipe away the tears that have escaped my eyes.

He places one last kiss on my right cheek before holding my clothes. I simply snuggle onto his chest and lightly smile " I'm sorry I worried you! I'll try to have less nightmares if that's possible!" Asahi looks over at Noya and tilts his head " Do you usually have nightmares?" I turn my head to look at him and nod " I used to have them every night but ever since that one night at the hotel room or ever since we got close they happen less! I guess you and Ryu are like my dreamcatcher!"

Asahi's eye widen and he places a light kiss on my shoulder before he hesitatingly says " If we're your dream catchers... why don't you come stay with us... just for awhile! Until I know you're okay!" I look up at Asahi in shock he's now gone red and is desperately hiding his face on my shoulder.

I was about to answer before he cuts me too it " You might think it's too soon or something like that... but you don't have to live with me! I just need to make sure your okay... with my own eyes... at least just for a little bit! I can't afford to loose anyone again and.. Ryu can't either! I think he's actually really worried and that's why he was crying like that so please! Just consider it! OH! but i'm not forcing you or anything! It's completely your choice!"

I stare at Asahi as he finishes his little rant completely flustered before placing my hand on his cheek and smiling " I'd like that a lot... you know stay with you... until we're both okay.. you know?" Asahi brightens up and places a bunch of kisses all over my face saying a serious of Thank you's. I simply giggle at his childhood antics before speaking " When should I? You know bring my stuff?" Asahi looks down at me and kisses my hand.

" If you want you can come today... or tomorrow" Asahi says blushing brightly. I then too, begin to blush and turn to bury my head into his chest before muttering " Today... is good..." We both look at each other and start laughing. The doctor enters the room and looks at both Asahi and me. We both come to the realization that IM STILL ON HIS FRICKING LAP! Asahi blushes and begins to panic. The doctor stares at us before laughing " Awee you two are the cutest!"

Both Asahi and I look at each other before I mumble " Huh?" The doctor simply walks over to the bed and begins to disconnect all the wires and machine before turning to me who may I say once more... IS STILL IN ASAHI'S FREAKING LAP!

The doctor then speaks and says " You know your giant boyfriend over here was worried all night! He held your hand while you slept and kept kissing your forehead, he seemed really shaken up about it! May I just say you got a keeper!" He then winks at both me and Asahi before pulling out the IV in my hand. I turn to look at Asahi who is blushing madly and laugh " Asahiiiii you were that worried about me?" I can't help but want to tease him! I mean he's so cute!!!

Asahi sighs and covers his face with his hands " Of course I was worried... I love you.. WHY WOULDNT I BE WORRIED!?" Asahi suddenly grabs ahold of my face and kisses my nose before pulling back. I stare at him for a minute processing what just happened as my face begins to turn red by the second. The doctor claps and smiles before singing " A- dor- a- bl- e!

also you're discharged!"

Asahi and I stare at each other and smile like big idiots. I hear loud screeching down the hall that can only belong to Tanaka. " Looks like their on there way" I say turning to look at the door. Asahi tightens his grip around Noya and mumbles " I'm so glad you're okay.." Noya smiles to himself before placing a light peck on Asahi's head.

"Oh hey gu- OMGSH RYU COVER YOUR EYES" Tanaka screeches before placing his hands in front of Ryu's eyes. " OMGSH YOU GUYS COULDNT WAIT TILL LATER?! THIS IS A HOSPITAL GUYS!" Daichi harshly yells now covering Suga's eyes. Suga slaps Daichi's arms away " Daichi honey I'm a grown man ALSO IM STILL MAD AT YOU FOR EATING MY FRIES YOU PUNK!" Daichi winces and turns to look at Asahi and Me.

Asahi laughs at Daichi but then almost immediately stops when Suga's deadly aura spreads throughout the room " Asahi Darling, I know you aren't trying to the deed in this hospital when Noya's a patient" I look up at Asahi and laugh because the look in his face is priceless. I still can't believe that this giant is so skidding... hehe.

Asahi then speaks up " NO! WE WERE JUST CUDDLING AND TALKING AND THEN I ASKRD NOYA TO LIVE WITH ME AND THEN THE DOCTOR CAME IN AN-" Everyone's head snaps to looks at us...ahahaha damn.

" YOU WHAT!" Tanaka screeches and makes his way to both Asahi and Me with Suga following after " YOU ASKED NOYA TO MOVE IN WITH YOU?!" Daichi then follows " BRO WHEN DID YOU GET SO BRAVE?!" Everyone starts bombarding with questions but it's not till we hear a loud child like scream till everyone goes quiet. We all turn to look at the child who made the scream aka Ryu and we're all shocked to see that he's crying.

" OMGSH RYU WHY ARE YOU CRYING?!" I yell getting off of Asahi's lap and running to Ryu who is balling his eyes out. " Shi-chan ish going to move in with ush!" Ryu says in between cries. My heart drops does he not want me too?.. " Do you not want him too?" Asahi ask now towering over me and looking down at Ryu. Ryu rubs his eyes and makes a grabby motions to me, I swiftly pick him up and smile. Ryu then rubs his eyes again and I notice the flush red color tainting his cheeks.

" I ish so happy" Ryu continues still slugging his words do too the fact he's sniffling so much. I feel my heart almost burst. I grab ahold of him tightly and smile " I'm happy too Ryu!" Ryu then cries and me and Asahi look at each other and all hug. I look back and spot Tanaka and Suga smiling at us while Daichi is wiping his eyes.

" Well I guess we got some moving to do!" Suga exclaims now turning around to Daichi and slapping his back " and you're helping!" Suga then grabs ahold of the back of Tanaka's shirt as he tries to slip away " You too!" I turn around with Ryu and Asahi and smile at everyone.

I then hear the word disgusting play in the back of my mind. I brush it off and look at Asahi and Ryu and smile. I'm happy. If this is what being disgusting is like...

I will happily and forever be disgusting.

Asahi looks down at me and smiles " I love you beautiful" I feel my body tense and Ryu perks up " Shi-chan really is pweety!" I feel tears behind to flow. Just what am I going to do with these two?!

Well that's easy!

I'm going to love them unconditionally!