༓ 》 See Into Me《 ༓

~ My words don't make sense like before

My mind has become a journal of youth to be torn

I record the ones who played me wrong and submit the story, a cycle should end, I should find my glory

I've been challenged and I've cried on streets

I've fallen on the ground and gained a couple of wrinkles finding less safety in my sleep

I've been memorizing numbers and names of elders

I've honored my feelings so I cried next to the homeless

I've cut chords and doubled the miles

Seeking what could pleasure my mind

I grow fond of horizons and ignored my reasons

I had ghosts around me asking for help

Three misunderstood my steps and two are holding my breath

Three threes and two elevens had my mind wondering

What does the divine want with this many beings alive?

Spells are chanted desperately

I understand faith differently

I understand the wholesome benefits of love figuratively

I'm angry you made it my fault

And anger isn't my thing at all

A dumb girl like you managed to wake me up

And a crazy one like me understood the fall

I've digested waves of music

I've sketched noises of memories

And I have loved life ever so endlessly

I chose to live for the maroon in the trees

For the water on the leaves

For the rich stars beneath my feet

A moment present here

Not a person in my future made of home

A feeling I have chased all along

Blaming myself for not being perfect

But do you understand how much I need it?!

I need to make fewer mistakes

I need to earn people's respect

I need the life of no regrets

I'm so scared of you beating me senseless

Be vulnerable and open with me

I've opened my heart for you vocally

Verbalized my needs and waited for mercy

And my bless was a candle that burned bright

Next to my crystals and pillows, I found my soul reside

I see skies from above heads and birds fly in waves

I have removed layers of shame

Copied women who do it well

Got my eyeliner to protect my face from the pain

High heels because I'm not a doll waiting backstage

I've inherited beliefs that don't suit my health

My soul was a deep breathe locked in a shell

In the fall I was released, allowed to inhaled my essence and a mosaic left behind me to remind you of my presence

There's so much of me in this healing, so don't you glorifying the sacrifice of my meaning

I will not sacrifice what makes sense to me, whether it's that god loves me or the joy of admiring feminine beauty. her green eyes with her wooden guitar on my screen

I found loyalty in the emotions she makes me feel

The background to my artistic moods she seems to be

Mothers have hated their daughters

Fathers have abandoned their sons

You and I were brought to each other for tuning the strings

For the right note to be played when our time comes, we needed some tension to sharpen our minds

So I forgive you for letting me go

We made a future worth living after all

Worth ending our dragged story, forever never promised you'll still love me

You can let go of me now

I'm not afraid of the world anymore

Now I know, I am worth knowing, worth loving, and worth keeping.

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.surrender.