Chapter 51: The Heart Could Feel & See

From the same hall where she last saw Gwen, Slavica found nothing but an empty one. She went on taking the same hall to look for her. Every turn that she did at every corner of the hall she went through, there was no sign or shadow of the person she love. She sighed and yet, still went on.

"Where have you gone into, my love?" Slavica wondered to herself as she kept looking around throughout the mansion.

She even checks each room that Gwen might be in it. She even knocked on the founders' offices but there was still no sign of her lover. Slavica was growing frustrated and more importantly, she was worried about her.

"Please, just a sign of where are you…Gwen…" Slavica muttered in her worried and broken heart.

But it didn't stop her from searching for her. She even asked around if they found her but again, there was no sign of the person that her heart fall in love with. After hours of searching around, Slavica started to slow down panting, and stopped at the garden where Alysia's office was located. But at that moment there, she was totally alone and she was already crying beneath the cherry blossom tree.

"Gwen…where are you?" Slavica cried for some hours already as she didn't know where her lover went and she was losing the reason to move again.

Slavica felt like she already lost her and she started to lose the will to move or to see any brighter days or nights once again. She looked up to the dimming sky since the sun was already setting off from the sky.

"Where are you? Why I can see you wherever I turn, you're nowhere to be found?" Slavica was tired of crying for hours but when she asked those words, once again, she was crying.

'Feel.'

"Should I let you go? Should I stop myself from loving you? Tell me, Gwen…" she went on while her heart felt lost and broken apart but there was something whispering to her that she couldn't hear yet.

'Don't look but feel.'

"I will let you go if you desire to…because that's how much I love you…even if it hurts me, I will set you free if you want to…just tell me…I'm sorry…" She pulled her knees together and cried for more.

"I will keep moving…if not now then I'll hope there's an us at the end…" She went to look up to the dimming sky as she let her tears fall one more time.

Slavica lifted what she was feeling to the highest heaven that watching her search until she closed her eyes when a very majestic voice began echoing through her ears. She went on listening since she couldn't open her eyes anymore, they were tired from crying.

'Feel it. Feel from your heart. See from there.'

For some reason, Slavica put her right hand over her left chest and started to feel the beat of her heart. She was feeling every beat that her heart was making and she began to feel the rush passing through her entire body. She feel warm as if somebody was holding her and cradling her to calm down. She was indeed feeling them than looking for them and she started on smiling.

"Right…no need to search…if Gwen and I were meant to be together, it will happen through the highest heaven's time. I just need to be patient with it…so please, take care of her no matter what she was facing…protect her since I'm far from her…I don't care what happens to me but please, let her be safe at all costs…" Slavica smiled with her calm voice when she said those words to nobody else.

Slavica took a deep breath and once again she looked up to the sky that was already turning dark. Her eyes were closed once again since they were tired and she rested there.

As for Gwen who run off elsewhere, she found herself in Wilma's created realm again and Wilma gave her a look.

"Why crying?" Wilma asked as soon as she put down all of the foods of the creatures that she was taking care of within her created realm.

"Vica…I saw her with someone and…" Gwen started telling Wilma what she saw but she couldn't finish because she was hurting.

"Jealousy could blind the eyes from the truth of what you just saw there." Wilma smiled as she patted her shoulder.

"Wilma…" she just muttered but Wilma smiled at her.

"I have eyes and ears everywhere. All of the founders do." She told Gwen about what the founders knew about everything that was happening around their quarters.

"Wanna see what you've caused to your lover?" she even asked Gwen about knowing what Slavica went through as soon as she went on running away from her.

"What do you mean?" Gwen curiously wondered.

"Slavica wasn't the type of woman who will entertain others especially when she was already in a relationship with others. Yes, she could talk to them but not like the way she did to you. She's weak and strong being with you which I hope you sensed." Wilma pointed out how she knew Slavica through the years they'd worked with her.

"I…" she wanted to say something but words couldn't come up.

"Here…" Wilma patted her back gently and pointed to the misty pond again.

It was just a few seconds of waiting when the misty pond began to clear up and show some images of what happened earlier. They were just flashing images until she began on hearing Slavica's voice while talking to the lady.

'Sorry, but I can't. I have my mate.'

'GWEN!'

'Dammit, she blocked me.'

'Can she do that?'

'She's stronger than anyone else here. She's my equal. See you around.'

'Okay, sorry if I'm the reason for her jealousy.'

'See yah.'

As soon as Slavica went on running toward the same hall where Gwen left, Slavica found no one was there. Gwen saw Slavica go on taking the same hall to look for her. But for every turn that Slavica did at every corner of the hall she went through, there was no sign or shadow of Gwen. She saw Slavica sigh and still went on looking for her.

'Where have you gone into, my love?'

"Slavica…" Gwen muttered when she saw on how badly Slavica looked for her at every corner of the mansion even throughout the entire perimeter of the quarters. She searched for Gwen's whereabouts.

Gwen saw how Slavica checked every room around the mansion. She even knocked on the founders' offices but Gwen wasn't there at all. She saw that Slavica was growing frustrated and worried about her.

'Please, just a sign of where are you…Gwen…'

It broke Gwen's heart when she heard the broken voice of her lover while searching for her. She saw Slavica ask around about her but nobody could tell where Gwen was. After hours of searching around, Gwen saw how tired Slavica was already until she stopped at the cherry blossom tree where Alysia's office was located. It broke Gwen's heart even more when she heard a sniffing sound from Slavica. She was crying all right.

'Gwen…where are you?'

"Vica…" Gwen wanted to reach her but couldn't because she was in Wilma's created realm.

'Where are you? Why I can see you wherever I turn, you're nowhere to be found?'

"Feel me instead…" Gwen muttered to herself as her tears began to fall down from her eyes.

'Should I let you go? Should I stop myself from loving you? Tell me, Gwen…'

"Stupid, don't you dare…I love you, so don't…" Gwen clicked her tongue but she knew that Slavica won't be able to hear her.

'I will let you go if you desire to…because that's how much I love you…even it hurts me, I will set you free if you want to…just tell me…I'm sorry…I will keep moving…if not now then I'll hoping there's an us at the end…'

"She loves you that much, Gwen…why can't you trust it?" Wilma suddenly speaks beside her while watching the same event that was happening at the same moment beyond her created realm.

"It's not that I don't…I love her too much...that made me feel jealous when somebody or someone tried to move on her…" Gwen answered honestly and she hate that side of her. She knew that she trust the love of Slavica but she couldn't put her trust in those lurking around Slavica when she was not around her.

"Have you even recalled that she had her hideous scar beneath her mask? Do you think people will easily accept her as you do? I don't think so, Gwen." Wilma reminded me what Slavica really looked like.

"I know most people look on physical attraction than to their soul and heart." Gwen sighed as she nodded because she knew some people do that nowadays.

"And that's what attracts you. You see in Slavica's eyes her need and longing. You had the urge to fill them and why do you think you feel them?" Wilma wanted Gwen to realize something that made her ask.

"It goes beyond mate bond, Gwen. It is a matter of the heart and soul of the person. That's what you see in her and what do you think she saw in you?" she continued as Gwen looked over the sadness and heartbreak that she cause in the person she loves.

Gwen decided to do something for her lover and appreciate what Slaivca had given to her. She must express what she was feeling for her before it was too late for her to do that. She must make sure that Slavica feels them. She must let Slavica know how much she loves her.

"Wilma, thank you, I…" Gwen thanked Wilma but she didn't finish when she heard Slavica's voice again and she looked over the pond again. She listened to what Slavica was saying through the reflection of Slavica's alone moment.

'Right…no need to search…if Gwen and I were meant to be together, it will happen through the highest heaven's time. I just need to be patient with it…so please, take care of her no matter what she was facing…protect her since I'm far from her…I don't care what happens to me but please, let her be safe at all costs…'

"I have to go to her now. She needs me. Thank you for reminding me, Wilma." Gwen heard her lover's prayer and thanked Wilma once again as she gets up from her seat.

"Go." Wilma nodded and let her leave her created realm.

With a smiling face, Gwen immediately run out of Wilma's created realm. She just came out from Mina's office's ceiling. It surprised Jefferson and Nejin from her sudden appearance apart from Mina. Gwen apologized and leave the office as if she didn't appear there.

"Wait for me, my love." Gwen muttered to herself and dashed to where Slavica was.

When she finally made it, Alysia was there letting Slavica sleep at ease beside her. Gwen sighed and approached them.

"How is she?" Gwen asked Alysia as she approached their spot beneath the blooming cherry blossom tree.

"Tired. Wilma told me that you're coming here that's why I had to be here, so you can enter my office." Alysia smiled as she put down the book that she was reading again.

"And she can?" Gwen wondered as she sat beside the sleeping Slavica.

"We've been working with her for many years and my guardians around her are already familiar with her, that's why." She answered as she shrugged her shoulders.

"Fair enough." She nodded and started caressing dearly Slavica's hair.

"Well, I will leave her into your care. But Gwen, I mean, Sabina, don't break her heart. She deserves more than pain and darkness. All of the founders witness that especially Wilma. So, please, can I have your word for it? She was like our baby sister." Alysia asked a favor to her and Gwen smiled.

"I can't promise, Alys but I will stay with her no matter what happens because she holds my heart already." Gwen smiled genuinely at Alysia before she looked lovingly at Slavica's sleeping face.

As Alysia left them alone in her garden office, Gwen gently caressed Slavica's hair till her hand found her lover's face. She looked at her very dearly and lovingly until her tears fell down from her eyes as she recall the pain that she caused Slavica.

"I'm sorry for the pain that I've caused your heart. I am here now. I am not going anywhere without you here in my heart, my love." Gwen whispered as she placed a very dear kiss over Slavica's forehead.

"I should have trusted the love that we're both feeling and I am sorry for getting jealous without confirming to you what I just saw there. I'm sorry…don't you dare, stop loving me because my feelings for you were growing stronger even though we don't confess much about how deeply we're in love with each other but it doesn't mean that we don't…" she apologized as she confessed the building feelings that she was having for Slavica. Then her tears fell down once again and she wipe them off but she can't stop them from falling down.

"I love you, my love. Take care of my heart as I will take care of yours." she kept talking as she expressed her love for her then she recalled her new name as a DIP member.

"Also, Mina gave me my DIP name and it means Bright Wisdom…" Gwen informed Slavica while smiling hoping that she could hear her.

"Sabina." Slavica whispered her DIP name with a hoarse voice and slowly opened her eyes.

"My love…" Gwen's tears fell down again while Slavica was sitting up. When she was finally sitting properly, she reached Gwen's face to caress dearly.

"I feel you because I always see you in my mind. And to be honest, my love, I am thankful that you are the first person that I ever love. It was like the highest heaven preparing me to love you and I am." Slavica smiled lovingly at her and Gwen leaned over the dreary caress that Slavica was doing to her face.