Episode 6

E6: S1

Electronic music was the owner of all of us, they danced with passion; the streptease moved their bodies with energy and lust. I came out of the crowd, when I did, I found Ethan with a girl next to the motorcycle, they were both kissing. Ethan had her face in her wide veiny hands, my best friend was a handsome guy, he had a well-built body and he always gets his one-night stands.

"I see you're not so bored..." I say smiling, interrupting the scene.

"You see... And you? It looks like you had an orgasm a second ago." He blurted out, my jaw dropped and I said:

"Asshole, you're the fucking master!"

"See, I'm a fortune teller..." he laughed. "Well baby, I'm afraid I have to go... See you later." he said, he kissed him once more, sticking her tongue and left.

"Come on..." I said, putting my arm on his shoulder. "Hey, how did you know...?"

"I know you, Dom..." he interrupted me.

I smiled and we went home. We did a race on the road full of laughter and laughter from two little boys.

"Goodnight bro." Ethan says goodbye, giving me a brotherly hug, which I received with much love, his hugs are the best.

"Ok, bro. See you tomorrow." he walked away, I looked at Emily's house, the one that was dark, I guess they were already in bed.

"What? Since I came here you haven't stopped looking there... Is there something you haven't told me, Dominick?" Ethan asked me, raising a curious eyebrow, I looked at him with a half smile.

"I'll tell you about it tomorrow, okay?" I said rubbing his hair and winking at him.

"Okay. Well." He took steps back. "Good night." he rubbed his hand saying goodbye, getting on the bike and driving off.

I followed her with my eyes until she left. I put my hands in the pockets of my coat and stared at the moon, it started to get cold. I'm not even sleepy. I sit for a moment on the lawn in my backyard.

«Emily... Emily»

A memory shook my head:

"DOMINICK, ADAM!! I WANT YOU HERE RIGHT NOW!" Mom yelled at my brother and me.

We went slowly. Nervous, perhaps because we knew what to expect. We stood by the kitchen door, she was on her back, but her anger was evident above her clothes. They were going to give us a good scolding.

She turned around and looked at us both; her eyes said everything she was going to tell us:

"Look at a couple of youngsters !! Ultimately, I don't know what the hell I'm going to do with you two, you're a walking disaster! The next the neighbor complains, I'm going to hit them so hard they'll remember me for the rest of their lives."

"Okay mom, we won't do it again." Adam replied.

"I hope so, now... Get out of here!" She yelled, pointing us out.

I pulled my hands out of my pockets reacting.

Old times… Although I hardly remember anything... It is something, incredible the fact of not being able to remember my mother's face. That is why I believe more and more that these are not... Adam, my twin brother, my best childhood friend, I miss him. Although I remember little about him.

I would like to go back to that fucking day ... That day that happened, maybe today everything was different. I would have a normal life... And this was not happening to me... And today to have to accept the fact that I am a sex addict.

If I ever insisted on telling you about this day of my life, I would lie to you... I assure you. Nobody knows and they may never know.

The hours pass, with my knees between my hands, a strong confusion in my head, the cold brushed my face and became more and more intense. I go back inside silently, taking care of every step so as not to wake anyone up. I stop in front of the room and look at them: Why don't I remember anything about them? Why?

I continue walking until I get to my room, I throw myself on the bed face down and I fall asleep, until dawn.

My mobile starts vibrating in my pocket, I take it out and see him:

'07: 45 AM, Lost Alarm '

I get up quickly and take a shower - so fast that I leave several things lying around - I get dressed and run out of the room, but "my mom" stops me.

"Dom... I need to tell you something important."

"Not now, Mom, I'm very late" I passed by, soon losing my patience, "please..."

"Dom, Moisés and I are not your biological parents" she blurted out and a chill went through my entire body, stopping me in the hallway.

"What?" I whispered, stunned.

"I was forced to. It was time for you to know. I know perfectly well that you doubted it many times, yesterday I took it for granted... you don't cross the word to us and we knew that you already felt something."

"What?" My eyes began to crystallize.

"Dominick, Moises was your dad's employee at the place he owned. I learned that my husband could not have children and for a long time we looked for a child... One day your father spoke to us. Your father used to say that he was bored with you, he wanted to give you up somewhere, because of your illness, that you were useless and that…" she took a breath, "we took that opportunity and told him that we wanted to adopt you or that we didn't. we would stay with you. Maybe you don't remember, you were thirteen ... Although you should ..." she swallowed. "Since when you were younger, you have suffered from short-term memory. That's why you don't remember anything."

"But… But…" I started to stutter, my throat dry and my voice a mess, "but… why? Why didn't you tell me?!!" I would have understood !! "I propelled a blow with my fist towards the door. AAH!!" I started to cry. She came over to hug me.

"DO NOT!! STAY AWAY!!, I hate you!" I yelled pushing her away.

"Forgive me..." she whispered in a whimper, "but we didn't want him to give you to strangers... That's why we accept you ..." she confessed.

"I don't want to hear you!! You could die! "I slammed the door and left the house, started the bike and accelerated with pressure.

I already knew the truth, having it in her hands and not doing with it is something very different. I have no identity, I am alone and without a path, I know absolutely nothing about myself and in better words, I am of no use.

«I want to disappear!»

«I want to die!!»

"AAAAAAAAHHHH!!!"

Sweet discovery.