Photos

Once I get home I come in on the same scene that I left the only thing missing is my mom...

With a sigh I start cleaning up everything in a hope to forget

Once I can't see or smell the slightest reminder of what happened I slowly drag myself to my room and crash onto the bed

I randomly move my hand in my pocket and pull out my phone as a distraction

Cause no matter how tired I am I already know I'm not gonna be able to fall asleep for a few more hours

Once I turn on my phone I see multiple messages updates on social media, text message, game notification, but I just unlock my phone and ignore all of them

I go straight to my photo album I have almost no photos of myself

there are just have scenery photos like beautiful trees, flowers, lakes and people

I believe the best photos of people are the photos they don't know are being taken

One photo is of the most popular girl in school she is the kindest person in are school yet in the photo she was crying in the dark with her hair blowing in the wind all those friends from school are no where to be seen

Another photo is of a boy in my PE class and he is running with his dog into the distance

The next is of one of my friends leaning against the railing at a pier looking out into the water with a bruised eye and slightly bleeding lip and legs yet she's still smiling more then I have ever seen before

Then a photo of a one of the basketball players who is always telling jokes and wearing a smile playing basketball all sweaty but crying as he was in the air about to make a slam dunk after dribbling the ball all the way to the basket from the other side of the court

Then another where the person who is known as the ice queen of the neighboring school crying under a beautiful tree

It goes on from person to person or scenery to scenery

All beautiful photos for their own reasons

Once I get to personal photos like ones of my mom or my friends doing weird things or expressions I can't help but cry while laughing cause part of me is truly happy that I have these photos but the other half of me is still sad

My heart starts hurting from my emotions becoming to much for me and I accidentally dropped my phone on my bed while my hands go to my heart

My laughing stopped once the heart pain started and so did the crying

I just turned and laid on my back looking out the window

This happens so often that I no longer try to even get rid of the pain cause there's no point

Listening to the silence slowly got me to sleep even though it was already sunny and energetic outside

Throughout the night I was in a in between awake and being asleep state

Once I became fully awake it was already 2am on Sunday I was no longer tired and sense my mind was clear I felt worse then before

So I did the only thing I could think of I changed out of my school clothes and switched into a Wolf hoodie and shorts I put my hair into a ponytail and walked downstairs to finally eat something

But I stop in my tracks when I see my dad