8.regret.

Class was the last thing on my mind. As my thoughts were occupied by the rooftop incidents,indeed ethan is a different guy,he has different ways to express his emotions,he is vulnerable but he is just like a harmless butterfly,scared of this world, Scared to be crushed between this ruthless society, although he has a cold exterior I know he can open up,maybe not soon but he will for sure, atleast I want him to....

I see the guy of my thoughts lost his gaze outside the window observing the birds on the tree, unconcerned about the class going on,he puckers his lower lip out unknowingly as he watches those birds building their nest attentively,the light out side the window shining in his eye,the tan skin of his looking heavenly to my sight,a sudden boom of voice making him look my way!

"Eyes over here! Miss jones"the professor says!,..... oh yeah thats me!

"Uh! yes!.sorry sir!"I blabber."I see u find mr miller more interesting then my class?"he questions as removes his glasses from the bridge of his nose. Holy-...I feel embarrassment coming running to me as my eyes go big as watermelons... whole class starts whistling and throwing remarks,...im caught staring

I see ethan at the corner of my eye,I see him looking down at his hands, not wanting to face the class or the professor,but he has that smirk on his face as looks up to me!...my cheeks heat up,I look like a fucking lava,hot(cheeks)and red.,I don't know how I'm gonna face him!"if ur done with staring contest I'd like you to come back to the class ,you both!" this professor just couldn't let his mouth shut for a while for godsake!.

I turn my head down and trying to avoid all eyes which were on me!

Great!just great! I m now their centre of attention! small wispers and comments can be heard,I don't like this much attention,I'm not used to it,it just makes me feel outcasted...

"Outcasted!"...my eyes sting tears as I remember her,how must have she felt when everyone did that to her, threw vulgar words to her,she must have felt so suffocated,she must have gone through 1000x times more embarassment and harrasment!

Past

I was devasted by the club incident,and all I asked Ezra was to stay away from Niall and his friends,I haven't seen her for a week now as I avoided going college to run away from people's unwanted comments,I felt isolated,and mad that even Ezra didn't bother to meet me!

Maybe she was caught up with some work,I know she isn't like that... she'll never be like them she'll understand me.....right?

Night passed and the day was shining bright....I knew I had to go to college and face them!I was ready

I was walking through the hall with College students nasty glares and hurtful comments,my head low,eyes fixed on the floor..

"Eew!here comes the bitch part 2"

"Atleast ezra doesn't hide in her hole!like This stinky mouse"

"Best-hoe-friends-forever"

Most of them being Niall's side chiks and obsessed nutheads,but a comment made me turn around to face the caked face girl "Ezra didn't come with you?still busy screwing random dudes or should I say Ross!"she said

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Wait!? Ross??ezras ex! Niall's bestie whom she dumped 3monthes back?.. why'd they talk about him!and why hell would she be screwing Ross?

"What do you mean?what does she have anything to do with that asshole of a Ross?"I bark at her

"Oh! don't act as if u don't know!whole college knows it!why do you think she didn't talk to you or met you these days?she has her own life dude,she doesn't care about you!ur just like her servent to accompany her to college,she threw you away like her past exes!she doesn't give a flying shit about your life"she laughs with her side chipmunks!"

What are they talking about!??im-

"Go check the lockers ull get plenty knowledge of what's happening and how youve been played by her"

I barge towards the lockers, people are standing in a crowd looking at smth, particularly a picture,I push people out of my way to have a glance,

Shock would be a understatement... silence!thats what I felt after seeing it even in the loud hall way!!betrayal!! why??

There was Ezra in the picture on top of Ross eating face,smile evident in her face,as she was stardling him ...naked!

I tore away the paper picture!

"MOVE AWAY!!!EVERYBODY FUCKING MOVE AWAY!! IT'S NOT A SHOW YOU'LL ARE ENJOYING!! FUCKING LEAVE!!"I SHOUTED with the top of my lungs,I saw more pictures stuck everywhere on the walls,I was tearing them away from the walls like mad,tears flowing,I push a guy away from my way who was looking at the picture.

"U might remove these pictures!but what about the vedio on internet? there are already lakhs of views on it"says a guy mocking me ,

Wut!?I throw all the things out of my bag , to check the phone,....

... there was whole fucking entire sextape on the internet with Ezra in it!! she didn't seem like she was protesting at all,the guys face was not much visible but people who knew him could easily makeout that it was ross,she was doing it on her own as if she was possessed,I couldn't watch it as if it was squeezing me Inside ,my mind wasn't able to process anything I broke down!she can't be this low!?can she?

The hallway breaks into sudden wispers and shouts,I look up to find ezra coming my way trying to remain strong, straight face,eye bags evident,eyes red,she wrapped her self in loose sweats , sweater,gloves with mufflers as if she doesn't wanted to show a single peice of her skin!

She stands in front of me!with a tight face,my tears drop on the floor!

I see all the cunning eyes on her!

"Hey! Ez!wanna try me!I'mma give you a good company"

"You looked lik-"

I drag her with me out side towards the roof top not listening anything!

I immediately face her as I see her in front of me still maintaining her strong demour,

"I wasn'-'t able to- me-et y-..I wanted to-tel you thi - iwa-" she was stuttering,

*she is using you!she doesn't care about you!she is having her fun even during ur so called breakdown* the words from the girls from the hallways ring in my ear!

She knew I was devasted after the Niall incident at the club!but she didn't come to meet me,ok! I thought she was busy!I see where she was busy!....I told her not to meet those Niall's friends,but no she is gonna go to the club with them., atleast I thought she wasn't like one of those hoes selling themselves sleeping with everyone,but no she gotta prove me wrong!

"WHY!?"I shout!..."wai- you don't bel-"I cut her off "just why!???why were you with them?I told you to stay away from those rascals!"

"Its not w-"

"No!! seriously!u knew I was not okay! But you didn't care talking to me to check up on me!,I thought u were better then that!!.....but no! U are just like them...those whores!!who sell themselves off for a night!" I say with red teary eyes,I was broken,I don't know,who was saying this, maybe it was jealously,or anger,or the people's word's affecting me but I needed to get this out of me!

She was staring at me,as a whole World broke down on her,she slowly tried hold my hand with still hope which I refused to see"listen i had a reason o-"...."slut!!" I stutter with my vary voice,she looks taken aback,she moves away from me, tilting her head side ways looking betaryed."a slut that's what you are!!you proved your worth!" For the first time today I saw her tears rolling down continuosly on her cheeks, despair,she was wheezing,"Adley!!not you!I thought I could rely on you,i- I thought u tru-"

"Me tooo!!but you are not worth my trust!...I mean your a good actor, you played me well girl,by being all sad and emo". Before I know she went flying past me towards the door, leaving me alone.im gonna regret it!I thought as a tear hit my friendship bracelet ez gave me!

Reality

I didn't know when the class was over but the class was empty,with me alone lost in my thoughts.

I can't let repeat my mistakes..,I don't know what is with this ethan guy!but I'll make sure that atleast I'll be there for him.

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