Chapter 5: Resentment

Four years I have been learning about my abilities. Four years that I have stayed quiet. four years that I have been finally told the truth.

"Young miss it is time for your lesson." Athena said walking in. She has been the only person I actively talk to. She was there when the truth was told.

"I don't know why you call me young miss. I'm not even his daughter. I'm just a means of money for him. He is growing impatient with my soul bonds not showing fully." I said staring out the window. I was frustrated at only 10 and my life was pretty much set as a pawn.

"Young miss I call you this because you are my person to care for. Lord Frederick may not be your father but to the outside world he is. I may not be your mother but I am damn near the closest you've got." Athena said gently petting my wing. She gently pulled me towards the hall.

My lessons have changed drastically since I presented. I strive to be independent but I keep getting pushed down by the teachers for my rank and race. They say be submissive, be pretty, be caring, and be attentive to your husband's needs. They say don't be rebellious, don't be hardheaded, don't speak out of turn, and don't be anything but an omega.

"Have your bonds showed up yet. I have some treaties I want to work out soon." Frederick said.

"You know as well as I they won't appear til I'm 18. So no I haven't." I said walking to the garden.

"Rose Eclipse you will respect me. I gave you a place to live. I give you food. I even keep staff her so you don't feel lonely so that you don't associate with those brats outside this house." He said following me.

"Have you even thought of my well being outside the aspect of money. I'm a child stuck within these walls with only 3 people who actually care about my well being." I said walking to the hydrangeas. He followed me out.

"Oh so you now you actually want me to sympathize with a child I took in. You want to know something I chose to let you stay alive all those years ago I fought my urge to leave you behind. You are not my child by blood so, I have no sympathy for you. You will grow up and spend the rest of your miserable life here until your bonds show up then I'm going to marry you off to them and get something out of it." Frederick said. He turned to go back inside.

The damage was done. Everything I felt in that moment. All of my emotions just focused on one thing. I felt betrayed. I felt alone. I felt hatred.

Hatred that burned deep in my sprouted forth and I just lost it. I fell to the ground and began crying. I wished so badly for the bond to come at this moment. I wanted to escape this place I was so tired of the lack of care about my well being. I was tired of the constant guilt trips. I was just tired of being a child in this situation. so tired that I fell into a semipermant sleep.