Chapter fourteen part three - Consequences of actions

Chapter fourteen part three

Consequences of actions

SZ really did become my anchor as I stumbled down my downwards spiral.

He was now super pissed at me and I couldn't help but blame myself.

If I hadn't told anyone, then everything would be fine now...

It didn't just all land on SZ either, it landed on me too.

SZ had been banned from seeing me but I lost my freedom.

I wasn't allowed to go off alone in case he saw me and my tutor teacher H wouldn't stop asking me every week if I had heard from him, reminding me of this traumatic event constantly.

"What your issue is, you believe people too easily"

This annoyed me. How could she SAY THAT!

she was supposed to be one of my best friends and she said THAT!

All of this made my self-harm urges worse.

I now moved from using a pencil in my belly button to using scissors, again I didn't care how much I bled.

Right now I wanted too die and I couldn't take it anymore.

"If you want to kill yourself, hang yourself, it's less messy"

I was shocked. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. So one of my best friends said that to me and another said I should hang myself...