Joshua

Time flies by when you are happy but it seems to go like a snail crawling when you're sad. After I left there it still kept hurting. My mind was going berserk, imagining all sorts of things. He and her being alone in the house was putting oil to the flame. I tried my best not to get affected by the fact but I guess what people say is true. It hurts very much when you get attached to someone and had to leave them.

First few days were hard to focus on. And the fact that he was calling me from time to time was not helping. Whenever I had a call from him it felt as if world war was going on between my thoughts. It started to get too painful to control my urge to receive the call.

A few times I even almost dialed his number. The memories of him and me started coming back to me. A day before we crossed path and he tried explaining but I was in no mood of listening to him, I guess I was too angry at him. I walked away from him as not to create a scene.

Time went on by. I heard from mom that he was shooting his new drama and it was already airing on tv. I have been avoiding my mom as not to spill what happened at his house.

He kept calling me, leaving voice messages and texts. At some point I started thinking if I was too harsh on him. He kept saying sorry and asking for forgiveness, I started feeling guilty. What if I misunderstood something or maybe I was wrong or may I overreacted.

Keeping aside my thoughts I kept muself busy seeing patients and going on rounds and stuff.  After I was done with my rounds I walked over to the cafeteria to get myself a cup of coffee. While I was at it I saw his car outside the hosp[ital. at the sight of it my heart started to get excited. To make sure I looked at carefully and it was him, he kept looking at the entrance for a while and after around 5 minutes he drove away.

'Was he here to see me?' I thought to myself. 'Then why didn't he come in?'

"Maybe he was just passing by" I said to myself and walked back towards my cabin.

It was around 11 o'clock, I was done with the out patients. I walked over to the nurse's station to tell them to get the reports ready for collection. I just started walking back to my cabin I heard a girl saying "Do you know the actor Kim Jung Hoon, there is this news that he got injured while shooting a fight sequence for his new drama"

"Really?" her companion asked.

"Ya, it's all over the news. Apparently he cut his palm with the sword they were using for the fight scene" the girl said.

As soon as I heard it I rushed back to my cabin and got hold of my cell phone and typed his name on the browser. It was all over the page. It was also written that he lost some amount of blood as he kept shooting even after the injury.

"That idiot' came out of my mouth. Does he think himself as some superhuman or what, still shooting after injury" I said out loud.

I read further but there was nothing about him going to a hospital for treatment. I got worried sick I don't know what came upon me I got my backpack as well as some bandage and ointment and rushed to his shooting site after telling the nurse to call me immediately if there is any problem. I looked at his fan page to look up his shooting location. It said Korean folk village. At that all the memories came sweeping up to me. The day we spent looking around there.

I got into my car and drove towards his location. After quite a long drive I reached there. I looked around the place searching for him. Then I asked one of the crew members working nearby. He pointed me to a vanity van standing at the other end of the shooting area. I rushed over to the van and pulled open the door.

"Hyung wass-eo" he said turning around from where he was seated.

I saw his shocked expression. I was amused and happy to see him after this many days but I was also fuming in anger at his carelessness and stupidity.

I don't know what came over me, maybe it was the fact that I missed him so much. I rushed in and called him an idiot and pulled him into a hug.

"Who told you to keep shooting after getting hurt?" I said in anger pulling aoart from the hug. I  immediately looked at his hands and pulled the injured one to see the wound.

 "Josh".

"Ssshhh" I cut him off. "Let me see" I added taking off the bandage wrapped around the wound.

In examined the wound and took out  the kit I packed  from my backpack and started to treat his wound.

"OUCH" he screamed when I poured the antiseptic liquid on his wound.

"Stop acting. It is not that painful. At least not painful as when you got cut" I said in anger.

After I was done dressing I packed the kit up and took out a capsule from my bag and handed it to him.

"What's this for?" he asked.

'It will ease your pain idiot" I said.

He took the medicine and looked at me. Our eyes met. It has been days that I haven't seen that handsome and perfectly formed face of his not to forget his blue sparkling eyes. He suddenly pulled me into a tight hug. I was happy at that moment. I was lost in the moment when i9 heard a door clicking.

"Who is ready for some food?" I heard a female voice ask. I looked up to see Min Jae standing there.

 As soon as I saw her all those memories came flowing back to me. 'Girlfriend' the word hit me again. I pulled myself away from him, gathered all my things and started regretting coming here.

 "Sorry, I shouldn't have come" I said getting up and rushing out the door.

I ran as fast as I could from there, tears flowing down my cheeks. As I ran, rain started pouring down. I ran without seeing here and there straight. While turning I crashed into some one.

"I am sorry" I said without looking who it was and ran weeping. Once I thought it was far away I sat down on a nearby bench. I crawled myself into a ball and sat there tears rolling down me. I sat there crying hiding my face. After few minutes I felt as if someone was there. I looked up to see him, Lee Soo Ho standing there holding a n umbrella covering both of us. He looked at me and sat down beside me. He didn't say a word other than just sitting there with me.

"Go away. Leave me alone" I said to him.

"Me. I am just sitting here. It's a public place right" he said.

"Go sit somewhere else" I said to him.

"But I wanna sit here only" he said smiling at me.

"Then I'll go" I said getting up to go.

He held my hand and stopped me from going.

"You'll catch a cold. At least take this umbrella with you" he said handing me the umbrella.

"Ah and this" he said pulling off his overcoat and put it over my shoulder like a cape.

Saying this he ran towards the building. I looked towards him and then walked away.

I kept cursing myself for being naive and for rushing here when I kind of knew I shouldn't.  I walked to where my car was parked and then drove back to hospital. Once I reached I walked straight to my cabin. I dried myself and got into my scrubs as I was all wet. After I was done the scene kept replaying in my mind. Min Jae was at his shoot. They were about to have lunch together. All sorts of thoughts kept playing in me.

When I was lost in thoughts I heard my phone ring it was him.  I saw his name flashing on the screen. I almost connected the call when a resident came in to my cabin informing me of a very seriously injured patient coming in. I told him to go and set aside my phone and wore my gown and rushed to the emergency entry. After a few seconds an ambulance came in. the patient was severely injured. The paramedics brief me about his conditions on the way. We rushed him to the emergency room. I examined his wounds and asked the residents to clean the patient up and to do a immediate x-ray of his whole body for any fractures. And at the time being I attended to his head injury. After the x-ray was done I saw the results there was no fracture. After stopping the bleeding I asked the residents to get him a head CT-scan and asked them bring me the reports after it was done. I asked the ward boy top shift him to the ICU for the time being. I assured the guardian of the patient to not worry and wait for the scan to come out.

After I was done I came back to my cabin and sat down on the sofa. I took my phone and saw there were some missed calls and text messages. I unlocked my phone to see it. It was Jung Hoon. I ignored it and then opened the message. Again it was from him. I opened the text message.

JUNG HOON: Josh pick up the phone please. Please talk to me. It is not like what you think. Please call me back after you see this message.