casphedophile

In a dark endless road,
Shadows of your fears starts to grow.
Streetlights glow,
giving you hope to continue.
Dont be afraid to show your shadow,
because I'll always be your streetlight and hope.

Mark who is afraid to love again because of the pain of his unrequited love for his bestfriend Topher. In the midst of the pain he was feeling, a schoolmate named Yukito made him feel that he was important and dear. Because of Mark's fear that he will be hurt again in love, he tries to stay away from Yukito and there he meets the man who will change his life, the leader of F4 Justine.

Shadows and Streetlights

Yukito holds my hands take me away from the bench with him. I really don't know how to feel by now. I'm really confused, it's like my mind and heart is saying that be thankful because you are not with Christopher.


We stopped at the front of a black car. I looked at him it's like his getting what I mean with that look. He nods and say "Yes, its mine. "


We go inside the car, and let ourselves dry a little bit first. He uses his towel to dry my hair while I'm busy drying my own body. It's only the two of us, together with the sound of rain. My heart feels so good. It's like our heart beats that is so loud that can be only heard.


I looked up as to look at him while he is drying my hair. He look so serious, and calm. I wonder what he is doing at this kind of place. I wonder how did he know that I'm here. 


We both looked at each other. My heart starts to beat too loud again, I'm afraid that he is going to hear it. I want to avoid those eyes but I just can't. His eyes are to powerful to lock mine. Even though, I'm not his. It feels like he already own me for a long time.


He leaned down a bit making the gap of our faces little. Our faces are close enough for the  both of us to feel and hear each other's breath.


There is something within me, pushing me to claim his lips, to kiss his lips, and to taste it. I don't know, I-its just maybe I'm too confused and stressed by now. I'm scared what will happen after this, my heart is not completely in a good condition after what happened earlier but look, here I am again, using my heart over mind. Argh! I don't care.


l can't really stop myself, I really need to this. I closed my eyes and I feel our lips touching. Its really warm, sweet a d pure. We both stop for a while, he looked at me in the eyes. I can see that he is also doubting what we did and also feel sorry for letting our feelings overwhelm us.


Can't he just stop looking at me in the eyes like that? Its too late for him to regret and stop. I don't care what will happen after this but this time, I only want is to have his lips on mine again.


I pulled him and kissed him again, it's still feel like the first kiss. It's warm, sweet and pure. Our sweet kisses turns into hungry kiss. It's like this will be the last time that we are going have this kiss. 


Bright bites my lower lips making my mouth open a bit. He uses this time to finally find his entrance into my mouth. His tongue starts to explore my mouth and I let him. His tongue plays with my tongue. His hands went through my waist pulling me closer to him. This feeling is to fulfilling, it's like the best feeling I've ever had.


We both stop kissing before this kiss, turns into something different. There is an awkward silence in the air for a while, waiting for each who will be the one to speak first.


It's like no one wants to speak, so I decided to be the one who will speak first besides I want to go home too and the rain already stopped. "Im going—" 


"No, go with me. Put your seatbelt on." He said and starts the car.


Special Chapter 1