Lady Of Silence

"How about you start cleaning the dishes?" I requested, shrinking away from him. He snickered and turned the tap on, cleaning all of the unattended dishes. I could've done the dishes for him, but not after what he did. We just met and he's already hitting on me? He thinks I'm that easy to get, tough luck, but I'm not.

I left the kitchen, going up the stairs and entering the room. The lights in the room were too bright for my eyes, so I decided to turn it off. Soon enough, darkness took over the room and the glint of light coming from the balcony was the only source. I walked over to the glass door and slid it open, and was welcomed by the sea, where it's waves were crawling gently to the shore. The moon shone it's light on the waters, revealing a bunch of boats cruising along in it.

It's not often that I get to see this view, I'm more of a city girl, but I appreciate life outside of towns and cities and I think that kind of life has more lessons dug deep in it, you get to appreciate all the little things, you'll experience a lot of things that the cities couldn't offer. Overall, there's more to it than meets the eye.

I was shivering in the cold atmosphere. The sea breeze blew right through my sweater causing me to swaddle myself, reminding me that it is already ber season, so it explains the cold nights I have been feeling lately. As I kept caressing my arms, I pinned my eyes on the moon, no specific words could describe my admiration for it, I'm stunned by how the moon always stands out despite all of it's different phases. It undergoes 8 phases, yet losing it's beauty was never a part of it's nature, the more it changes, the more it's beauty blooms and it'll get a hold on you, it's the kind of hold that'll remind you that you are always loved for all of the changes you've went through, alone or together.

Sometimes, I wish I was just like the moon because even if it's lonely and filled with imperfections, it still shined in times of darkness. It went through phases, but amidst all of that, it's still up there, with all of it's undeniable beauty and attraction. Me? I am just nothing, but a coward, always in deep fear of what might other people say or think about me, I care more about their opinions than myself. It's draining and haunting cause they advice you to be yourself, but when you are being yourself, they'll judge you for it and you get confused, lose your confidence and you pretend to be someone you're not.

Hey, I get it, you think it's hard for people to accept you, but it's even harder if you won't be able to accept yourself in the first place, if you keep devoting yourself to that limited edition role of yours. I understand, but at some point, if those people around you can't accept you for who you are, then accept yourself, embrace yourself, you're independent and brave enough to do that for yourself, it's never healthy to be around people who judges you for loving yourself, when in fact, that is the best kind of love.

There are lots of significant values in life that needs to be acquired, but I'll tell you two of mine and the rest of it are for you to find out. The two values I admire and hope to acquire are gratitude and courage. In life, we encounter obstacles and hurdles and these allowed fear to take over us, it made us question ourselves and our capacity to achieve things, but because of courage, we were able to outweigh fear and do the moral action in spite of fear and rejection.

As I've said, we all encounter obstacles and hurdles, but it all differs on how we understand these. It can be different for everybody, it could be a lesson, bad luck, or even a curse, but it all comes down to a point of thanking the universe for letting that happen, in short, we show gratitude despite all of the unfortunate events because it all turned into lessons for us, it had became a driving force for us to do better and don't forget the people who helped you along the way, who never gave up on you and who stayed despite the hundreds and thousands of reasons to leave.

No matter what the world says about you, always keep in mind that you know yourself better than anyone else in this planet. People are always going to drag you down when you start to achieve all of your dreams and goals, but don't mind them, don't lose yourself trying to please everyone, if you do, you'll die by their rejection.

Stop making efforts for someone who doesn't acknowledge you, be courageous to walk away from anything or anyone that doesn't deserve you and your works and thank them for entering your life cause if they didn't, you wouldn't come to this realization and you'd be sacrificing yourself in return of nothing, but pain and rejection.

Don't forget these lessons, make sure to apply it in every aspect of your life.

Their idea of you in their mind is not your responsibility to live up to. Be your own kind of beautiful and be your own reason to smile.

Darling, there's so much love and worth in you, always take that to heart.