Chapter 182: Alas! It was the voice of Iridessa

The white washed villa glistened from afar beneath the glass dome. I always knew he was quiet the artist but I didn't know he was this much. I guess I underestimated him. I always knew him to be someone who ruled the world with a paintbrush but turns out even his architecture was red bright.

I took a deep breath and closed my eyes propelling my body over my shoulder.

"It'll be alright..." Lauren caressed my cheeks and I smiled at her. The doctor offered to help me snick out of the hospital and I knew I had to take this seriously. He was risking his career for me and I never got people risking things for me.

I posed as a nurse in a nurse's costume and one of the nurses posed as a patient. With the perfect disguise, we were able to drive out of the hospital towards San Matin Palace. That's where his house was.

As we approached the house, I tasted an awful bitterness in my mouth and wished to vomit. I was at war with my own body. Fighting for the strength to talk to Adam. What would I say to him? Despite having many questions, I didn't know which ones I wanted answers to. I was desperate and didn't know for what.

"You give your word, you'll comply after this right??" The doctor asked again and I nodded vigorously. Lauren jumped out of the ambulance and helped me get off. My body was still weak and I used her as support to walk to the gate. The guard recognised me immediately and opened it without question.

We walked up the hill to the main door and obviously I found it locked. I entered the passcode and it opened. At least there was something about his life he hasn't changed. I walked in locked eyes with a portrait of mine that he had plastered on the wall. It was the masterpiece he released last time. The famous Hemorsa Mujer. Beneath the foreign words was an English translation that read beautiful woman. Oh those good old days.

"Do you want me to come up there with you???" She asked and I shook my head. This was between me and Adam and I'd appreciate it if it were just the two of us. To talk it out and be sure that we exhaust everything.

"No..I'll be fine..." I replied taking the elevator. I always called Adam lazy for installing an elevator in his own house but how that I was in such a situation it sure came in handy. If he wasn't on the living room, then he was probably upstairs in the attic which he had transformed into his painting room.

I placed my hand on my side after I sensed a horrific sensation. It felt as though someone was driving needles into me. I squatted in the elevator moments before it stopped. I crawled my way out to the top most floor. I had to take the stairs and I would be at the attic.

"Adam???" I called. Was he even home?? "Adam????"

I held the handrail as it supported me up the stairs. My side was still in pain and I stopped to take a look. I pulled my shirt up and ran my fingers against my skin just from beneath my breast towards my groin. I felt like I had stitches.... What happened to me?

Fearful, I pulled my shirt back down and stopped in my shoes. Did I hurt myself?? Was I really a threat to Adam and to the entire human population? Was that really true?

It couldn't be true. I was Eleanor De La Rue. The pride of the human race. More than a goddess on earth. I was so much more. How could I cause harm to anyone? My first nightmare had come true. I was always worried that I loved too much. That I cared too much and trusted too much of just about Adam. I felt it and sensed it within me. From when I couldn't tolerate the evil director Lane back when we were filming the movie Rustom. I lost my cool in a bit of a second and everything around me disrupted.

I really was a threat. The realisation hit me hard. I had absolutely no idea. I was so obsessed in wanting to meet Adam not knowing it'd do him good if I stayed away from him. I loved him so much and that was the only crime I committed. Here I was paying for it.

Despite reaching the top most stair, standing right at the door of the attic, I decided to turn around and leave. Maybe Adam was really going to be happy without me. He would be far away from me and safe. I was really a threat to him. Tears formed wells on my face when the thought of never seeing him again became as clear as day. I looked around the place one last time and took a step back. I really was insane. I had gone mad and I couldn't let Adam live with the shame of ever dating a mad woman. I had to leave him alone. Maybe time will help us tend to our wounds and he would later on understand that I said goodbye because I loved him dearly.

"Goodbye Adam..." I thought. The pain of parting is nothing to the joy of meeting again. I thought I was stronger than a word, but I just discovered that having to say goodbye to you is by far the hardest thing I've ever had to do. Never has it been that loves knows not its own death until the hour of separation! What a truth.

"I am equally worried about her....." A familiar voice rattled in my ears. I perceived it as a rattling sound coming from the venomous rattler and it was in Adam's house. I paused my foot midair, immediately.

"I know that. Thank you for being with me....I feel better now that you're here...." Adam replied. He seemingly seemed excited.

"She will be alright....."

Alas! It was the voice of Iridessa.