HalfDoomed

At a festival, 18-year-old Remy overhears a very private conversation. He listens as two people talk about killing another person. He is compelled to follow them and witnesses as a boy about his age murders another teenager. But was this taking of another's life justified? Remy soon finds that he is unable to separate himself from these people and must get closer to this boy in order to find out what brought him into a situation where he needed to kill someone.

Warning: There are mentions of sexual assault throughout this book. The actual act is not explicitly described, but if you are sensitive to that kind of thing, you might want to skip this book.

What Happened (Novel)

He wasn't strictly opposed to being gay; it's just that all his life, he thought he was straight. And thinking that you might be anything besides that was dangerous. Or at least, it always seemed that way. Back at home, his parents didn't talk all that much about queer people. And when he saw them on TV, all he really thought was, "Poor them. It must suck to have to live knowing that a lot of people hate you because of what you are." He never thought there was any chance of him being one of those people.


He thought about the way it felt to kiss Emmitt. It was good. He was definitely very into it. But would it feel different if he kissed a girl? He tried to remember any feelings of attraction he might've had towards people in his high school, but he never seemed to have any crushes. He thought that was just because he hadn't wanted a relationship with any of the girls there.


It's a strange thing to think you're one way for your whole life, to suddenly realize that you're not that at all. It's like thinking you have brunette hair, then waking up one morning to see that it's completely blonde. Well, maybe Remy's situation is a little more important than that.


But he didn't want to act too impulsively by saying he was gay, mostly because he wasn't sure if that was even the label he wanted to give himself. He wasn't 100 percent sure of what he was, and he didn't feel like he'd be ready to come out until he was.


And then there was the question of whether he wanted a relationship with Emmitt. He was telling the truth when he said he never thought about him that way before, but what if he did now? He's a great guy, attractive too, but Remy didn't think he really liked him in that way. What happened that night was just Remy's brain mistaking their closeness as an invitation for something more. But that didn't mean he wanted something more from Emmitt.


When You're Gay