Chapter 10 — THE TRUTH

I head to going to the library when I stopped outside seeing Jungkook looking at two people.I look at that side where is Jungkook is looking.

Sooyoung and Jinyoung.Kissing right in his face.

I bit my bottom lip thinking what I have done.I feel so bad for him when he saw his crush kissing another man smiling.I ruffle my hair sighing.

Jungkook.....

I go to him putting my hand on his shoulder making him to turn to me looking at me with his teary eyes.I feel so bad for him especially when I see him crying.My heart is in pain and it's hurts like hell.

"Jungkook.....",I whisper at him making him to slap my hand going to step in back

"You....You know about them?",he ask me with angry in his voice pointing at them

"Jungkook...",I says his name again hating myself for what I've done to him

"Why,Eunha?Why?Why you hide this?",he ask me with his shaky voice."I believed in you,but you betrayed me.You hide me that Sooyoung is in love to Jinyoung.You know very much that I like her,but you hide me that.Why,Eunha,why?",he ask me putting his palms on my shoulder shaking me hard

I didn't say anything.I just stare in his eyes some tears appear in my cheeks being sad of what I've done to him.I want to refuse this.If I refuse this nothing of this will happening and I will not fall for him.

"WHY?",he yells at my face making me to shaking with all my body

"Because SHE ask me!",I says pulled his arms in my shoulder letting him to be frozen on his place

"W-what?",he stutter to me blinking twice not processing what I say

"She asked me",I says gulped when I speak."One month ago she asked me to make you to fall for me.She knows that you love her,but she doesn't love you and she loves Jinyoung oppa.So,she asked me to make you to fall for me.",I whisper looking at his eyes who are shocked when I speak

"And why don't you refuse?",he asks me with confusion in his facial expressions

"I don't know",I shrug thinking again why I accept this."I'm....I'm so sorry,Jungkook",I speak to him being apologize for what I done

"No....just no",he says lift his hands to stop me to walk to him."I...I don't want to see you again",Jungkook speaks with a shaky voice before leaving me alone

"Jungkook....",I whisper his name again before I start to cry

I can believe what I've done.I put my hands on my mouth to cry silently to not be heard by the other person on the hall.My heart is hurt so much that I can feel she is in pain like me.I can't believe what happened and this is Sooyoung fault.She forced to do that and she have to repair this.I am a bad person and Jungkook will not forgive me ever.

I'm sorry,Jungkook.

I go to them standing right on their face with an angry face.Two of them stop talking looking at me confused that I am here.

"Is something happened,Eunha?",Sooyoung ask me confused

"Yes,SOMETHING happened",I says popped the word "something" like a yell."Jungkook is know EVERYTHING.He founds that you and Jinyoung oppa are together",I speak at her face angry

"WHAT?",she yell sitting up on her feet shocked what I said

"All I want to you is to apologize to him",I says before I go letting two of them alone

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I sit on the bench having tears on my face looking down.I hurt his heart and I hate myself.I don't know what to do.I want to apologize to Jungkook to forgive me,but he doesn't know to see me.When I accept this I promise myself that when he found about it I will not disturb him ever,but I can't.

"Eunha,what happened?",someone ask me concerned about me

I look up to see Sana with a concerned fad expression when she saw me with a teary face.She sit on the bench pulling me into a big hug.I put my hands on her hands start to crying so loud that everyone is looking at me scared.

"What happened,sweety?",she ask me worried about me

"I hurt him,Sana",I whisper under my tears having my face on her t-shirt

"Oh,sweety,I am so sorry",Sana says to me being sad with me

I can't believe I hurt his feelings.I betrayed him and I feel so bad.I feel like a criminal when he kills someone.I didn't want to do that.At first I do it for Sooyoung,but day to day I do it form him because I love him.

I am sorry Jungkook for hurting you and your heart,but I do it for you for not hurting you by the Sooyoung because...

I love you...

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It goes two weeks since Jungkook founds and he doesn't still talk to me.I tried all the time to talk to me,but he rejected me pushing me away far away from me.All I want is to apologize,but he doesn't let me.I am a bad person and Jungkook deserve a good person not me.I am not good enough for him and that's why I will not disturb him and let him to be with he wants to be.

I hope you will forgive me,Jungkook.

The math teacher doesn't come today so I go to the library to make my english homework.When I arrived I start to search for the book that I need for my homework.I see the book,but unfortunately he is up and I don't can't lift up because I am shorty.Sometimes I hate that I am small.

I sigh thinking about how can I take that book.Without knowing the book is in my face holding an hands that I know very well.I turn my head to that person who gave me the book and my eyes are wide open seeing the person right in my face.

Jungkook?

Right now I am so shocked seeing him in front of mine holding the book that I need looking deep in my eyes without blushing or anything.We both stand on place looking at each other eyes without moving.I have to do something,but what?

I bit my bottom thinking hard.Jungkook eyes moving this time to my lips in that time when I bit my lips.I stop biting my lips having my cheeks red feelings hot on my cheeks.Right now I feel so embarrassed.

I take the book of his hands smiling a little at him.I bow at him mumble an "thank you" before I go sitting on the chair starting to make my homework.When I start to write I feel an gaze on me looking deep an me.Why you what to do this?Why you looking at me like this,Jungkook?

He wants to avoid him,but wherever I go he is there looking at me deeply.I know he wants to make to feel bad,but I feel bad do the first day that I start this plan at Sooyoung.A person sitting beside me making me to look with my eyes at him.

We look again at each other eyes making me to look away.Why he do what?Why he does that even he says to me to avoid him?Why he makes my heart to beat so fast even I try to forget him?

"What do you want?",I asked him not looking at him because I feel so horrible

He doesn't answer him.I roll my eyes at his attitude arrogant.I can't believe he doesn't change at all.I gasp when Jungkook put his head on my lap.I froze on the place when he do that.What...what he is doing?

My heart is going crazy.

"Yah,w-what are you doing?",I ask him stutter looking at him shocked

"I want to sleep",Jungkook says simply shrugging making comfortable on my lap

"Y-yah,g-get u-up",I whisper yelled at him making him to put his hands on his ears getting up on my lap

"Aish,why you so loud?",he ask me annoyed by my yells

I look at him angry hitting him on his chest before I leaving the library letting him confused.I can't believe he does that.Even he says to avoid him he annoyed me like I....did.

I can't believe he does this to take his revenge.I think I deserve this because I did him too.I ruffle my hair sighing.I look at my notebook to see what lessons I have and the words starts to move.What?What is happened?I close and open my eyes to see that my words is moving so that that I didn't read.

No,no,no,please tell me is not true.

Is happening again.In this moment I have a test and I will not go.I can't go.Without knowing my feet starts to run away to the school hiding on the back of the school.

I sit down on the ground starting to cry loud.I hug my knees having my head on knees crying loud.I can't believe it's happening again.I don't want this.I don't want to be bully.I don't want to be bully again.I don't want to suffer again.

It hurts.It hurts so much.

My heart aching me so hard that I want to end my life.I don't want to live.I don't want to be bullied again.I don't want to make my parents to be sad.I don't want to make them to be hurt.Again.

Not again.Not now.

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The bell rings wake up me to my sleeping.I am half asleep.I can't believe I sleep on the ground.I wipe off my tears to not seeing to the others.I have to apologize to the teacher that I didn't came and tell her the truth.

"Why you didn't come to the test?",someone asks me making me to jump in back startle by the voice

I look up seeing the person that startle me.It's Jungkook,again.What he wants this time?I look another way not answering at his question.I want to him to leave me alone.

"None of your business!",I scoffed looking at ground

Jungkook sighed."Eunha.....",he whisper my name softly

I closed my eyes start to cry.When he call my name he makes my heart to beat fast.When he says my name he sounds so beautiful.I want to hear his voice calling my name,but it will not happening this.He hate me and I love him.

"I am sick!",I whisper at him looking at my hands laying down on my lap."When I was young I have a disability to write and read.My parents take me to doctor and after one year this disability disappear until today.When I was young everybody bully me everyday and sometimes I thinking to take my life,but when this disappear I was happy until now.I don't want to be bullied,I don't want to make my parents sad.I....I want to make my parents proud of me,but....but I can't.This....this stupid disability",I confessed starting to hit my head trying to disappear this disability having tears on my face

"Stop that!",he says taking my hands on his hands stopping me to hit myself

"Why,huh,why!?No one care about me!No one wants me!Why you stop me,huh!?",I ask him try to take my hands,but I can't because he is strong

"Because I care for you!",he yells at my face letting me shocked when I heard his words

Did he say that?

He care for me?Me?But why?I am a bad person who hurt him badly and he still cares for him.I look at him confused and shocked foe what he says.I blinked twice at him and his words.I don't know what to say.I am so shocked that I don't have words.

I try to push him down but he is strong.I start to cry loud closing my eyes.He pull me into a hug putting his hands on my waist.I put my head on his t-shirt let all the tears to came out.

I hold his shirt so strong that I think I will ripped his shirt,but I don't care all I want is to not let me alone and hold me tightly.I am alone.But I am wrong.He is here.I feel relieved and safe in his arms.

I broke the hug and he wipe my tears with his thumbs finger with carefully and gently touch.When he touch he is doing gentle because he doesn't want to hurt me.I smile immediately when I see him smile at me.He smile at me with his bunny smile.That bunny smile that makes me to fall for him.

"You good?",he asked me concerned about me

I nod.I laying my head on hand feel his hand on my face.Without knowing I open my eyes thinking what he says when he founds about the plan.Even he says to me to avoid him and he came to me now I have to respect his order and I will do that.

"I-I have to go",I says to him sitting up wipe my tears

When I want to go his hands are on my writs stopping me to go.I froze in place with big eyes.Again tears appear on my cheeks.

Please,Jungkook,don't do that again.

"Don't go,please",he begged me holding my writs tightly

I wipe my tears trying to be cold.I pull my writs not letting saying an word.I respect his decisions.He says to me to avoid him and I will do that.I will respect his decisions even we both will be hurt.

I'm sorry,Jungkook.

I am not good for you.I love you Jungkook and that's why I will let you free to be with another girl.I am not that girl that you want.

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"Yah,yah,leave me alone!",I says to Jungkook taking my hand away

"We have to discuss!",he says with his serious facial expressions

My wrist hurt so much.Why?Because he hold my wrist that hard that he hurt my wrist.I gave him an angry face making him to burst in laugh.When I make an angry face it looks like a pout.

Jungkook saw that my wrisy it hurts and his facial expressions changed immediately.He take the other arms taking my hand this time going to nurse office.

"What is happened,kids?",the nurse asks us with a big smile when she saw us holding our hands

I pull my hand immediately making the nurse to chuckle at our red cheeks and faces.I show her my wrist and she gasp.

"Oh,my dear,what happened?",she ask me worried about me

I look at Jungkook angry for what he did to me.I know he didn't want to do it intentionally,but he is his fault for what he did to me.He look another way scratching his neck embarrassed for what he did to me.

"I faint",I lied the nurse looking at Jungkook who be has his eyes big looking at me shocking

"Oh,dear,be careful next time,okay?",she says to me being concerned for me

"Yes!",I speak gripping my hand because my wrist hurts like hell

A hand hold my other hand tightly like he wants to take my pain.I look at our hands and it fits perfectly.I look at Jungkook who he showing his bunny smile.He looks so cute and like a bunny.

I look away having my cheeks red.It's my first time when I am shy around a boy.He makes my heart to beat fast and to have my cheeks red.The nurse chuckle when she saw me shyness.

"Thank you",I bow at her thanked her for her job

My wrist doesn't hurt anymore.We bow at the nurse before we going to our class.Jungkook yell my name a lot of the time,but I didn't answer him.He says to avoid him,but he annoyed me.Why is his plan on this?

The teacher come when we arrived and she start to teach us.I try to write everything she says,but I can't because my wrist hurt so much that provoke me tears.

"Mrs Seo?",Jungkook ask the teacher make us to turn our head to him

"Yes,Jungkook?",the teacher ask him being curious

"Eunha can't write because she is hurt.Can you let her to not write?",Jungkook ask the teacher letting me with my open wide

"Okay.I hope you will be okay Eunha",says the teacher with a concerned smile

"I'll be,mrs Seo",I bow to her that she let me not to write

"Okay.Let's continue the lessons",she says continuing the lessons

I look at Jungkook who is looking at me with a cute smile.I frown at him stick out my tongue at him putting my hand on my breast pouting.I can't believe hr do that.He pity me and I don't like that.He chuckle when I pout making me to hit back making him to scoffed at me.

I smile innocently making him to growl and roll his eyes.The teacher start to speak more loud making me to paid attention to her.I am so sleepy right now.I want to sleep.All the girls are looking at me with an angry face.

I chuckle.I feel so happy that they are jealous that I don't write and they are write.But I am not feel good because I want to write with everyone,but Jungkook doesn't let me to write.

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I am so happy that this lessons is finish.I can't handle to have all the eyes on me looking at me with angry faces.I know this will happen,but I can't to avoid this.He doing this intentionally and I make him to pay for this.I hate him that I love him.

I ruffle my hair sighing.I feel so sleepy and I don't why.Ugh,I want at my home to take a good sleep with my husband bed and my boyfriend pillow,but no I have to stay in this jail....pardon school with a person that I want to avoid,but he doesn't let me.

Some arms are on my waist hugging me feel a chest on my back.I froze in place having my eyes wide open.Who the hell is the person that he hugging me?Sana is not because she doesn't have strong arms.

"Hello,beautiful",says the voice making shiver to travel all my body

That voice.

Please tell me that he is not him.I can't handle this.I close my eyes sighing hard.The boy kiss my cheeks making me to blush and him to chuckle.

"You....idiot.....leave me alone!",I try to speak but it sounds like a stutter

"No!",says the voice holding me tighten feeling his worked body

"Why?",I ask him hearing like a whisper not knowing that he is head in my whisper