Chapter 12

Aleex wh !! Hurry up we will be late for our flight" Shane shouted.

"Wait, Shane, I'm coming down" I shouted from the room.

I was going downstairs when I saw a letter next to the table in the room. I immediately took it and put it in the bag I do not have time to read now maybe I will read when I have time.

"What is it Alex you are slow to act we will miss the flight " Shane replied annoyed to me.

"I'm sorry, where are they?" I asked her.

"They're already there so let's go we'll miss our flight because of you" Shane replied annoyed to me.

We were about to leave the house when I saw Nicolai in the car. He said that he would take us to the airport.

"Hi Alex, Hi Shane. Are you ready ? Let's go" said Nico.

"Come on" Shane said.

The three of us just kept quiet while traveling. Our trip to the airport was a bit long so Shane took a nap first. While Nico is focused on driving.

Shane P.O.V

Is it still right? Am I doing it right? We are going to the airport to go home to the Philippines. How can I say? How did she find out? I will lose my mind. I did nothing else while we traveled but pretended to be asleep. I have to pretend to be ok without hiding anything from them. I'm not ready yet is it right for us to go home? What if JC and I meet again how can I tell him everything? Will he accept? But how? But before everything I searched my bag but still nothing but I could not put it.

"Shit"

on the bedroom table un did Alex get it? But no.

"Hey Shane what are you doing? What are you looking for?" Alex asked.

"I don't have the wallet I'm looking for" I excused her. "Shane, your wallet is in front of you" Nico replied

"Oh thank you" I just said and I only showed them fake smiles.

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Anytime we get off the plane since we arrived at the airport earlier I can no longer talk to Alex properly the heat of the head I can not understand it seems she is angry with me I see in her eyes the sadness and anger forming in her eyes.

"Alex" I once touched her.

I just think that her answer to me was cold, I do not understand. Later she handed me something.

"Are you looking for this?" she said but she only gave me cold stares as if I was someone else for her.

"waaai--" she didn't let me finish what I was about to say and she immediately spoke.

"I saw it on the table in the bedroom. So I took it but I did not open it. Where did it come from?" She asked directly but her eyes were as cold as ice.

"Ohh My Mom already check in OB she thought what was going on so she was already posting" I could only tell her a lie not now not at this time.

"Ahhh is that so" was all she said and she never asked again. I do not know how to tell her but I also do not want her to know others but what if she does not accept. I could do nothing but keep quiet and look out the window of the plane.

Alex P.O.V

I'm in the room they gave us here in Shane's own resort. We arrived here in the Philippines yesterday. I want to do a lot but my body is still tired from traveling from NY to here in the Philippines. Nico said he will follow here for a vacation and we will also have bonding. Everyone is busy taking care of Shane's upcoming birthday. It turns out that her birthday is tomorrow but I still haven't been able to talk to her since Nico and I were in the car. I know that my aunt and uncle also notice that I don't pay attention to Shane but can I blame myself for not paying attention to her.

Do I have no right to be angry and hurt? I did not realize that tears kept falling in my eyes every time I thought about what I found out. It hurts so much I can't accept but I can't do anything. All I can do is accept everything and love her. Is it wrong to love? Is it wrong to love a friend? I can't teach my heart who I will love but destiny does not favor me why it hurts? I feel like im waiting for something that isn't going to happen. She's my greatest love but she's also my greatest pain. The question of what is the harshest truth you've learned? Is the world will not treat you better just because you are a good person.

I'm scrolling in my facebook when a saw a post of someone. It was a peom for her beloved.

"I'M SORRY "

You looked into my eyes,

And without blinking you said "I love you"

Without doubt, I believed in you.

You held my hand and I let you take me into your world.

You promised to be loyal and faithful to me.

And without second thought I trusted you.

You made me feel like I'm the most beautiful girl whenever I caught you staring at me.

You make me feel so special whenever you remind me that I'm the reason of your smiles.

You made me feel like I could face the world whenever you say that we are on this together.

And for that, I wanted to thank you.

Thank you for showing me a different side of this world.

Thank you for making me believe that I am enough.

Thank you for being the bestfriend I never had.

Thank you for being my family, my shelter and protector.

But, the love I thought would stay forever, suddenly changed the moment you realised that I'm not the only one.

I was so blinded by my love for you that I refused to see the truth.

I'm sorry that I didn't see the doubt in your eyes whenever you say you love me.

I'm sorry that I choose to close my eyes when I saw the hesitation you had when you held my hand and let me in into your life.

I'm sorry that I was a fool to believe that I'm beautiful when the truth is, you just miss your ex and saw her in me.

I'm sorry that I choose not to see that the real reason why you smile was because you just wanted to return the gesture.

I'm sorry that I made myself believe that I am enough when the reality is, I wasn't and never will I be enough for you.

I already forgiven you even before you say you're sorry.

But forgetting is another battle.

I used to wish that if only I could turn back the time and let it stay at that moment when I feel that I could handle everything because I had you. Freeze the time and have it at a standstill so I could lock you in my arms before I lost you.

But I know I can't be running away from the reality that it's over. We're long way over. I can't hold on to our lost love forever. Someday, I would have to slowly start moving on and accept the fact that we could never be together in the end.

We were just to broken people who have chased each other around and around in circles and someone is bound to give up.

I'm sorry but I have finally released that I don't deserve to be just your option.

I'm sorry that during the time you were so busy sorting your feelings out, I spent my time finding and rebuilding my self-love.

So now, please forgive me if I have to let you go because I have finally realised that I deserve my love more than you do.

And lastly, I want you to know that walking away cannot be associated with weakness. I am walking away because I'm brave enough to see my own worth without you. And I want you to see yours even without me."

i turn off my phone and slowly my tears drop like a water falls.