It’s gonna be alright
Walking home from school is the same as walking to school
People stay away from me and I can peacefully walk home
I decided to go to a store to get some candy for my mom for when I get home
"Hey Harold" I yell to the old man at the counter
"Hey Lizzy, how you been.. no more problems at home right?" He asks in a happy but also concerned voice
"Everything's been perfect and my parents are getting way better" I lie straight through my teeth with a genuine smile on my face cause I know how concerned he is
"I'm here to get some candy for my mom, anything interesting happen while I was gone" I say while walking to where my moms favorite candy is
"Nothing much anything interesting happen at school" he asks in an overly exited voice which makes me look at him with my eyes squinted
"Just some annoying small problems you know"
"Hmm if you need any help just ask me I'll beat all them up for you" he says while trying to flex his nonexistent muscles
I just stare at him like he's crazy for a moment before bursting out laughing
After a bit more talking and paying I quickly say goodbye and leave
I decided to put my headsets in and start kinda dancing my way home
That's when I get a text message from my mom
saying
'I'm sorry honey I wasn't fit to be a mother and my poor decisions caused you to get hurt time and time again
I hope your life ends happier then mine
You made my days a bit brighter thank you for being there for me , I love you mom'
I stare at the screen in confusion and shock
After 5 seconds I relies what this might mean and start sprinting to my house dropping the candy
A walk home that should have taken 20 minutes was shortened to 4
I rush to get out my keys fumbling with the lock and rushing the door open
'Shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit'
I keep repeating over and over in my head
Once the door opens what I see cause me to lose my balance almost falling
I quickly composed myself and ran to my mother
who was sitting on the floor unmoving with tear marks on the sides of her face with a bottles of medicine and a few cans of a Alcohol on the table and on the floor beside her
I stumbled taking back out my phone to call 911 and to check my mothers pulse
After confirming my mother is still barely alive I hear the 911 call connect
" 911 what is you emergency"
With a shaking voice I reply
" u-um hello m-m-my name is Eliz-Elizabeth Scout an-a..nd umm... my mother has tried to kill herself at our house by overdosing on drugs..."
"Can calmly tell me you where you live honey" the lady on the other end of the call asks
" umm.. I live at 1963 Rosemary drive" I say with a still shaky voice
"Okay stay calm and on the phone while I send people over who can help you mother okay honey can you do that"
"Do you know if you mom is still breathing or how long it's been sense she took the drugs honey"
"I think she's still alive and I think she took the drugs about 4 minutes ago cause she texted me around that time"
"Do you know what I should do...
How can I help my mom" I start breaking down a bit and I feel like I have no air in my body
No matter how much air I breathe in it's never enough all sounds around me just fade away and I try rocking myself back and forth
I just keep trying to breathe
'Why can't I breathe!?!? Why..... why why why why why why why why why what's happening this shouldn't be happening no no no no no no this isn't real I must have passed out from being to tired and am hallucinating just calm down and it'll go away' I keep saying to myself over and over in my head, maybe if I keep saying it's what's happening it will become true
I keep trying to breathe but I can't and my vision has long gone blurry just as I'm about to faint I see people at my door rushing
As my consciousness is about to go black I think
'Everything will be alright'
Then everything and everyone goes black...