CHAPTER 7

I opened the door more to let myself in, but my mom was still frozen to the bed like she was a statue, so I came closer to the bed and sat on it "Mom what's the problem, why are you crying, I thought we were over this already?"I ask softly, trying to touch her but she unexpectedly shrieks.

" I love....."she shrieks.

"What... You love what" I ask, startled myself by her sudden outburst.

She looks at me with wide eyes, before realizing her cheeks were wet, then trying to wipe her face but it was too late and I had seen all that I had needed to see, the tears running down from her eyes "When did you get here"she says avoiding my eyes.

"Are you okay" I ask her as I offered her tissues studying her face, completely ignoring her question.

"Yes I am, why?"

"Well, I came in here and you were deep in thought, crying your eyes and your heart out, I made loud noises so you could recover from your thought and when you finally recover you blurt out "you love... God knows what" noticing she didn't say anything, I go on. "Mom, if this is about dad, we've talked about this already he's not worth your heart and your tears, so mom please, i beg you, let it go, let it all go, the memories and all set it free and move on don't dwell on it anymore for it will only bring pain and tears. I know it's not going to be easy but that's why you got us. Besides we made a pact earlier on that we wouldn't cry anymore because of him, so why are we doing all over again. Seriously mom, am getting sick and tired of this crazy emotional roller coaster" I say irritated by now.

"You don't just expect me to forget him just like that, even though he cheated I still loved him with all of my heart, you can't just expect me to forget about him like he never existed..." She blow her nose and continues "but I so wish I can tell my heart to stop loving him now that it's all over so that I can forget him, the pain and just move on with my life but I can't, I just can't and I hate myself for it"

She says says putting her hand on the left side of her chest and leaning on me crying bitterly.

I couldn't help it, I just couldn't see her crying like this so helpless, so I drew her in for an embrace.

"Come here" I say softly "shhhhhh, it's okay you still got Chris and I" I say trying to calm her down and then she finally speak up" It hurts Zoe, it hurts so much, I feel like..like my heart is tearing apart"she says then blows her nose again.

"I know mom, but you have to be strong, you have to be strong for Chris and for yourself, please" I say tearing up myself but I quickly blinked it away.

"What about you Zoe, can't I be strong for you?" she asks raising her head from my shoulder and wiping her tears with a tissue

"Mom, am fine trust me, I don't want it to be too much of a load to carry"

"Really, but you don't look fine to me" she says with a croaked voice obviously showing that she has been crying for a very long time now and looking at me thoroughly.

"You all say that, but am fine, I mean don't I look fine to you" I say standing up for her to observe me front and back.

"Yes you do dear. On the Outside but what about on the inside. Look Zoe am worried about you, Chris let his emotions out we all know he was hurt but you didn't, what's wrong with you you used to show me everything before"

"Are you serious now ma, must I let my emotions out before you know am fine or that I miss dad, I told you yesterday, I am so over dad, I was over him from the very first time he hurt you, the first time he hurt us. Even though I did not show my emotion, what good would it be? It would only make you more worried and the last thing I want to do is to add to your worries so please believe me ma when I say am fine besides he's in our past now."

"Alright I believe you" she answers with a dry smile.

"So now mom, you will have to promise me that you would not cry anymore, because I would want it to be like we settle it now and I come back to get you crying again. So now you will have to promise me that you would not cry again because of him" I say sternly, I could be strict if wanted to.

"No even a little bit?" I asks closing an eye

"It's okay to cry sometimes, but it shouldn't be regular like this I've lost count of how many times I've seen you break down. It's not good for your health, so now you would to promise me"

"Alright then, I promise. I promise I won't cry unnecessarily again. She replies with a light smile.

" And if I catch you crying again, I would have no choice than to collect $20 from you, anytime i see you crying, I collect 20 bucks. Is that a deal?" I ask extending my hand for a shake to make it official.

Seeing my gestures she smiles and shakes her head then extends her hand for a shake too. Shaking my hands, she says "Deal ".

"Good, now enough of the depressing atmosphere and cheer up because we have a surprise for you downstairs, that was why I came up in the first place" I say waiting for her reaction

"Really, a surprise? Wow, the thought of you planning a surprise is truly surprising for starters, secondly, whats is the surprise?, you've never planned one before and besides who are the " we" you speak of" she says curiosity boldly written over her and washing the grief away, I always want my mom like this happy and energetic.

"You will know all that when you come downstairs with me but trust me you are so gonna laaaaaauuuuggghhh" I say fully knowing well what was in store for her downstairs.

"Alright then, what are we waiting for? Let's go downstairs then"

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