Chapter 12

Jace:

I licked her smooth, grape tasting lip as she moaned with her legs around my waist. I grazed her soft legs with my fingers as I moved them from her waist to hold her right.

She gasped as I moved to her neck and she arched it out for me. Her tongue slipped out of her mouth and licked her lips. Her fingers moved from my hair down to the collar of my blazer.

I nipped harder at her skin and she let out a husky moan.

Oh, how I loved her moans.

"Jace..." She breathed, throwing her head back.

"Yeah..." I mumbled in her neck and she opened her mouth. I moved up and licked her lip. She giggled.

Feeling overwhelmed, I moved us away from the wall and walked back to the lounge. She kept her eyes locked with mine and the intesity in them, aroused me.

She gasped and I knew what she felt.

"I- wow." She whispered as we stood in front of the fireplace. There was a huge chunck of carpeted, soft space between the coffee table and the fireplace.

Enough for us to be there.

"Jace." She tightened her legs around me as I was about to lower.

"I-its okay." I dropped my head to her chin. Her legs slowly drpaed from my sides and she moved her fingers to the lapels of my blazer. The smooth touch was burning me on the inside.

My body was crumbling with her heat and I was soon to be ash with her fire.

She dropped her head eyed my body up and down.

"Selene..." I inhaled her scent and she slowly pushed apart the lips of my jacket. I held my heart and breath.

"Shh." She pouted her lips as she held my voice in her soul.

She pushed the blazer off my shoulders and I helped to remove it. the blazer dropped itself on he carpet beneath us but all I could see were her fingers gently subbing the burning desire in my chest with the cotton dabs of her. Her fingers felt so small on my chest and her body, inclined to mine, pushed me to fall go my knees.

She stood still as I sat on my knees in front of her. I praised the beauty settled in her. The list of the alluring woman in her.

I couldn't help but fall deeper in love with her. Want her all the more and desire her all in all.

When she looked down at me, her lip was bitten and her chest heaved. I raised my palm and placed it on her stomach, through her dress. She closed her eyes.

I grazed my fingers, further down towards the hem of her dress. She opened her mouth and released empty breaths.

"May I?" I whispered and she nodded, very lightly. I held the in my fingers and tugged at it. She smirked but that smirk faded as I raised the dress and placed a gentle kiss on her naked knee.

She hissed.

The pleasurable hiss.

I moved my fingers up her leg, to her thigh, under her dress. Her legs shivered under my touch.

"J-Jace..." she stammered out and I slowly raised myself, against the length of her, until her face was touched with mine at the tips of our noses. My hand was still on her leg, on hee thigh. She had her eyes closed and her breathing lobored as her hand started from the side of my hip bone, all the way to the centre front of my hip.

She held me, through my pants, leaving me dazed.

"Are you sure?" I asked again. I so couldn't love if she was going to say no, in that moment, but I couldn't just let her feel that she made a mistake by the next day.

She didn't say anything and moved her fingers up from my crotch, to my belly. She clutched onto my shirt and pushed it up a little. I brought my hand out from under her dress and pulled the hem of my shirt, all the way, off of my head.

Now, I was bare chested, in front of her, for the first time.

Very first time.

She moved her face away from mine and just when I was about to say something, her lips moved to my neck. I arched my neck and sucked a sharp breath. A tear slid out of my eye at the feeling of the pleasure sucking at my nerves.

I was madly in love with Selene and without her, there was no world, no infinity, and no one known as Jace Anderson.

I balled my hands into fists on my side, when her fingers found them and moved with them. She placed my fists on her back and I opened the grip to feel her body.

Hee hands, slowly, slid from my belly to my chest, where her lips had now reached, nipping and sucking.

She placed a kiss I'm the middle of my chest and looked up.

I looked down.

Our eyes sparkled a connection and before I knew it leaned up to me.

"Unfold me." She whispered in my ear and I kissed the side of her head.

I raised my palms on her back and slowly removed her denim jacket. She sighed and my breath hitched at the sight of the strapless sweetheart neckline.

She looked down and I could utter embarrassement marring her face. I placed my index finger under her chin and raised her face to match mine.

"Don't you ever feel this way again." I uttered sternly and she blinked her tears. My hands were trembling and she nodded before stepping closet to me.

"Untie me." She breathed and I placed my lips on her dry ones.

Of all the feelings in my heart and body, the touch of her lips, beat them all.

I entered my tongue in her mouth as I held the cool metallic zipper on her back. I slid the zipper down as slowly she breathed into the kiss and inhaled me at the same time.

When I felt the zipper stopping, I removed my lips from hers and she kept her eyes shut. Her bottom lip, sucked itself between her teeth and she let the dress fall off her body like a silk drape dropping from the presentation of a diamond. Except only in our situation, it was no diamond.

Diamond was a dull piece of coal compared to what stood before me. A beautiful, angelic figure.

Covered in white lace bra and panties, Selene stood slender and curved.

Her hip bone was a beautiful gentle curve while her chest was slimly designed to be praised. Her bare stomach had no scars and pale skin. Thin, was the word for her body, but beauty was the tone of it.

I could sew the dents of hee rib cage against her chest and the collar bones on her chest.

It was like the beauty in all the humans was sucked out to make the angel before me.

God made me with dust, but he shaped her, sculpted her and made her with pure light. The light that eliminated the darkness and deteriorated the shadows.

"Sel-Selene..." I gasped.

"I-I-" her cheeks tinted and her arms started covering her belly and chest. I frowned and abruptly held her arms before pulling her into me.

Her bare arms and palms slapped against my chest and stopped my train of breathing. Her eyes widened and looked for mine and her lips trembled as they felt inches closer to mine.

"Don't do it. You will not only hurt yourself, but me too." I whispered and she bit her bottom lip, holding a cry.

"I love you." She uttered.

I had always read posts on social media, stanzas in poetry, or quotes in books, about how these three words of affection were a beautiful lie.

I believed in that.

Until that very moment I had laid ears to those words ringing into the tunes of Selene's voice.

They felt like my only truth and the truest of the feelings would erupt in me.

"I love you." I whispered back and she sighed a relief. I raised my brows.

"What? You thought of a doubt?" I smirked.

"Never." She whispered before wrapping her arms around my shoulders and caressed her bare thigh against mine. I took the cue and held her waist as I descended back down on the carpet below us.

When I sat on my butt, she straddled me and sat on her knees. Her fingers lowered from my shoulders to my pants and then started unbottoning the silver button.

I looked up at her and held her face, in my palm.

"Are-"

"More than you'll ever know." She interrupted and I smiled at her nervous face. I helped in removing my pants for her and we sat with her on my lap when I was in my boxers and she in her undergarments.

I started with her neck, while pressing my body against hers and my lips sucking on her skin. She moaned and breathed at the same time as she trapped me in her legs and I let my arousal meet her.

It was so perfect.

Selene:

My body tingled as the prickly shiver ran through my spine. I wrapped my arms around me and succumbed into my body, relaxingly under the smooth comforter until I felt something soft and warm touching my face.

I held my breath but the crisp air running in my nose, said different. I gasped as I snapped my eyes open.

Instead of fear, an overwhelming feeling of pleasure and relaxation spread through every single nerve in me.

Jace looked down at me as his face hovered over mine. A gentle smile on his face and a wink in his eyes when I smiled back at him.

I looked at his bare chest, then slowly, nervously, lowered my eyes to my own body. The white comforter covered our bodies, but the best part was that I could feel that I was wearing my underwear and my top was covered with a white huge shirt.

Jace's shirt.

I bit my lip.

Then I felt it.

The nasal tube on my lips. He had put it in.

I moved my hand from my belly, all the way up to my lips and at the touch of the plastic, my eyes snapped to Jace's face. He lowered in and tipped my nose with a kiss.

"I just can't be too careful." He whispered and I smiled, bringing my arms around his neck.

"We did it." I giggled like a little girl. I regretted it instantly, because it sounded so childish.

"I know, I'm so excited now." He widened his eyes and laughed like a kid.

My boyfriend, so fucking perfect, it hurt.

I laughed but soon tears spilled like a bursting held up dam.

"Selene-" He whispered, inching closer to me. He paused as his face frowned, "No." He stated firmly, wiping my tears.

"Jace-"

"No."

"I-"

"I refuse to accept it, because it isn't the truth and I don't take it." He flipped on the carpet beneath us and brought me up on his chest. I laid my head there and felt how, he was wearing a pair of some soft pyjamas under the comforter and my body was on top of his.

"Wednesday." I murmured and he stiffened.

"What?"

"Its, um-"

"No, no!" He whispered, holding me tighter, burying me deeper into him.

"Jace-"

"No."

"Jace..." I pushed at him and sat on his hips. He sat up, not moving his arms away from my waist.

I wrapped my arms around his neck and brought my fingers in his hair. He looked at me with watery, regretful eyes and my heart clenched at the sight of his disheveled state.

"It's Wednesday. They have to do it before it's too late." I whispered.

"What- what do you mean by too late?" His lips trembled.

"Its getting worse and bigger, they have to remove it, before it gets too late." I tried to sound as sugar coated as possible.

Of course, I sucked at it.

He buried his face in my neck.

I kissed the back of his head. He further snuggled into me.

"I love you." I confessed.

"I-" he paused mid sentence and moved out of my neck, "-can't." He mumbled.

My face dropped.

"I can't lose you."

"I kno-"

"No, you don't understand." He stopped me, by jerking my body gently and dropping his head. It was like watching him go on a war against himself.

"Jace." I cupped his cheeks and brought his eyes, leveled to mine. I fixed my orbs against his, and gave out a smile, "I will fight. I will fight to come back, to you. This is just our beginning and we will find our path back to each other. No matter how tough it gets and how painfully this stings."

"Then, I will stay by your side, for as long as you sleep." His words held firmness and his eyes strength. I could see that it was his "no kidding" look.

Dabbing his lips with a kiss, I expected a mood change. When no reaction came from him, I placed another one on his cheeks. Nothing.

"Okay, okay." Lets play a game.

His eyes found mine with confusion.

"Ask me what." I ordered and he rolled his eyes.

"Ask me." I jerked him lightly and an almost absent smirk came up.

"What?" He asked.

"What game?" I cocked my brow.

He sighed and clenche his jaw. My God, he was hot.

"What game?" He kept on grinding his teeth together.

"I forgot." I teased and he sighed and then groaned.

"Sorry, sorry." I laughed lightly and ruffled his hair.

"Its called, Relationships." I bit my lip and he did the same.

"O-oh." He stammered and my insides gurgled weirdly.

"I'll start, then I'll tell you to follow."

"O-oh?"

"Oh." I answered in the tone as if a yes.

"Ok-Kay." He cleared his throat and looked down to our interlocked laps.

Jace:

"I had my first relationship in grade nine."

"Nine?" I cocked my brows in surprise.

"Yeah." She almost looked offended, "Why?"

"Oh, um, have you seen you?"

"Sorry. I know-" she sighed with shamefulness, "I'm-"

"You are beautiful." I cut in, "Mesmerizing. Extremely captivating. Breath-" She shut me up immediately, by placing her lips gently on mine.

A tap was all that occurred but my whole body vibrated in a delightfully, harmonious rhythm.

"Okay, that, was pure seduction."

"It works. Always."

"Really?"

"Oh, yeah." She chuckled with a smug smirk.

"Show me how?"

"I did."

"Really?"

"Yeah. All that, that, we just did-" her cheeks caught the million pigments of red, gushing her cheeks pink.

"So, that, was you seducing your way to make me see how gorgeous you are."

"Mhm."

"Well." I smirked and cozied her up, nearer to my body, "if it's any consolation, it worked like a charm."

"Ooh, I can feel it still-" she jumped and settled back in my lap, giggling at what her and I, both felt in that close moment.

"You're burning up, Selene." I uttered, feeling anxious. My fingers were holding her waist from under her shirt and her skin was heating up against the sking coated surface of my phalanges.

"Yeah, you know what, my heads pounding and your face-" she grunted and rubbed her eyes, my heart picked up speed, "-it's so blurry." She dropped her forehead in her palm.

"No, no, no. What? No. I'll call an ambulance. Just lay down, and I will get you some water. I have tylenols, advils, your amitriptyline. Oh, and I-"

"Oh, my God!" She started laughing in the most amused manner possible.

"Wha-what?" I panicked further.

"I-I'm sorry. I was just kidding." She laughed harder and my heart constricted. It was not funny to me.

Seeing her in pain, the overhwleming course of her tumor taking over her, was not funny to me. It hurt me and stabbed at my heart everyday.

I couldn't even think of a possibility of losing Selene because I saw nothing after her. She was someone, I wanted to spend my life with. Not caring of my age, I knew I was bound to love and cherish, the girl in my arms.

My jaw ticked and I gave her a stern stare, which settled her laughs.

"I'm sorry?" She uttered in her sweet tiny voice.

Selene:

No response was coming from him. All he gave me was a scary look and a tight body. I whispered apologizing words again but nothing. I decided to sooth into it.

When I moved to place a gentle kiss on his forehead, his fingers tightened around my waist and before I knew it, I was pinned to the soft carpet beneath us.

His hands held mine, near my head, while his brown soft and hard eyes gazed into mine.

"I-"

My words were drowned in the pained kiss that captured my lips.

I moaned as his lips moved against mine, in a sync. His fingers kept my hands pinned down but my body fought back, while arching towards his hard belly.

When he moved away, he panted while staring down at my face.

"I'm scared." He confessed and to be honest, I had never been more scared.

"Me too." I croaked.

"I never thought you would take me." His eyes turned soft and watery.

"Why?" I felt confused.

"Because I don't feel like a good man."

"Nobody's perfect, Jace." I defended him.

"No, which is why I had the thought. I thought you had to be perfect to be able to look past my misinterpreted situations and you did so I never thought that this day would come."

"That doesn't make me perfect, Jace." I chuckled lightly but in pain, "That makes me a girl, who is head over heels for a boy. Not perfect."

"You will come back to us, right?" He questioned with a pleading face.

I didn't know what to answer.

I wasn't sure either.

But then, if one has to lie to make things right for someone...

"I will."

...they should.