Jung Hoon

Why does this keep happening to me. A moment of happiness was ruined again. I got to see him after many days and here I again made him cry. But then who the hell was that guy with him. I thought to myself still standing there frozen.

"Joshua" came out my voice.

After few seconds I saw manager hyung come towards me.

"What the hell are you doing here in the rain?" he literally scolded me.

At that moment I broke down into tears. At that very moment I realized what he means to me. Even for an simple encounter with a guy and him, it made my heart crash down. I don't know what came over me but I had sudden feeling of urgency to get him back, to make him mine again. I wanted him in my arms right now.

"Hey Jung Hoon" manager hyung said pulling me out of my thoughts.

"are you ok?" he asked looking concerned.

"Ya I am fine" I replied as we both walked back to where my vanity van stands.

After the day's shooting was done I rushed to the hospital. I needed to talk to him at any cost. Once I reached the hospital I put on my mask and literally ran to where his cabin was.

When I opened the door he wasn't there. I rushed back to the nurse's station and asked them about him. They said he already left for home as his shift was done for the day. I got back to my car and drove towards his home. My cell phone kept ringing but I was in no mood to receive it right now. Once outside his door I rang the calling bell. I heard Rachel saying to her mom that she will get the door. After few seconds the door flew open.

"Jung Hoon Oppa" she said rushing in to me for a hug.

"Rachel is your brother home?" I asked her in a whispering tone.

"Yes" she replied.

"And how's your parent's mood?" I asked.

"Fine why?" she asked.

I gave her a smile and walked in.

"Who is it Rachel?" Josh's mom called out coming out of the kitchen.

"Ah it is me  ommo-nim" I replied to her with  a smile.

"Jung Hoon. Come in" she said gesturing me to sit on the sofa in the living area.

"How have you been?" she asked.

"Am fine and you all? I replied.

"We are fine too" she said with a smile.

"How come you're here at this hour. I heard you are busy shooting from Josh" she asked.

"Ah I am but. Today I wanted to see you all, especially you ommo-nim" I said in flirtatious way.

"You naughty boy" she teased me back.

"Anyway have dinner and go ok. It is almost done" she said walking towards the kitchen.

"Thank you ommo-nim" I replied back.

"Rachel where is your dad?" I asked her.

"He went outside. He will be back soon" she replied.

We were chatting for a while when Josh's dad came back in.

"Ah! You again" he said to me in an sarcastic tone smiling at me.

"Annyeonghaseya" I greeted him with a smile.

"Honey that's not the way to welcome your guest" Josh's mom said bringing out the dinner to the dining table, flashing me a smile.

I smiled at her.

"Why don't you go wash yourself up and come have dinner" she said to her husband and walked back towards the kitchen station.

"Ommo-nim let me help" saying I walked over to the kitchen helping her to bring out the dishes.

"Rachel go call your brother for dinner" she said to her daughter.

Rachel rushed upstairs to get her brother.

"Don't know what he does in his room these days, I don't see him much" she said complaining it to me.

"And he back unannounced from your place. Is everything ok?" she asked looking at me.

"That's why I am here" I replied to her.

"What do you mean?" she asked.

"You'll find out in a while" I replied smiling at her.

When I was setting the table I saw him and Rachel coming down the stairs.

"Mom what's…" he stopped half way when he saw me.

"Hey Josh" I said.

"what the hell are you doing here?" he asked in anger and confused tone.

"Joshua language" his mom said taking a seat o0n the dining table. "come sit have dinner" she commanded.

He came towards the dining area and didn't utter a word and sat on a chair. I looked at him but he kept looking away from me. I tried sitting next to him but he pulled Rachel to the adjacent seat. Then I reluctantly sat on the seat next to his mom. After a while his dad also came and we had the dinner.

After the dinner we all sat in the living area. I looked at Josh. Our eyes met for a second and soon enough he looked away from me.

"So Jung Hoon how's your drama shoot going on?" his dad asked.

"Its going good Mr. Park" I replied.

"Any reason you're here or just visiting?" he asked.

"Actually I have a reason" I said looking towards josh. Josh looked at me confused.

"And what's that?" he asked.

"How should I put this" I said getting all nervous and trying to find the right words.

"Well the reason I am here is Josh" I said looking from face to face to see their expression.

As soon as I said those words I could already feel the tension growing between us and also the happiness radiating from Rachel and Josh's mother as if they already knew where I was going with this.

'What about him?" his father asked looking straight to me.

"Am here to ask your permission to date your son" there I said it out I said to my inner voice.

"What?" josh almost shouted in shock followed by squealing from Rachel and his mom.

I looked up to his dad and I was getting all nervous as to what his dad might say. I kept looking at him but couldn't read what he was feeling ot thinking right now.

"You have my permission" Josh's mom said followed by Rachel.

"Mom" Josh said looking towards his mom.

But still I was fixated on his dad. I wanted to know what he was thinking right now. His dad looked towards his son and then back to me.

"Honey, what are you doing? Just say yes" Josh's mom said nudging to her husband.

I was sweating like I was standing in the hot sun. He once again looked towards Joshua.

"Do you like him son?" his dad asked to him.

"AHH" he was looking back and forth from me to his dad. He was as if searching words to say.

"If he is ok with it, I don't have any problem" his dad finally said. I finally left out a sigh and rele4ased my breath that I didn't realize I was holding. I looked towards him, he was all red blushing.  He got up from where was seated and held my hand and pulled me along with him leading me to upstairs to his room.

"What the hell was that Jung Hoon?" he asked in anger once we were in his room.

"Me asking permission from your parents" I replied smiling.

'Stop smiling I am being serious here" he said still fuming.

"I am serious too" I said closing the gap between us.

"What do you think you're doing?" he said walking backwards as I neared him.

I kept walking closer as he kept walking away from me until he was pinned to the wall and I was in front of him.

"I know Josh I have hurt you. But I am damn serious about you. I love you. When you left me I felt as if part of me was lost. It felt empty inside. I don't know how and when it happened but I really wanna court you" I said looking in to his eyes.

"Stop kidding around. You have a girlfriend Jung Hoon" he said trying to push me away. I held his hand and pinned him to the wall.

 "We broke up" I said to him. I leaned down as I placed my lips on his. As I pulled away from the kiss I saw tears rolling down his cheeks.

"Josh" I said wiping away his tears.

'Please give me a chance to show you how much I love you" I said.

"I know I am not perfect. I know I am not good enough for you. I am a playboy, I flawed at places but I want to try to be perfect for you. I am willing to change myself so that I could become a man worthy of your love" I said cupping his cheeks,

"Jung Hoon, I don't know what to say anymore. I don't even know if I could give you the chance" he said tears brewing in his eyes.

"I know Josh. I am not asking you to forgive me right away. Take your time but never ask me to leave or ask me to not love you anymore and shut me out. Cause I don't think I am capable of that anymore" I said looking at him.

I pulled him in to a hug as he cried out. After a while I carried him to his bed and laid him down. I placed a kiss on his forehead.

"I should be leaving now. Manager hyung must be worried sick.  Get some sleep" I said as I stood up from his bed to go.

"Stay here with me tonight" he said holding my hand as I was about to walk off.

"But…" he cut me off.

'Please" he said giving me that puppy face.

"Ok. First let me go tell your parents" I said walking out the door.

"Ommo-nim can I stay over tonight?" I asked his mom when I saw her cleaning dishes at the kitchen station.

"Is everything ok?" she asked.

"Ya" I replied.

"He can be real stubborn sometime. Be patient with him" his mom said.

"I will be" I said smiling at her.

After that I came back to his room. He was sound in sleep. I pulled the blanket over him and took a spare pillow and pillow from his mom and lied down on the Couch in his room. I looked at him. He looked so elegant and beautiful while sleeping. I called manager hyung and informed him about my whereabouts and continued looking at him and didn't even realize when I doze off.