Chapter 4 (No More Hiding Feelings)

I wake up with the smile in my face. This is it! Last night I can't sleep because I was thinking about my plan. No more hiding. No more denying. No more stopping this feelings. Because even if I will stop this, I am too late because my feelings is now unstoppable. I was thinking last night that I will never wasted another years and even days and times to be with my wife. No more wasting of moments. In short NO MORE HIDING FEELINGS! I immediately go to the kitchen and I will start showing my feelings to her by preparing her a breakfast. This is my first time that I prepare her a breakfast because in the past 5 years she always serves me. I prepare every ingredients. I will cook a beaf steak for her and a fried rice.

A few minutes after. Finally I finished preparing a breakfast for my Claire. I go back to my room to take a bath and I see Claire already done taking a bath. I smile at her when our eyes meet. And proceed to the bathroom.

When I went out to the bathroom, Claire is still sitting at the edge of our bed while gazing at me.

"Let's eat?"I ask her and hold her hand to help her up. We went out to our room together while still holding the hands each other. While walking towards the kitchen she stop. And I look at her with an enquiring look.

"What's wrong Claire?"I ask her when she still standing and just staring at me.

"Tell me Albert do you know anything?"she asked full of dread and sadness.

"What do you mean? What is that anything that I may know?"I replied her with an innocence in my voice.

"You know what I mean Albert. You will never do this to me if you don't know it. So tell me, is this the reason of everything you shown to me? Is this because that you know it?"she said while his voice is start shaking. Sign of her tears is congealing and ready to fall.

"Of course not. And what is that anything Claire?"I asked her back.

"Nothing. Nevermind it. So what's your reason of doing all of this huh?"this is it! this is the right time to tell her.

"Ahmm.. It's...Arggghh!"I can't tell her directly. My mouth can't speak it right.

"What!? Tell me Albert! Tell me what's your---!"

"Because I'm starting to feel love towards you! That's it! Look! I didn't mean to feel this! But...arghhh! I can't help myself but to falls for you Claire! And I don't know when,where it starts. I just feel it!"I cut whatever she wants to speak. I feel like the prickle is drawn out into my mouth.

"W-what? Y-you mean you are now inlove with me too? Am I right?"she asked full of shocked and mixed emotions.

I nodded and speak. "Yes Claire. I am now badly inlove with my wife. It sounds awkward but it's true. I love you Claire and I am now starting to show my love to you, babe. And I don't want to waste another time,day and year to be with you. Co'z I LOVE YOU MRS. CLAIRE CRUZ-VERGARA." after saying those words I pressed my lips towards hers. After a seconds she kiss me back. I'm the one who finished our kiss and hug her tightly. "I love you Claire tell death do as part." I feel Claire is crying. She moved away and said. "I can't still believe but I will believe in you. I love you too Albert and I will always love you even if I'm no longer in this world."and I'm starting to cry. I felt happiness but it fades away and replaced by sadness when her words absorbed in my mind. I feel sadness because of the fact that she have a cancer and I can't do anything about it.

"And I will always love you even if you are no longer here in this world. Because even if it's too late for me to realized that I love you. My love for you is hidden but eternally. You and always be you, the one that I loved and I will love. Even death can't stop my love for you Claire. You are my greatest love. And sorry for the 5 years that makes you suffer. Sorry for the 5 years of being too rude, dumb, demon-like and being a useless husband in you. But now everything is changed. From rude,dumb,demon-like and useless to respectful, caring, and a loving husband. I'm gonna show you the Albert Vergara that is inlove."I said and give her a haughty smile.

"Hmm. Well see. And I want to witness how Albert Vergara when inlove.....to me."she replied and chuckled. We both walking again towards the dining area and eat.