Chapter 20 A Visit?

Angelica

If things aren't meant to be, don't push it.

I learned that phrase in a way that I couldn't believe in myself. When I was in college I used to stay in the library for a killing time spree, Victoria the librarian always expect me to come. She told me a little bit of her life and she said, value the things that you already have and stay conscious with the things that are about to come.

I don't really know what it meant but I think it's about to be prepared what is about to come. Life is complicated if you ask me, nobody's life is perfect, no matter how rich you are, no matter how beautiful, no matter how flawless you are, you will never be perfect. No matter how much effort you put there's always gonna be that one specific person think otherwise.

I really don't know what's going inside my head right now but I'm trying to forget everything. I'm at the edge of my limits. We've done a week shooting and I'm honestly happy that we have done it without complications but Nicholas has been trying to reach out with me but I still refuse to talk and I just distract myself by listening to Cindy and Jade's gossip about some celebrities that I do not know.

I miss Jeff but he's always busy at the hospital and Rodrick is on a date with his boyfriend, they've been gone since the last time he's here, I think they went out of the city. I'm happy for him, at least he's happy. If he's happy I'm happy I just don't like seeing Rodrick crying, he is such a bubbly person, out going, sassy and cheerful. I see another Rodrick whenever he cries and vulnerable, I don't like seeing him like that at all but still I'm happy for him and here I am trying to forget my ex and focused on my next but my heart and brain aren't cooperating well.

Today is our day off and I'm in my living room watching tv with Zeke wearing my pajama. I deserve a break for trying to keep my cool for a week. I'm tired of seeing Nicholas everyday, I'm starting to get annoyed by him. I just want some personal space because he knows how much I hate to be in a crowd or with a crowd but I have to suffer a month and half for this shoot. I don't wanna complain I have high amount salary, they have helped me a lot, I don't wanna disappoint them.

I grab my phone when I feel a little vibration, it was a message from Nicholas on Instagram. He's really following me around, "Angela."

I replied with a simple, "No" with a black heart emoji.

"What's with the black heart?"

"It's called, go away, leave me alone, I wanna have some space."

"But we're miles away,"

I tapped my phone, "I don't care."

"I just wanted to talk,"

"Texting through the phone is not a consideration to me, Nicholas Evans."

"So you want to talk personally?"

"Nope."

"Why not?"

I caps locked my keyboard and said, "BECAUSE NO MEANS NO."

"When are we gonna talk?" He said with the pleading eye emoji.

I don't know this kind of emojis existed, "Never."

"Angela,"

"Stop replying or I'm gonna block you."

"But I just wanted to talk,"

"I" I accidentally send the 'I' when I heard Zeke coughing roughly on the floor playing with his trains. "Zeke are you okay?"

"I'm okay," He smiled and continued playing on his trains.

I looked at my phone with a message of Nicholas already, "I - what?"

"Nothing. I send that accidentally,"

"Why what happened?"

"Zeke was coughing I thought there was something else."

"Is he alright?"

I didn't even bother replying when I heard Zeke cough again, "Zeke?" I stood up and went to him, "Are you alright?" I started rubbing his back, "Sarah can you bring me a glass of water please."

Zeke was coughing nonstop and Sarah brought me a glass of water, "What's wrong bud?" Sarah worriedly asked Zeke.

I touched Zeke's forehead and he was burning up, "Baby your burning up." I started to carried him upstairs to his bed. "Sarah bring the medicines please and my phone on the couch as well," my phone was vibrating like crazy, it must be Nicholas no doubt.

I put Zeke on his bed and he started to curl like a ball making me worried even more, "Baby, are you okay?"

He nodded, "I feel cold."

"What were you doing yesterday?" I asked, "What made you sick?"

"It was raining yesterday and he wanted to play in the rain. So I let him, I shouldn't have let him play that long." Sarah said bringing the medicine to me.

Jeff told me about the exact measurements for Zeke if ever he got sick, this much be the perks of having a boyfriend Doctor. I let Zeke drank his medicine and cover him up with his blanket. "I'm glad I'm on my day off because if this happened on my shoot. I'll be heading straight home."

Even though it's my rest day I can't really take a rest, I have a son to take care of. "Here's your phone, Angela."

I mumble a Thank you and she excused herself to clean the living room where Zeke's toy is, "Are you sure your okay?"

"Yeah, I'm okay." Zeke said and smile. "I'm sleepy." He mumble and I started to pat his hips to make him fall asleep then my phone vibrated again.

It was a bunch of message from Nicholas.

"Angela?"

"Angela are you there?"

"What happened to Zeke?"

"Is everything Alright?"

"Angela?"

"I'm getting worried what happened."

"If you don't reply I'm coming."

"Angela?"

"Is He alright?"

"Is Zeke alright?"

"That is it I'm coming."

I hurriedly replied, "What do you mean 'I'm coming' you don't know where I live!"

He was typing and I was waiting oh so patiently. "I saw your application form, resume and more."

"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?!"

"From MFC." He chatted.