Chapter 156

Saad's pov:

Leaning my head back on the wall, I slid down as the stress finally bursted on me, weighing me down. With my shoulders sagging and tears rolling down my face, I wrapped my arms around my knees, thankful that the room was empty for I really needed some time alone. 

Keeping my head on my knees, a sob escaped my lips as I tightened my hold around myself. It was too much. It was too much to take in and to stay strong and pretend like everything was going to be okay when I wasn't even sure about it myself. It was too much to keep myself from snapping at others and keeping myself from breaking down in front of them. It was too much to pretend like a strong person when I knew what was going on through my mind at that time. It was too much to stay strong. It was too much to- it was too much! Everything was too much! I- I didn't even know how I was able to handle myself for so long. I didn't know… I didn't know anything!...