Tired Of The Games

Who would ever known I would stop fucking around with Tonya. She always had my heart in kind of still do. But I had to move on with my life. She still have my kids so she will always be in my life. But now I'm doing what I do best in that's have fun with my Sister Nila my cousin Violent an my friend Karen. When I say these pass three months have been hard getting over Tonya. I manage to get over with no problem since my time have been occupied with my friend . Since Arie been in my world she keeps me busy with finding baby stuff. You know I love to shop especially for babies. She knows I'm going to spoil her even if I'm not her girl. She will always be that friend that's petty but will give you raw advice no suger coating.

But this particular day she decided to make my life a living hell between my ex lover an her sister's. She came to take me to an appointment for my shots. She decided to post a status on the blue app about people I call my friend an sisters. Next thing you know I'm getting calls from everybody that seen the status. I'm in my appointment I get over thirty messages about the status she tagged me in. I looked at the status like omg why did you post that now they gone feel like I said something to you about them. But that's not the case. I never talked to her about none of them. I decided to unfollow in delete everybody out my phone an off my blue app. I decided to be the bigger person in dead the whole status because it was becoming childish for them to keep shit going. I decided to even stop talking to her also because she started the bullshit. She started it because her in her mate was going through so she decided to fuck up my day. I killed all they asses in went back to talking to Maya. Maya is about the only person I could talk to that wasn't childish or ignorant. She gave me some good advice about the situation. She was a great friend but horrible at relationships.

Later that night I get a call from Tonya. What are you doing? nothing laying down watching tv. Oh what you told that girl about me? look like I told your sisters I didn't say shit to that about none of you'll. You'll are the least thing on my mind or topic. What that status for? you ask her since you want to know in she'll tell you out of her mouth. I'm not no middle man for none of you'll. If you'll gone fight then do you'll but don't put me in none of you'll shit. She already got you in the middle. No she don't got me in shit. I'm a grown women in nobody can put me in shit if my two cent wasn't in it. Tonya got mad in hung up the phone. She get's on the blue app in try to sale out but what she fail to realize she not hurting me. I don't give fuck about none of that shit she talking. She been worried about my pussy every since we went our separate ways. It's like she say one thing but feel another way. She worse then Cary. Cary is Arie an she do the same shit. It's like they be running off everybody that talks to me. But the only difference is Tonya be big mad or salty about who I'm fucking.

I just wash my hands when it comes to understanding these two they make my life a living hell. I have a child with Tonya so she not going no where. We stuck until he turns eighteen years old. She knows this already how I am about my child. Even if I don't talk to her my child gone always have. She knows her spot in my life in right now that's on the shit list. But I can't complain because I took her through a lot. I caused her so much pain in heart ache when I did what I did. I can't count how many times I told her I'm sorry. I know sorry ain't cutting it no more. I wish I could take back the hurt but can't. I try to show her I'm here for her in prove to her I changed but that's not good enough for her. All the action in the world won't change that. I had to learn life goes on with or without her in my life. I had to learn that people only change when they want too. At the end of the day I know she not going to ever be the same with me in I have excepted that. But I will not let her disrespect me anymore. I just backed away in stayed away I love her I do but I love me more.