Shock

'Hmm hey there Hanning,' I akwardly greeted her but all she did was stare at me maliciously.

' You have alot of nerve coming here.' she suddenly said in a way that made me self aware.

I just stood there in all my glory with a confused expression painted on my face.

' save it, I don't want to hear any of your flithy words.' she quickly said cutting me of before I could even breathe a word.

With that said, the bitch walked away leaving me dumbfounded.

All I could see was red as I saw her just walk away with her pink floral dress being blown by the wind. Where  it came from, i don't even know. Her black heels making a clicking sound when they made contact  with the ground.

I decided to not let her words get into my head by heading in the direction she previously came.

The IHK parking lot was filled with so many cars. All the owners were here for their own reasons. Some tragic others minor.

Upon reaching the entrance,I honestly  couldn't help but be marveled by the architectural structure of such a depressing place.

It had a wide glass entrance with double doors. IHK was an eight story building that was peach in colour.

Taking my sights away from the building and  onto the sky, I could see that the clouds were turning a shed darker indicating the fact that it was about to rain heavily seeing as it was March which was the rainy season.

Danny decided to be a gentleman and open the double doors and held them while waiting for me to snap out of my daze.

Deciding to get this over with, I entered the hospital and was instead hit by its clinical smell.

This is why I hated  hospitals, they rick.

Danny left me standing alone in the lobby which I didn't appreciate alot.

To go check of if one of our friends whose a doctor was free.

I saw someone whom I hadn't seen in months.

Standing at the front desk was none other my dearest mother in law. Mary Abuk chol, wife of politician Gabriel Garang chol.

She had lost alot of weight since I  last saw her and that was shocking . The woman ate like a pig. At one point in life I thought she could eat anything literally seeing as she almost eat my hair. Well she wasn't concentrating when some of my hair  accidentally got into her food.

But she did eat it and despite the fact that she felt it in her mouth, she continued to chew thinking it was some ingredient til her husband told her.

The look on her face made me  burst into laughter. But that's besides the point.

Because the woman infront of me  looked absolutely miserable as she leaned on the desk looking exhausted as hell while mumbling some words to the some nurse who was also standing near the front desk.

She wore a navy blue loose fitting dress which was a red flag because never in my years of knowing her has she been so underdressed.

I mean she was wearing slippers, hello that wasn't like her. My eyes widened when I noticed she had cut her hair, her fucking hair that once reached her back was now gone.what happened.

Even when Zayn passed. He didn't he was murdered my brain decided to add. She never cut it saying that what good would it do bring him back. She was right.

I don't know what the nurse told her, but she broke apart and that's when I knew that things were real bad to make the strongest ,coldest person I know break apart infront of a stranger like that.

That was all I needed to go to her aid. Just as I was about to take a step, a familiar hand rapped it's self around my arm.The lingering feeling of those soft pads. How well I knew them.

It can't be was all I thought as I turned around to face the one I  thought dead.

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Unknown

"She's mine, she's mine," I scream louder "mine all mine." I kept on repeating to myself.

My doctor thinks am losing it, he says I have a mental disorder. So he had to go.

Stab, stab I motioned  with my hands right through his throat. Nothing can keep me away from her.

I will kill them all if they even think it. I can't breathe without her. She's everything.

Everything

Everything

Everything

I chanted all will laughing. I went and stood infront of the mirror and looked at myself. I had become a mess but if it meant my love would be mine then for the greater good.

Now the the doc is out of my way, I can be with her.

You, you want her too isn't it. I pointed at my reflection accusingly. You want her I said again this time while raising my hand towards the mirror , clenching it into a fist  and delivering a punch which instantly shuttered the mirror into like a million pieces.

But the threat to my love was not neutralised.it had instead doubled. No no it had tripled , still no I thought whilst hitting my head. Stupid, stupid stupid I continued.

See what you have done I said myself, you put her in danger. Now save her, she's yours. No one is to be trusted around her. Do you get that, I asked myself.

I already knew my course of action , as I slowly got onto my knees and started smashing the glass pieces with my nuckles.

But the threat kept on intensifying with each blow delivered. But I was relentless. I put her in danger, so even if I was cut and bleeding , the pain was worth it.

I delivered every blow with both my hands and courageously took the pain for one most take responsibility for their actions.

I think I went at it for I

a solid 10 minutes until my hands felt numb and i couldn't continue no more.

By this time my mind had become clear. I can't believe it happened again.my love for her with my illness consume me everytime.

Am a danger to anyone and to myself

I thought while standing up, I didn't even wince in pain when I saw felt the pain on my nuckles. Because even if I was ill . I did agree that she was mine.

And all the pain it this world was worth it, for her I said while looking at her pictures.

Multiple pictures, my goddess has a shrine dedicated to her.

As I got closer to the mini alter I had of her I just couldn't help myself, so I lifted my hand to at least tough if not trace her beautiful face.

But the immense pain I felt from just the slightest moment would discourage someone weak but not me.

When my hand made contact with her, A lone tear slide down my left cheek but just like that my mind fogged up and I licked the red I saw on me.

Soon you will be mine. My zuzu not his. My eternal goddess and love.

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Yours truly,

Achiech 😐