After that beautiful day yesterday I get a surprise call from my brother Lil Fred. He express his feeling for violet. I really want to make violet my wife. What do you think? Idk all I can say is work your way up to getting to that point. You have to build trust and honesty before you jump in. You have to think about what you need to work on before jumping the broom so fast. We talked until he made the move to speak to violet. Look what can I do to get you back on my side. I really want to marry you. I really do love you with all my heart. In I want you to be mines. I bol Erica what you laughing at? Ooh tv just watching family guy. Oh okay yeah any who continue your conversations. We all was on the phone for hours. Talking about idk what I wasn't paying them no mind I was into my game on my phone and writing. But I know I ended my conversation because I had in early morning. I went to my appointment to see why my ankle not healing.
Now I have to depend on people and don't nobody know how it feels to not be able to provide. I am more scared of the surgery then the healing process. But I know God got me because I know how high my faith is. In I have the best praying warriors on my team. I have a lot of positive people in my life. But this one particular day really let me know who my real friends and family is when I'm down in out. I never thought in my life I would have the best people in my life. God sent me some of the best people ever. They not even blood but they treat me like we are. My brother lil Fred is the violent one. My two sis Karen and violet are the crazy ones I love them to death. My baby mama Tonya she's a great person even doe we have our ups and downs ain't nothing gone come between us.
I have a crew of a crazy ones on my team but they are some true life prayer warriors. If anything they will pray before they go to the next man. I can say long as I been round them I have changed a lot like I don't even hang out like that. I stop doing drugs they got me back into church in getting me right. They always had my back when I was down and out. I can say this I wouldn't trade them for nothing in this world they will always be my ride or dies. In I can say my life did a whole 360 when it came to hanging with these four. Then I also got my love of my life Maya never thought she would come back to me until this one special day.
I get a message on Fb hey how are you doing? I'm fine how are you doing? I'm good just getting home relaxing. We get into details in started talking. Its not one day that goes by we do not talk to each other. We became friends and we are working our way to a relationship in I love every minute. Maya and my brother Lil Fred and my mother was by my side through my surgery. My bestie came up there fucked up talking about pussy and all this crazy stuff in them people building. We in that place killing ourselves laugh until the lady called me to the back. I went to the back in was in a good spirit because I had done prayed that the lord had covered me in his blood. And I had been prayed for by all my friends. I went in singing Gospel in the lady look at me in said what are you singing? I said Ooh this Gospel song by Rance Allen something about the name Jesus she said you sound good. I was like thank you. She was like you in a good spirit.
I told her yeah when you got faith in God and you have friends who pray you would too. She was like you right Erica keep that faith high. I laugh in said thank you and I will. I got prep for my next part of surgery the lady in Me where laughing. She was like I got a mask it has a new smell cause it's new. I was like okay in took in some deep breath. Just laughing at the lady in her jokes. Until I realize I was out in three seconds. I was tricked in believing it was oxygen in reality it was sleeping gas. I woke up I'm looking round like what the world just happen. I look down at my foot like it's got a big white thing on it. The lady came in and said Erica how you feeling? I'm doing good so far. She said are you in pain? No ma'am. I'm good actually I don't feel nothing yet. My mama and Lil Fred came back there to see me after I woke up. I went to straight clowning when I woke up from that gas.