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I walked back to my room to see her lifeless body with the mask that was helping her breath over her nose. What I saw in her journal and Levi’s words hit me so hard. I wanted to get close to her but I was scared she would wake up and see me. 
I didn’t deserve to be close to her after all I’ve done yet I couldn’t stay away from her. 
I went to the bed and feel on my knees, the tears in my eyes had made my vision blur so I blinked to let them flow freely. 
“I’m sorry Elisa,” I mumbled, my eyes on her burnt hand….the same hand I burnt. Looking at it brought all the memories back and I fucking hated myself. I hated myself for everything I had put her through and I just wanted to put a gun to my head and pull the trigger.
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Marrying your seventh grade crush and first love was a dream come true for Elisa Davis. She had been in love with Nikolai Smith since she bumped into him in seventh grade. Who wouldn’t fall in love with him? Nikolai had the looks, popularity and money. 
So when she found out that her father had sold her off to pay the debt he was owing Nikolai’s father, instead of being mad, she was rather ecstatic because her dreams have finally comes true. But Nikolai feels the same way she feels? Will he ever feel the same way he feels? Will he ever reciprocate his feelings? 
Why are there too many secrets? Can the couple handle what life throws their way?

In HOLY Matrimony

I stared at Elisa's face as she lied down still with her pale face. It's been over a month now and she has been moved to the hospital to get a better treatment but she just doesn't want to wake up, it's like she's giving up on life or something and I know I am to blame for that as well because I put her through shit a lot. I made her miserable and I plan to fix everything even though it's not really possible. I believe she hates me now more than ever.

"What are you doing here?" I asked curiously

"I wanted to come see Elisa, she will be awake for my birthday right?" she asked with a hopeful gleam in her eyes.

"Yes she will do not worry" I said to which I felt like I was lying to her but I also was hopeful she'd wake up for me to apologize to her.

IHM - X