11.absence makes a difference

He's gone.

I haven't seen him in a week.Apparently he told Marcus to pick me up while he's gone.

I know it's ridiculous but I'm worried.I need to know he's okay.Marcus says he does this alot,disappear for weeks.

I know I felt trapped in this relationship and wanted out.Hell,I still do.I'm not in love or anything its just...his absence makes a difference.

And not in a good way.It's Friday,so I can sleep in.I heard mom down stairs.She cooked.I think she's trying to make up for lost time.She spent less and less time around me since David was arrested.Its like I remind her of him.

I'm not hungry.I just want to be left alone.

I don't know when I fell asleep.When I woke up Liam had his arm around my waist.This motherfucker.

I kick him off the bed.

"What the hell?"

"Where have you been?you can't just disappear like that then come back as if everything is okay"

"I didn't think you'd notice"

What the fuck?He follows me everywhere.How can I not notice when he's gone.

There's something about him.He seems distant.Unattached.

"Where were you"

"I don't feel like talking,if you don't want me around I'll go"

I'm about to tell him to go.That he can't expect me to do whatever he wants but then I notice it.

The lights are off so I hadn't noticed it before.But the curtain is open.He probably got in through the window and didn't close it so the streetlight makes his face visible.

He has bruises,a busted lip,broken nose and he isn't standing straight.

"Are you okay"

"Why wouldn't I.. "

He falls to the foot of the bed before he finishes his sentence.I go to his side and help him get on the bed.I turn the bedside lamp on.

I notice he keeps touching his stomach so I unbutton his shirt.He tries to fight me but he's too weak.He's barely conscious.

There are so many bruises on his chest and torso.How did he make it through the window?

"You need to go to a hospital"

"No"

"Are you insane you could be bleeding internally.I get that you have this whole tough guy thing going but you can't be that guy if you're dead"

He tries to stand but falls so he takes out his phone.He tries to call Marcus but I take the phone away.

"Fine.I'll stop,but you're staying here"

I make sure the pillow is positioned so he doesn't hurt his neck.Then I carefully take of his shirt.When I turn his body to fully remove his shirt I see all these long ugly scars on his back.

I go downstairs and grab some ice.Thankfully mom is asleep so she probably didn't hear anything or maybe she did but doesn't care.

I grap a yogurt and go back.I thought the yogurt would be easy to eat but he only had three spoons.I kept the ice on his bruises.He was resting his head on my lap.He's sleeping.

I try to dose off but I can't.I want to know what happened.