The Beginning Of My Troubles

I never had a childhood like most kids should have. I never got that love, that hug that good night kiss. I never got that embraces that most kids got from their parent's.  I had to learn to be an adult at an early age. Some may say she should be running around but unfortunately that did not happen for me. My life was great when I was eight years old and younger. But the older I got the more I realized that things are not suppose to be like this.

This one night me and my sister Ciara was in the room sleep. This particular night I seen her move the bed behind the door. I wake up to see what she what she was doing. Ciara why are you moving the bed behind the door? Go back to sleep Erica it's safe for you to not know. I rolled over in act like I was sleep. I can hear Ciara crying because she was scared. I act like I was rolling over in my sleep. She looked me in my face in laid down. I peeked out my eyes to see if she could see my eyes open. I opened my eyes in seen a shadow by the room door. I could hear somebody trying to come in. I jumped under my cover scared. The next morning my father told her to stop blocking the door with the bed or he going to fuck her up. I sat there wondering like what is he doing to my sister. What could he be doing to make her so terrified to close her eyes in go to sleep.

We sitting at the table learning or math in learning how to read. He gets up to come in the front to question us. If you get it wrong you getting beat with what ever he gets his hands on. He beats on us like we just don't mean nothing to him. He beats you for everything like a crumb on the table you getting beat. Simple things get you beat on for no reason. We all got tested in passed without getting beat on. It's time for us to get ready for bath time. Me in my sister gets in the tub he comes in there in looks at her. I told him to get out girls in here. He left out in looked at my sister. When we got out she went in laid down and put the bed behind the door. I knew something wasn't right because he kept coming into the bathroom while we in the tub. I went back to the room where she was. Ciara Ciara open the door in let me in. She open it in said you coming in or staying out. I went in told my dad she would not let me in. He got pissed off in went back to where she was. He must have been on something because he wasn't the same person earlier. He did the unimaginable thing to my sister and my brother.

My dad went beating on the door for her to open it. I'm standing there looking while he beat on the door. She got up in moved the bed in he busted the door in. What I told you about that bed behind this door. Next thing I know he hits her. Ciara I called my sister name in ran to her side. Move out the way Erica No! I will not let you harm her. He grab me in threw me like a piece of paper being thrown. He kept beating on my sister. Then he pulled her clothes off of her in kept hitting her. Then my oldest brother Phil Jr came charging at our daddy. They both was throwing hands. I'm sitting there screaming stop stop stop. Then my daddy took Phil Jr in throwed him out his house for protecting our sister. I sat there crying my sister Ciara came in grab me in hugged me in told me she loved me.

The next morning she was gone just like my brother. He had done sent my sister to that wicked as bitch of grandmother of ours named Uscler. She was sick in the head too. She was a child predator also. She made her kids have sex with her. Its like a family full of nasty mother fuckers. I cried because I no longer have my sister my ride or die. She was really gone for good in I no longer had my sister to protect me. It left me and baby brother Twan. We was the only ones left in the house of hell. Until one day this lady we never meet told us we had a baby brother. We got to meet her in our baby brother. We was happy to have another brother in the house with us. This one day my daddy decide that we should go out to a family get together.

He went in picked up his wicked ass mother before we went out there. We all got out the car in the kids went with kids an the adults was together. Me in my brothers are running around having fun for once in our lives. But here comes this lying wicked lady. Twan twan I know you hear me calling you. Erica Erica come here I know you'll hear me. The music so loud we didn't hear nothing. We was having so much fun it was like dam this the first time in years. We got to play with other kids. We came towards the car our daddy was ready to go. I went to get my brother's so we can leave. Before we could get to the car that wicked bitch came out of no where. Your kids are some disobedient ass kids. They heard me calling their names in they kept playing.

Before I knew it I stopped her in the middle of her sentence. First off you didn't call us in plus the music loud so how can we hear you. You just bitter in miserable. My daddy got mad in hit me for disrespecting his mother. I looked at him in her like fuck both of you'll. But I didn't say it. As we got in the car he hit twan because my ugly grandmother kept lies going. All the way to the house all we kept hearing is her miserable ass talking. He was pissed off because I did not give a fuck how I spoke to her. When we got home we all bathed in got in our sleeping spots. This particular night I don't know what he was on but he came in there in picked me up. He told me to drop my clothes in get under the cover. I did as told I didn't know what I did. So I peeped from under the cover to see what he was doing. He used one hand to play with my butt and the other was playing with himself.

I moved because I was uncomfortable to even see that. Next thing I know is he telling me to get up in put my clothes back on in I better listen to my grandmother next time.  I left out to go lay down. I see her roll off the chair. She got up in went to his room. I got up in went to the bathroom. Because You can hear through the wall's it's that thin. What did you do to her? Nothing are you sure you didn't touch her? No I didn't do nothing to her.  Are you lying to me because if anything happen I can have your back. No I did not touch her in no kind of way.  Don't lie to me, because if you get locked up I can't help you. I didn't do nothing in if she say anything I'll take her mother away from her forever. Ok now don't let it come back on you. I am not gone let that happen. Ok I'm going to lay back down now. I ran back to my spot in laid down. She looks to see if I was sleep or woke. I laid there thinking is this what he did to my sister Ciara? Is this why she hated him and his mother? I was in a daze that I couldn't seem to get out of.

The next morning I woke up sick in wasn't feeling well. My brother's looked at me with a strange look. My brother twan came over in touch my head. Are you ok Erica? no I don't feel good. He went to get my daddy in my daddy took my temperature. I was 103.2 so he gave me some medicine for fevers and colds. In he kept giving it to me because my fever kept spiking higher. So not knowing he gave me too much. I seen nothing but black. In he grab me up fast in rushed me to the hospital where my mother came too. What the fuck you did to my child? I didn't do nothing she had a fever in I couldn't get it down. In I gave her too much medicine at once. They had to pump my stomach. You stupid mother fucker. Give me my kids bring me there stuff.  I hear my mama snapping on his ass in the hospital. I open my eyes an she was right by my side.  I got better in was able to leave. She was snapping on the phone the whole time. I thought she would never send us back out there again but I guess I was wrong.