Chapter 19 Beach

Angelica

"Oh I love salad," I said. "Thank you, Jade."

"Your welcome. It'll arrived soon." Jade said. "Do you have twitter, Angelica?"

I shook my head shyly, "No, I don't."

Jade raised her eyebrows, "Facebook?" and I shook my head again, "Tumblr?"

I furrowed my eyebrows, "What's that?"

"Oh my god, Instagram?"

I chuckled, "Yeah, I have that."

"Only Instagram?" Jade asked.

"Yeah, I'm not really into social media." I shrugged, "I just find it useless honestly and I'm very private so yeah."

"Really..." Jade drank her water bottle. "I've never meet someone so out of social media especially at your age. They're mostly attached to it."

I shook my head, "No, not me. I just find it pointless actually." I said.

"That's what Nicholas always said, he has no other social media besides Instagram. He hates it when someone ask him why, he just does not like it. He's kind of private too." Jade said. I look behind her and see Nicholas and the brunette flirting and touching each other.

That's it.

"Is it okay if I walk? I need some air." I said.

Jade started to look worried, "Are you really sure your okay?"

I gave her a reassuring smile, "Jade I'm fine. I'll be right back." She said okay and I started walking away from them.

Further. Away. From. Them.

I really need to clear my head, walking with my barefoot feels amazing. I walk a little further until I didn't see them anymore, my dress flows through the air and so does my hair. I feel so relaxed now that I am all alone. I sat down -further away from the shore so I don't have to wet myself. I didn't notice that I was also bought my camera so I snapped a few photos.

I remember those days when I was in college with Rodrick, he was the only person I could talk to. I feel so insecure, nobody dares to talk to me not until introduced himself. I didn't really trust Rodrick at first because I thought he only made conversation with me cause I was alone in the corner of the room but I thought wrong.

I was never an outgoing person, I'd rather stay in bed and isolate myself as much as I could and the only person I trust was Nicholas and my parents and Sarah. I watch some movies, sleep, eat, read some book and do art, That's what I always do.

When I was in London, Nicholas preferred the same way, we like to stay Hidden. Nicholas do have some friends but he's never a party freak, that's why we always get along. Nicholas always visit in our home and like to play games with my dad, Nicholas was a sweet guy, nothing more. My parents trust him, I trust him, I didn't trust anybody except him.

Even though I was in my apartment I still cry over Nicholas. I miss him each day and the worse part was, I miss Zeke too but I have to be away from our home town so I can finish my studies. That was the hardest part of my life but Rodrick never failed to cheer me up. Rodrick was the reason why I experienced Parties, Drinks and a lot of parties.

I never considered him as a bad influence cause I know he's just trying to cheer me up with my problems. Rodrick had his first heartbreak in college too with the guy cheated on him and I never knew I could punch a guy. That's how we love each other, we protect each other. Rodrick helped me move on and I did the same I would never trade Rodrick to anybody else and he's too precious for me.

"Why did you left?"

A voice made me jumped.

"Can you stop doing that Nicholas!" I groaned, "Can you just Hi?" I retorted.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to startled you." Nicholas apologized.

"Too bad, You did." I said still looking at the sea smashed to the shore. "Why are you here?"

"I just wanted to see you," He said. "Remove your sunglasses, I wanna see your eyes."

"No thank you, the sun kind of hurts." I said coldly.

"Why? Did you sleep well last night?"

"No,"

"Why?"

I frustratingly stood up, "Can you just go? I just want some space from everyone, my problems and most especially you!"

"What did I do?" He ask innocently.

"A lot!" I shouted. "A lot! You've cause and damage. A lot!"

"Angela," He said, trying to come close to me,

"Don't Angela me Nicholas!" I stopped him, "Don't come near me because I don't want it to happened again."

"I was just —"

I held up my hands up. "Why don't you just go and talk to that stupid brunette, leave me alone. Please!" I begged.

I sat back down and crossed my arms. I started to calm down not until he started laughing beside me.

I furrowed my eyebrows, looked at him. "What?" I retorted.

"Are you jealous?" He asked, a smile plastered on his face.

I feel my face heated up, "Excuse me? Why would I be jealous?"

He chuckled and shrugged, "I don't know maybe because you are?"

I stood up angrily. "I am not Nicholas. Stop this we are not teenagers anymore!"

"But I miss being a teenager," He said still smiling at me.

I frowned and said, "Too bad. I don't." I said and started walking pass him but he grab me by the hand making me stop. "Let me go, Nicholas!"

"Not again. Not anymore." He said seriously. "I know you have a boyfriend but I don't care Angela. You were mine and always be mine."

I sarcastically chuckled, "Oh so you think you can get me just like that? I'm sorry Nicholas I'm not the same vulnerable and naive Angela that you know. That was all before." My swollen eyes started to tear up again. "I love him and I hate you. I always always hate you!" I ripped my arms out of his, "I hate you so leave me alon—"

He smash his lips into mine, disappointingly I responded so quickly like I was expecting it to come and it felt like in the movies that I always watch. He parted his lips and entered his tongue into my mouth making me released a soft moan. I suck on his bottom lip and pull him closer to me.

"You don't hate me," He said in between our kisses, "You don't hate me," He hoisted me up. Broking the kiss, he looked at me, "If you do, you won't miss me like this Angela. You won't kiss me like that last night." He removed my sunglasses and put it at the top of my head and revealed my watery eyes. "I know you miss me why do you have to pretend that you don't."

"Because I hate you," A single tear drop on my cheeks. "I hate you because you left me. I hate you because you didn't fight for me. I hate you Nicholas." He slowly put me down.

"I missed you, I know I do. but I'm not gonna be a fool and get my self in the same trap again." I wiped a tear and said, "I deserve so much better. And now if you excuse me, I have some photoshoots to do." I straighten my dress and put on my glasses back and left him there.