Chapter 271: I Never Used to Be Like This

Tallulah's POV:

I'd hoped seeing him would get easier, that after the time apart, I'd be able to put aside my feelings and be his friend. I hadn't anticipated just how strong my feelings were though.

Even after six weeks... Six long, torturous weeks, I still can't act indifferent towards him.

I hate myself for the mess that I am.

I never used to be like this!

I used to be confident. I used to rush into relationships, fall in love easily and never look back even when it f*cking hurt because I knew that that's what love was... a risk.

I had always been okay with the risk. I'd thought it was worth it.

That was until I dated Rick Roderick.

What Rick did to me changed everything. I'd said no but he didn't listen. I'd tried to pull back, but he'd closed in on me. I'd tried to fight him off but that hadn't stopped him.

He'd raped me. Forced himself on me. Broke me.