Chapter 26 - Weak But Strong Enough

Daisy's POV

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It felt weird wearing this dress after it became my biggest dream because I wanted to feel like a bride. Unfortunately, this is not how it works. Married because of pregnancy. What the hell? Just once made love immediately happened? Really ... ah, I don't know, I don't know how it happened to myself.

Since finding out about my pregnancy, I've been a little distant from Zen. I don't hate him, it's just that a large part of me doesn't want to be around him. Ah no! I hate him for still trying to keep his secrets to himself.

My wedding is in two weeks. But somehow it felt so strange. I am thinking of canceling this wedding. But I feel bad for the whole thing. It's just that I don't feel ready for marriage. My life has depended on Zen now.

"Zen," I called as we were in the car. I have to ask for leniency until our marriage starts.

"Yes?"

"I want to ask you something. Do you want to grant it?"

"Depends, Daisy." See, right? I haven't even submitted it yet, I started shaking with fear. But no, I should be able to at least be a little free before that sacred wedding.

"What do you want?" he finally asked after I'd been silent, wrestling with myself.

"As long as the wedding hasn't taken place, let me at least be free. Meet anyone, interact with anyone," I finally said. The way I speak is very fluent, even though deep down in my heart, I feel threatened.

Zen was silent. He didn't look at me at all. But I could see his jaw was hardened and the grip on the steering wheel was very ... strong? I can only wait for his answer without pressing him.

"Anybody?" asked Zen repeating my request.

"Anyone," I parrot nodded my head.

"Ok. But I also have a time limit for you to interact with anyone," he said as he put forward a condition. I sighed. Of course, arguing about a request to him would result in a requirement as well.

"Say it." I give up. Indeed, for one thing, some consequences must be taken.

"Only when it starts at noon until seven in the evening. Take it or leave it," he said.

"Deal!" I replied without thinking. Zen knows I'm not the type of woman to linger outside. The time requirement is very small indeed, but he knows what I am like. So, I took that risk rather than nothing.

"If it's one minute past seven I don't see you in the apartment, I'll get you wherever you are," he said threateningly. I roll my eyes because that's how Zen is. He will always know wherever I go, of course, I don't doubt that from him. So I did give up and was a little impatient to meet someone.

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After making sure Zen went to work. I immediately grabbed my cell phone and also a business card that someone once gave me if I needed something to ask. I thought about whether it should be now or not.

I paced while looking at my appearance in the mirror which was a little messy thinking what should I call him now? But I need truth. The truth is not half-hearted, of course. Unfortunately, a part of me felt a little scared. Perhaps this is why Zen was banned so often that it finally gave me a sense of dread.

"Hello?" I say. I finally decided to contact him.

"Daisy ... you finally called me. What's wrong?"

"Can we meet around one in the afternoon? At a coffee shop not far from the apartment?" I asked straight to the point.

The sound of his laughter was clear. He sighed and then stopped laughing. "Well, ok pretty. I'll be waiting for you there. See you."

Ouch, my heart just feels like it just goes away when he says 'pretty' by him. Is it because of his near-perfect handsomeness like Zen? Or are the characters just as dark as Zen?

Not! Now is not the time to feel soared by words. I know this may be at least a trial or a temptation before marriage. Because indeed I have read several times that there are trials and temptations before the marriage begins.

Sitting in front of this man did not cause any reaction to my feelings. Or maybe not yet? Zen is the only one who makes my heart skip a beat every day when I'm with him.

In this coffee shop, I don't drink coffee. Of course, I know the risks that will occur when pregnant women consume caffeine. But I wanted to, and yes ... I managed to prevent half of myself from ordering coffee.

"Your face is a bit pale, what's wrong?" he asked as a conversation starter.

He didn't know about my pregnancy. But I also wished Gerald had told him. But the look on his face didn't show any reaction.

"I'm not feeling well," I answered casually. I don't know why I don't want to tell him now.

"You should have postponed this meeting, Daisy."

"But I need information from you," I said.

One eyebrow rose and looked at me intensely. Intense and managed to make me want to explode right now. His eyes were sharper than Zen. His face ... his face was almost the same as when Zen was serious with me.

"Tell me," he said.

"Who was Zen's ex-girlfriend? The one she was pregnant with?" I asked.

"Kanya."

I know my instincts are never wrong. Or at least emphasize that the female instinct is never guilty of thinking about his ex-girlfriend. Ah, did I just say his ex-girlfriend? Forget it, but that's how it is.

As soon as I heard his answer, my body felt like it was shattering into pieces. Jealousy ran through my every vein.

"And the child's name?" I asked while adjusting the rhythm of my breath.

"Vista. A son," he answered again.

I touched my head. I felt dizzy and I couldn't think straight. "I'm going to the toilet first," I said as I stood up. But suddenly I was a little unsteady until he caught my body nimbly.

"Wow ... wow, Daisy... are you ok?" he asked.

I looked into his eyes together, until for a moment I felt him touching my hair and turning a few strands of hair behind my ear.

I'm just silent. It's not that his face was hypnotized, but that I felt myself go limp for a moment and the thing I remember was that everything went black.

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I woke up with very bright lighting. My ears listened to a voice that was a bit of a debate. I'm still digesting what the voice said, but I'm also trying to figure out where I am right now.

"You mess with her, I won't let you!" it was a male voice. Not a stranger, but I still don't know who he is. Gosh, why do I feel so dizzy? Is this from my pregnancy?

"Well, you know what she's doing, Zen. Don't pretend I'm in the wrong here!" another voice spoke. Who is he?

My moans made the two sounds now on my right and left. I stared at them for a split second. They looked worried, while I was still transfixed with pain and confusion.

Zen and Devan.

I looked at Zen who was just silent with a fierce face but concern in his eyes. While I saw the same Devan but he said, "You didn't tell me that you were pregnant, Daisy."

Ouch! Hearing him says that made me feel a little giddy. It was my fault that I didn't say it in the first place. And yes, I had remembered what happened to me before this until I ended up in this place, in the hospital.

"Sorry," I said quietly.

I glanced back at Zen. He looked at his watch to tell what time it was. Zen suddenly looked at his watch as if he knew what I meant.

"Six o'clock, Daisy. Are you still feeling sick?" he asked when he finally realized his silence.

I just nodded weakly. "Give me a moment with Devan. One hour," I begged. At first, Zen was heavy, but he also remembered my request and the terms of the time he put forward as well. Then Zen finally came out and waited outside.

Now I'm back to focus on Devan. His eyes looked so pitiful since he found out I was pregnant. Even though there was no feeling between us or anything.

"You can tell me you're pregnant, Daisy," he said.

"Then what? You definitely won't give out that information."

Devan chuckled in annoyance. "I can still give you information, but hearing the doctor and Zen say that your pregnancy is weak makes me feel guilty."