Welcome to the Panic Room

I take a deep breath before stepping into the house. 'Please' my heart hopes. I open the front door and sees her watching television. Breath in. Breath out. Watch out whatever you do. Don't anger her. My hand is trembling. I head to my room and sit down on my bed. I sigh deeply and grab my huge plushy. I'm always scared to be around my parents because anytime I can unintentionally anger them. I need to stop going out for a month at least. They probably already know what I'm doing. Why can't they let me live my life without having to control me that badly.

I grab my phone and text Jack. I ask him to look out the mansion for a month without me. My body is against my bedroom wall. I can feel the lump on my throat again. This is too much. Having anxiety every single day because I want to be perfect so they won't scold me harshly. Why am I so weak? Everyone else is able to resistance the pain but why can't I. I violently wipe my tears and smack my thighs to stop my tears. 'Stop it you pathetic,' I scold myself as I hit myself over and over. I take a look at my phone screen. My eyes are not red thankfully.

I hear the doorknob twist. Someone is coming in. Shit. "Food downstairs, finish them. No one wants it anymore."

"Oh, alright. Just leave it there," I respond as she shut the door. Everything is fine. I was just over thinking and over reacting. Everything is alright. I walk to my closet and pull out my pyjama. I need a comfort night but I guess I have a date with homeworks first.

My phone vibrates. 'Vi, here's an update. She's searching her friend and she's going around asking people. The news is spreading but P.D. is doing the best they can to calm down the rumours. People are already suspecting that polices are taking bribery. I'm not sure about the risks for us. Just don't do any crime.'

My hand is shaking. What was I thinking? How didn't I see this coming? Why did I thought everything would go smoothly. I lie down on my bed and stare at the wall. My stomach no longer growls. My appetite has gone. I can sense something awful is about to come. My tears keeps rolling down. I cover my mouth from screaming my pain out. I have pledge to put Reaper's life over me first and that is what I will do.