Questions

My heart desires soo many things,

Somehow they seem forbidden.

Happiness inside and smiles on my face

Two holding hands to keep me embraced.

To feel the warmth, to feel the love

To hum along our being's song.

To visit places straight from Heavens

To be fulfilled and blocked from shadows.

To walk the path that's meant for me,

To plant the seed of the everlasting tree-

A soulmate bond that reaches soo deep

That I won't ever feel like he's not meant for me.

It sounds soo cheesy, now I see

That everything surrounding me

Does not achieve my foreign goal

Does not enchant me, not at all.

Life's now mundane, just ordinary

Its taste is plain, not sweet as honey.

Perhaps I should just let it go

The life soo far didn't gave me joy.

It's weird although, it's strange to tell

My mindset's healthy, my heart's in Hell.

The connexions in my head tell me I should stop,

That I am happy, so I've thought.

But sometimes when it's late at night

I get these dreams I cannot fight.

I should be happy, sometimes I do

But other times, all sight is blue.

What can I do to make this stop?

How can I start and strengthen up?

These are some questions we all ask,

Just when we all take off the mask,

And ask ourselves what is life's purpose?

Is it working how's supposed to?