They Don't Know

They don't know....

Hearing those words can kill me. While walking in my head I'm saying " they don't know everything" my sacrifices, all of my hardship just to be the number one in school and to make my parents proud. I want to cry but I need to stop it. I can't let Jazz to win even in one single round. When I came home I was shocked because I see my mom and dad. I was so happy because they visit me even once in a month. I was so excited to tell them all of my achievements at school because I want to make them proud. But why, they never listen to any words that I say. Yes we're on the same house but why I can't see them. They're always busy, they're attention is always at their work and money. Realizing it, I felt so tired. I just want to lay down and forget all the problems that I had. I just want to forget everything. I just want to be a normal girl with a happy family. I want to have a caring mother and a thoughtful father. Why?? Why the world is so unfair....

The Next Morning,

The next day I wake up my mom and dad has already gone. Well I guess It is back again to normal. Wake up in the morning, ready to go to school and after the school go back to my house and sleep. I guess this is who the real me. This is my first time to have a blank feeling. I can't explain but I don't felt any excitement, happiness or any feelings. When I came at school I don't care even my classmates are staring at me. When I see Jazz I gave him a blank expression like he did last time. As the time flies my expression wouldn't change. I go to the bathroom and I heard again a two student talking about me. That time I slam the door and walk away. I ran as fast as I can. I don't want to cry, I don't want. I was shocked when Jazz is at the gate of the school. Suddenly he grab my hand and ran away...

I don't know what's happening....