Chapter 2 The worse day of my life
Man that was one scary day to almost die in the hands of the person who suppose to protect me. But doing more harm to me then protecting me. But soon as I was able to go back to school. I did not want to stay in school. I would get suspended every week. I would not stay no longer then three days or less. I wanted to stay with my mother everyday all day. This one particular time they had enough of me in locked me up. They got tired of me going home every week. They decided to send me to the detention center. I sat in the Detention Center. I had got called up to be fingerprinted and my picture taken. They sign me up for counseling and anger management classes and put me on probation. I ended up violating not even two days later after being put on probation and anger management and counseling. The people ended up locking me up and making me stay for 41 days. I ended up getting out early because of my other court hearing. And I was a free bird after I left the Detention Center and I never went back at least until the end of the year.
One day I went to school and my father came to the school to pick me up early. My mother had no knowledge of my father coming to get me and neither did I. My father ended up coming to get me an take me to the country. He took me into the house without nobody knowing that I was out there in the country. When we made it to his room he told me to take off my clothes. This day is the day I will never forget. This the day that he really did harm to me and I never thought in a million years that a father would do anything to a child that could damage her for life. I got undress and got under the cover he decide to want to play with himself again but this time he decided to penetrate me. He took his dick an rubbed it across my booty. He thought I couldn't see but I could see from up under the cover. And then I felt him put his dick in me. I scream and he told me to shut the fuck up. He took it out and rub it across my butt again and he finished jacking off. He put his fingers inside of me.
I never felt so violated a day in my life until the day. He made me feel like I didn't want to live anymore. I just wanted to end my life that day. I wanted to just leave this earth. I never knew that the man that I call my dad would harm me so bad. I got up he made me go take a bath and told me if I said anything he will kill my mother and me. He took me home where my mom was waiting on me. Why did you take her out of school early? Because she had to come with me to go somewhere. We had to do something real quick before I brought her back. Why is she looking like that? I don't know hell see never happy to come with me so what makes a difference. She asked me Erica what is wrong with you? Nothing I'm okay I just want to go lay Down.
I went and laid down an started crying till I felt myself drifting off to sleep. When I got up I heard a knock on the door. It was a friend of mine name John that stayed across the way from me. Erica yes you coming out to play with us today. No I don't feel too well today. What's the matter with you? it's nothing I can't really talk about it because if I say something my mother could be killed. Talk to me as he wraps his arms around me. Now talk to me Erica I am here for you. I went on to explaining everything too John he is furious. Where the fuck this nigga at? He don't stay in the city limits. John calm down it's going to be okay I got this. As long as I breath I will be okay. Now John is mad and now he wants to fight. Erica why haven't you told anybody about this? Because I just told you if I said anything my mother could be gone.
He wrapped his arms around me and held me tight. The next day came and I went to school. There's this one particular girl that always fucked with me. This particular day she wanted to start some drama. She walks up behind me in said something about my mother. I jumped up out of my seat. You didn't expect it because I was a short and quite individual. She said one less thing about my mother. Next thing you know we fighting. I beat the brakes off of her. The Sheriff officer in the counselor tried to pull us apart. I wouldn't let go and she wouldn't let go of my hair. He pulled us apart and slammed her onto the table. We both ended up getting locked up that day. But she got kicked out because she was too old to be in middle school anyways. My mom came to the school and ask what happened. They told her that I was going to detention center again. My mama made me stay overnight because she got tired of me doing the same thing over and over and over. This time when I got out I changed a little bit.
After I got out I was able to go back to school the following week. I came to the school to catch up my work. I was a straight-A student though. I might have been bad but my grades always stayed on top. I never let my grades drop. I was going on a field trip with the kids and guidance counselor. We was going on a bowling trip. We decided to play a game of pool and bet some money on it. Soon as we started the game here she come with the bull shit. She messed up the game by rolling the balls with her hands. I got pissed off in started calling her out her name. After we got on the bus she kept on trying me like I'm scary. Erica you better chill before you get expelled yo. I bust out laughing bitch I don't give a fuck. We getting off the bus she kept on talking in I ran up on her an hit her with a two piece. You know of course I was going to get suspended. But I never thought I would be expelled.
I was riding in the back of the sheriff's car he turns in tell me you will never learn. I looked at him like the bitch tried me. I get to the Detention Center I get booked in. I wait on my mother come pick me up. As I sat there thinking. I know I messed up big time ain't no coming back from this. They call my mom and told her I was expelled from All Florida schools. It was so bad Ace did not even want to take me. They said I was a danger to their staff. The only option I had was Tmi. I never in a million years thought I would get expelled from All Florida schools. I ended up and a Institution School where you couldn't leave until 6 p.m.… It was my worst year ever. Not only did I mess up but my life of being molested was far from over until I meant my guardian angel.