thandiswa

"I saved you,you owe me your life.In short,I own you"

"You're the reason my life needed saving to begin with.I don't belong to you and you can't tell me what to do or who I should talk to "

"I'm no longer interested in this conversation.I told you because I can't blame you for doing unethical things when you don't know.Now that you do,you are to not interact with guys in any way that isn't platonic.If you do I'll hold you accountable and there will be consequences"

"Unethical?accountable?consequences?who the fuck do you think you are?you don't own me.I'll do whatever the fuck I want!"

"Try me"

They call him Erebas

At around one in the morning I hear him mumbling.He starts shaking and scratching at his bruises.


I try to stop him but he's too strong.He's bleeding now and he isn't stopping.He keeps digging into his flesh.I take his phone and call Marcus.


He starts screaming,I don't know what to do.I feel so useless.


The door opens and Marcus comes in.He holds Liam down but remains quiet.


"Why aren't you waking him so he'll know he's dreaming"


I'm so confused. I need some air.I think I'm having a panic attack.I think about the last time I had one.How Liam was the one to calm me down.Everything he said.


He helped me but I can't do the same.My heart keeps beating faster.Im on the floor gasping for air.Marcus is trying to calm me down but it isn't working.


All I can think about is how useless I am.Liams bruises,his scars.


"Think about him.Think about what he would say to calm you down"


I try to think about it.What sentence he would say.At first it doesn't work.Then I decide if I can't figure out what I think he'd say I'll have to remember what he did say.


Slowly,I try to.I can't stop the tears so I just focus on the memory.


Eventually I calm down.I feel so selfish.He is the one who needs help and yet I can't keep it together.


I turn and look at him.A thought crosses my mind and I hold on to it.


12.night terrors