SofarLunar

"I endured this pain day after day, drowned in the ocean of tears that weren't allowed to leave my eyes. I held on for long, but they didn't love to see that, they stepped upon my head, content to watch me drown in the emotional mess they caused."

Seven relationships and all were doomed from the start. The same issues and the same outcome, all the girls he loved left him, cheated on him, stabbed him in the back. 

Was he hexed? Was he really the problem? Why did they never last? Chang Wu didn't know. All he knew was that, they were breaking his heart to smaller pieces every time they walked out of his life because he couldn't 'afford' them. 
 
He'd tried everything to the extent everyone called him a simp for women who wouldn't even do half of what he'd done for them. 'Why were all middle class women the same?' Why hadn't he met one that wouldn't push the burden of financial responsibilities on his shoulders. The more he thought of it, the more he bore hate, until he decided to give up on them, and aim for something higher. 


Dating a rich woman was his next step. As impossible as it sounded and difficult to achieve, he thought the woman on the magazine cover that caught his attention would actually love him, not because of money because she already had that. There were problems, he had to live falsely to catch her eye and watch out for potential threats to avoid the truth from getting exposed, but how long would he pretend to be the opposite of what he truly was? How long would he lie? How long would he continue to live in fear? And most importantly, how would he put an end to the facade without getting his dream woman hurt?

Why I hate Middle Class Women

<p>"She's not picking my calls anymore," Jessica stared at her phone "I just wanted to let her know I'll be leaving by noon tomorrow. What I said really must've annoyed her. I blurted tie words out without thinking how it would affect her. I was only thinking about myself, and I made it seem like I was the only one attached. I'm really a terrible person. I'm not worthy to be friends with anyone after all my mistakes. I'm really sorry Lijuan, and I hope you'll be happy without someone like me around." </p>

<p>Jessica wished she could see her again. At least for the last time. She'd miss her and the eleven years of knowing her. Their friendship was one she never thought she'd have after a past that made her think so low of herself. Despite their differences, and all that was happening in their lives, Jessica was still grateful to have met her and she'd always have that special place for her best friend in her heart. </p>

Part IV