The Drama Begins

You know me I'm friendly so I invited Lisa in my circle not knowing she would cause so much drama. Me an Tonya was going out to eat one night I was buying dinner and drinks so Lisa wanted to come but didn't have the coins. We was gone get a bottle in go back to Tonya house until we found out that her baby daddy was sis baby daddy also so I started laughing inside. I just poured her some in a cup and we went out still. Me an  Tonya wrap our evening up we do our normal talk in smoke and head in. One  day I decided to invite Lisa over to get to know Tonya in from that day I made the biggest mistake of my life. Because it was like me and Tonya started arguing like we go together and everything started falling apart so one day I came to a conclusion it's time for change.

So of course I had to make some changes with this us hanging together thing because Lisa was getting a little to close to Tonya in I didn't like it she was being sneaking as hell like she did before but I nipped it in the butt quick. I got to meet Tonya family and they gave me a nickname big booty Judy. I was excepted in the family. One  day Lisa came along I really didn't want her around so I started acting funny In was ready to go because every time they around each other it's secrets. So of course we did what we do but that time I wasn't into it I was straight I put my music in my ears in rolled over in went to sleep.  Then the next day I got up went home in the rain in started walking. Tonya got in the truck in made it before I could get down the road get your ass in this truck.

I got in what's your problem? Nothing don't lie to me Erica what's wrong? Nothing I know you lying so talk or we not going no where.  I started talking she was like you don't have nothing to worry about I don't want her the way she act to much alike in it won't even work. So that's why you played your music? Yes that's why you know you is a big baby. No I'm not yes you is Erica but just know can't nobody come between us but us two. I smiled in got out in went in my house.  The next day I get a called bring that ass women.  I got up in got dress to leave the crib. But this one particular day I never in a million years thought I would stop dealing with her.

The day I thought would never come but it did. Was the day I had to cut everybody from my past out my life except two but that got cut down to one now. So this one particular day me my bestie Karen and my sis Lisa was hanging together one day and my friend ask me to give Lisa her number but Lisa phone don't work so she used mines. So of course I gave Lisa the big daddy that night in she went to sleep before me. But she always wakes up early in the am. As I'm sleeping of course she knows my passwords and how to get in my phone and use it. So as I was laying there I'm out like I don't hear nothing. I check my phone to see if somebody call or text I haven't gotten none. So okay as the days go by I'm looking like dam why my bestie haven't called me yet.

I called her she cursing me out I'm looking like wtf. why is you mad with me? Erica why would you text me some mess like that at 3:30am in the morning? What is you talking about I was sleep. I showed her my text messages and call log so she couldn't say I was lying. She looked at it in said well dam that ain't what I got on my end.  I looked at the messages she sent to me. It did come from my phone. I'm looking through the messages and I was thinking to myself I was sleep next to Lisa round that time.  Then she  told me her wife Meka slapped the color off her face while she was sleep. Her wife went through the messages and look at all those nasty texts. I said girl you know dam well I don't be up that late unless something is bothering me.

She thought about it you right and the way she was texting I should of known it wasn't you duh said Erica. Right you should of Just came to me and ask me about that instead of assuming stuff.  I got up I ask her why she did that. She said she don't know nothing about it.  I left it alone because I felt betrayed in hurt like you supposed to be my sister but you betrayed me for the last time. I was like this is the last straw I can't deal with petty people no more. We all had a three way conversation about the messages it was straight attitude. I was calm as all out doors in just said my peace of words and left it like that. Over the years I been putting up with the same hurt over and over again. But this time I can handle myself like an adult in let it go. She still my sister an I'm gone always love her no matter what but this line was the last line.

You know as the weeks went by my life became a lot peaceful well at least for a little while. One day my friend Tonya friend guy came to my house in her car. He calls me come outside I'm outside.  I put on my shoes in head outside to smoke with him. So then he went to talking about his problems with my friend Tonya and her people. I'm listening to him why he's hurting inside he tells me everything. One day he came by my house out of the blue. I said wyd here? I came to see you. My mouth drop like really. Do she know you over here? No she don't I told her I was going to my baby mama house to chill with my son.  I'm thinking to myself like this is so not right. As the weeks went on he came by every two days or every week. It was becoming a habit of him coming over.

I told my best friend Karen. I was like bestie I need to talk to you what's up? You know Tonya guy friend been coming to my house over the pass four months without her. In I feel it's wrong but I don't do nothing but smoke with him.  Karen aka bestie said you better stop it before some drama come out of it. I was like yeah you right about that there. That same night I was talking to violet about him coming over to my house like for the pass few months she said the same thing as my bestie said. The same night I got off the phone with violet. I get a call please come outside I need to talk to you. I put on my shoes in we left from my neighborhood to the park and he was actually hurt.

We talked until it was time for him to get off work.  I get a messages later saying I really wanted to Fuck. My mouth drop so the next day he came back over and we talked. He leaned in and kissed me saying I been wanting to kiss you. We chilled on the chair we talked. He was telling how they was treating him like nothing.  I told him to keep his head up and keep the faith don't never let the devil steal your joy. Then one day we got high as usual in he started kissing me. I'm like this not right what about Tonya. He said she will be okay with it as long as its nobody else. He kissed me from head to feet. In my mind I'm thinking I can't do this but when he ate it out it's was a wrap.

So of course this wasn't a one time thing it happen plenty of times before but this time he said he want it to be special.  I was like it still ain't right. He finished an went back to work and went home and bath and went to sleep or whatever he did but he always made sure I got a good morning babes and a good night. I was like dam I wish I could erase all of this out because I know Tonya going to be hurt. The next day came he came over round 8 and we chilled outside cause my brother was home.  All of us outside talking until Jr went in. He grab me in kissed me I mean tongue in all. I laughed really? Yeah really. We talked he was talking about how Tonya is towards him and what he gone do to her and her family if they try him. I'm sitting there listening minded I had my best friend on the phone.

He was talking I was trying to get his mind to change from all that hate and anger to give it to God. My cousin pulled up and he picked up Jr and they left.  I went in my house in told him bye but he came in and started kissing me.  He started kissing and eating me out.  And then it was on from there. He was moaning while he was getting ready to come. He came he kissed me and ate it again in left. I got up in bath and got dressed. But that what happen next really brought reality to my eye's. I have decided today was going to be the last day of this sneaking around. The day has come I had to tell Tonya what was going on between me and her guy friend. I knew in my mind that the trust we had was gone after I tell her this.  I told her everything that was said between us and what he heard them say about me and in the living room of there home. He  left I called Tonya in ask a question

Tonya was she talking about me yesterday? No I was not talking about you I don't have no problem with you or anybody else.  I told her who I heard it from and I told her everything that was said to me from her guy friend. She set up a sit down between me him and the fam. We told our parts of the story he denied everything that he said. I couldn't do nothing but cry because I felt like he's a lier. Ma calmed me down in said don't cry it's okay. But I was being so honest with her that it hurt me to even sit in front of her in tell her. He didn't tell her he left my house just a few minutes before he went to hers and he did me some favors before he made it there.

But I didn't say nothing because it was enough said that day. But I knew I had done lost her trust and her love. This time I know I messed up with her. I wish I could erase all the hurt out her heart and tears she shed at night. Words can't express the way I feel for about Tonya. I feel so bad about what I done. Tonya just don't know how bad I feel and how much I love her but I know we are still cool but not like before. I will never stop loving Tonya because she was always real in I love her for that. But I had to move on with life. So after all that mess went down. I had time for myself to get my mind right in get over it.