Ch 1: Another birth of a juvenile

The world seemed so clear when it's from your own imagination. Knowledge that we understood, wisdom that we memorized, history that we scrutinised, learned the best from all the best, atleast I thought like that before I born again as the youngest juvenile of my era as I still admit to myself.

I grew up in very rich family where no one ever taught me history is not for repeating it again, it was for learning the mistakes that others already have done before anyone ever did. My parents never took the liberty of spending anytime with me but i grew up as a very decent, kind hearted man as other said of course. My parents tried to give everything they could buy with money to educate me as a normal rich kid, went to help the poor, helped the refugees, did camping, helped other poor people to collect donations, helped in restoration projects of my country and many more. At the end of my education and training period, I transformed into a glorified, unstoppable glamorous man until I left to enjoy my part of adventure. It never even happened if I didn't founded a very old little junk box in my father's home town. He had his own house there which was very small relatively to our own. I went there for maintenance on behalf of my father's left out legacy of origin. I was freshly ended my student life, focusing on my parents legacy as I was the only child who was named as Mihai Davies from Adam Davies and Samantha Davies only son and heir.

Everything I cleaned up from the house, dust, dirt, garbage, done what needed to be done, now it was my exploration time. I went to my father's things to find something interesting from his early teenage years or childhood that could makes me more closer to him. As I said, my parents spent money on me to build me up as an heir of their legacy but never gave me any precious moments of my life or time. Both of them always too busy for doing business. My father and mother was inseparable from each other. Both couldn't leave without each other but probably that was the reason, I grownup as an independent person. I did miss them when I was grasping in my failures, learning to stand on my feet, feeling bad for my own stupidity and emptiness of my own smartness but it also didn't make me a sensitive psychopath. I was thankful to myself for enjoying my lonesome life. My father had a good tastebuds for books. All rare priceless books from all around the world carefully sheltered in the wood shelves. I wasn't ready what I had going to knew about myself. I found out a very old junk box at the back of a book that's been for centuries standing tall in that bookshelf. The dust stuck the book in its place, I had to forced it to move. I moved it to clean it. It was looking too dirty but I was wrong it looks like that but it stiffened up there. When I opened that little rusty junk box there I found out a small envelope address to my father from Huns. Who could be from there? I was surprised by it. It was sealed with a special symbol on melted wax, it was open, someone read it already, probably, my father. It was not empty, there was a letter.

Dear,

Adam, my beloved husband, do you still remember me? Your only true love or your only lover or I must say your childhood friend or your admirer. Remember? I hope you have not forgotten me so easily, it's me, Lilith, your Lilith, your only Lilith, I truly believed that you haven't forgotten me and our love, because I wrote this letter in my utmost emergency, or else you know me better than I do, I would have never going to write you about my share of life unless you came to visit me. The way you behaved with everyone, people could easily in love with you but your avoidance of female characters killed you as a romeo of our alley. Still, they afraid of you, do you know that? They couldn't think of you as their dream man. What did you do to them that they could not want you, it stayed undiscovered to me.

You never wrote me anything about you and your life. You have just gone like, gone forever, as if you have never existed in here. I missed you very much specially when I was giving a birth of your child, yes darling, you gifted me a child on my last birthday before you left me alone on the hands of Edward, I really wish you can remember that too. You were very rich arrogant brat, do you know that. If he wasn't there at that time, I could have died, you know. No, you don't know, you were the most selfish, always the jealous one, never talked about it, just flew away wherever you like. Such a naive act from your part and ignorant as well, no one expected, especially not me. I always believed at you that you never going to leave me but you did, you did when I was having your first born child, you accused me by your attitude that it was not yours, it was Edward's. Do you have any good reasoning for your sudden act of stubbornness and disappearance? Edward never said to me anything but after your disappearance, he did everything for me to make me and Mihai safe and happy but he stopped meeting me like he did before when you were with me. I am not writing this letter for complaining against you but to tell the real truth that happened after you have left us. I have received your letter after Mihai's birth that's why, I have got the confidence and courage of writing to you, forgive me for my late response, you have only written one letter by so far. I was too hurt to accept your rudeness and cruelty upon me and Mihai, I never did anything that made you do something like this. You could have say to me something when you were jealous and feeling left out from me. You have taken way too long to understand your mistakes but I have no intentions of forgiving you, just remember that.

But it's been long past, I didn't write this letter for giving you any kind of advice about your duties but I needed to write it to you. It's about your son, Mihai, you have to keep him with you. Edward died in stomach cancer, it's been few years now and darling, don't be afraid I am not the burden that you need to keep or look after. Nature and your good fate did me right, I am dying, yes me too, dying for good, don't want you to be nagged or bothered by my illness, moreover, I am leaving you my only treasure on your name because he has no one but you. My health get worsened after his birth, too much blood I had lost after delivery and it was unstoppable since, other than that I am a healthy woman. He is his father's child, even he looks like you, he never made me for once to forget about you but I should have because our town has sufficient handsome gentleman than you were ever could be to me. You will accept him as your son when you are going to see him, there will be no doubt about it that I didn't deceive you.

Do you remember father Pedro? I hope you do, he was the one who suggested me not to get married with you, he thought you couldn't take care of me as I deserve, when he was giving our marriage, he was the only one who was very happy for us, as if I was his own daughter, he will be visiting soon to you in the home of church of England. He has to attend various kinds of humanitarian activities in the headquarters. After my death, I will give Mihai to him, under his kindness, he will spend few of his valuable and precious time with him, you can take Mihai from his capable hands. When you get this letter, I will be dead by then. I hope you will not leave your only child to the hand of God as an orphan. If you like, you can confirm that if it is your child or not, I will leave you my blood and DNA samples. I hope it would be helpful for you.

Forgive me, my love, for being a foolish woman and leaving you my only precious love for you to remember, I guess you will not be annoyed or disturbed by my ignorant feelings. It is not your fault that I am dying and Edward died too. Our life just ended without you that's all. Did you know Edward too was in love with you? Because he didn't get married only worried about you and me. You are really a good person but obediently arrogant and selfishly selfless man that I ever met in my life, probably that's the reason, I fall for you till my end, I am still confuse and curious at the same time, why I fell in love with you not with Edward as you had dreamed of. Just miss me and remember me okay, I will be with you always, like always, you owed me a forgiveness, always remember that.

Take a very good care of both of you. Negligence is not acceptable.

My darling.