Yok Yune

December 7th (Monday)

Star Soul is a 17, almost 18, year old boy. Star Soul is also my best friend. In the past three years we've known each other, the biggest secret we share is that Soul loves Aust Aseo. It's not really a secret to those who have eyes, but that's what Soul calls it.

He didn't tell me when he first realized his feelings, but I was the first he came out to. I mean, we are practically brothers. Honestly though, I knew the moment he laid eyes on Aseo, that he loved him. The day they met I knew they'd have a future, and I was right.

However, things did not go as planned. Aseo, well, I'm pretty sure he gay panicked. I know in my heart and gut that Aseo loves Soul just as much as Soul loves him. I just don't understand why Aseo practically ghosted Soul about 2 years after they met (Soul and I are close to celebrating our 4th year of friendship; this means its been almost 4 years since Soul came back and almost 2 since Aseo and Soul's friendship practically died).

It started with Aseo "not having enough time to hang out with friends" and afterwards Soul just sort of gave up. He stopped asking to hang out and told himself he and Aseo were nothing, not even friends. I could tell it hurt, and I wanted to make Aseo pay.

Afterwards, we all just spent most of our time thinking and healing. I spent most days in my room wondering what had happened. Soul spent his time trying to move on, though that didn't happen. As for Aseo, we have no idea what happened, although he did get closer to Ezial.

I have no evidence that Aseo loves Soul, but I truly and wholeheartedly believe he does, so I came to the conclusion that Aseo was scared. He was scared of facing Soul, scared of Soul's answer and reaction, so he ran away. After all, who wouldn't be when they fell for their best friend? I couldn't blame Aseo for being human, so I focused on helping Soul until Aseo was ready.

Time passed by and Aseo was still friends with Ezial, but, things had started to change.

I saw how Soul looked at Aseo and started to see the same face when Aseo gazed at Ezial. Frankly, it angered me. How could he accept his feelings for Ezial so quickly, but not for such a sweet person like Soul?! I was furious at how much time we spent on him, only for him to leave and easily give in to Ezial.

It all didn't make sense though. How could one fall for such a person? What the hell does he see in Ezial? I spent even more time trying to figure out this whole love story that I completely forgot about my conclusions from before, which was something I shouldn't have done so easily.

The end of the year had come; I'd spent months racing between thinking about what was going on in Aseo's mind and helping my friend in need. All these thoughts had my mind spinning and I decided I needed to rest. Of course, there's no way I'd let my friend suffer alone, but, I didn't want to lock myself in my room and neglect my own life.

In the end, all of this isn't even my business, but I can't let my friend go through all this alone. I won't force him to do anything, nor will I force Aseo. I also won't tell them to do anything; I'll give them my best ideas and thoughts then let them choose whatever they feel fit, even if the decision didn't come from my head, I will let proceed how they want.

Mine and Soul's third year of friendship ended as our fourth began. By now, Soul had begun to let go. He wasn't out of love with Aseo, but he had learned to live life without thinking of that. Soul figured that it was ok not having a lover, it was ok waiting for someone, but it wasn't ok to stop living while waiting, although I had already made it my mission to get those two boys together, to get them truly happy. I promised myself in the end, they'd be together.

I was proud of Soul though.

Months passed and our smiles returned as our minds cleared. Of course, Aseo and Ezial weren't completely out of lives. Soul sometimes felt a little down when seeing them and it started to get worse. I couldn't blame him though, everyone can only take so much.

His smile faded and I began to count the good times we had together.

Then, a miracle happened.

Aseo came back.

Its not that he had left, he didn't, its just that he was becoming his old, good self again. He spent more time with us and we all laughed together; our friends mixed well, too. Asset's and Soul's relationship is nothing more than friends, however, that can always change. I believe in them; I believe time, patience, and understanding will lead to the best of rewards.

I had been so lost in my thoughts and memories of the past, I didn't realize is was way past dinner time. Sighing, I get up from my bed and walk downstairs. Once there, I'm met with darkness, the only light coming from under my parents' closed door.

Yet another sigh escapes my lips as I settle on eating cereal in my room. I scroll through random apps on my phone, but the device suddenly begins to vibrate.

I pick up the call, putting the phone close to my ear.

"Hey" I say.

"Hey!" the other person, Soul, responds.

"You need something?" I ask then take a spoonful of cereal.

He goes on to say he just wanted to talk and I immediately get into a comfortable sleeping position. I don't know what he talked about, nor what really happened, but the last thing I remember is Soul saying, "Goodnight, Yune," right as I closed my eyes and sleep took over.