Chapter 11: Ibere mi ( My beginning) 11

Once I stepped a foot in my class, everything went silent ' Eh'. Everyone were looking at me strangely like I had a deadly disease on me.

I just shrugged it off and entered sat on my special place, beside the window.

I love sitting beside the window, though we all sit on the floor, I can always see the beautiful handiwork of Ọlọrun.

I'm a romantic person, not that type of person.. ah, you are thinking about.

A type of person that loves nature alot and praises it alot, I'm that person. Nature gives me Inspiration, ah, I'm typically a poet, I'm a romantic poet.

I have written a lot of romantic poems about the beauty of nature, my beautiful mom isn't left out.

Today was slow, the first subject was mathematics, of all subjects.

I thought I was going to die, our maths teacher was a man wearing the westerners clothes, though he's a black man, he speaks the foreign language well.

I tried hard to concentrate on the teacher and his teaching. I couldn't, as soon as I want to give up on concentrating, it was like Ọlọrun did listened to this sinner, My Mom beautiful smiling face appeared to me saying to me " Beere lọwọ Ọlọrun fun iranlọwọ, Morenikeji ( Ask God for help, Morenikeji)"

I didn't know what happened to me, I just said a silent "Ran mi lowo (Help me!)". It worked like magic.

For the first time in my life, I was attending and attentive in class.

But where will I start? Exams is just two weeks away from now. My notes are empty, my brain .... dried.

Will God help me, who hasn't helped herself yet?

I, that I go to church, my heart doesn't.

I pray, my heart doesn't. I call God, my heart doesn't. My mouth believes,my heart doesn't.

Will he still help me? Dried tears were falling from my eyes.

My mom, if she knows or if I fail and repeat this class, she worked hard to get me into.... I never want to hurt her..

I wish I wasn't this beautiful woman daughter.... I'm a pain in the neck.

Almost everyday, I have caused to much pain for her.

What will God do to save me?