Chapter 23

Murphy's lecture which was a real dismantling thing for everyone in the class, his lips sneers up like he was much bull sized man from some alien place. I was getting late ! Like really I was and I can't effort being late ...

One thing was good, and that was my coffee date with Leigh ! Tiresome face is not what I expected to have but as I was left with no time cause time was possessed by someone , since that thing which hold up today at Murphy's class , I can't take Murphy's changing colours , he liked David Westley there was no doubt in it, because If I would label David as the Junior Murphy, it won't be that bad? Because both were stragglers , I slumped down near the Teak tree which was just near the left of Biology section wing , an old tree with long expanded limbs with Green leaves, and since I had to look for Nina Seth, her class works notes and upcoming forensic lab test practical list, I had to meet her or may be I should just call her ?

The dusty particles from the grounds were winging around the dusky sun rays and the path was all glittering like the red dots with yellow peppering over them, actually it was tuned with melodies of falling leaves of the other deciduous trees , which just tore apart the college on the either side of the banked alleys .....which then connected to highway, I had to leave this place . because I had promised Leigh ! I would be at Avalon's Dine .

"How are you ?" Something asked me, no ! Wait, it was the Same husky sound of someone ....and that Someone was ....again Him .

Towering me with his big height, I won't curse that I was being 6 inches shorter than him or he look really awfully dangerous hot....when he just bored his hazel eyes into my retina, we are were that much close , so that only a cm, was there to disappoint our closeness, his eyes had something, something which i can't decipher, it held many emotions, a kind of guilt, regret and ...hope.

"Why are you here Ryan?" I shut him across and passed away my face from him, from his stern but guilty face, I don't want to make fool of myself again, he was a true player ,

he can do flings, break hearts and with no regret, his signature smirk was always there on his tightened jaw and crooked long nose, wait! Where did his nose get busted, Why all over again he came with his charcoal black coat and the T-shirt, my mind told me to move on, eventually he didn't care about myself and I knew it, for him I was a plastic toy , I was about to sprint, as the dust particle in the air directed towards the motion of my footfalls, but a hand over my shoulder stopped me.

"We need to talk Valentina." He said again lowering his stoned eyes, the look on his face , I can tell he was not cheesing but he was serious ,

his spear mint flavour was fanning around my lips..his inviting lips and they were like the pink bubbles of my childhood times, so fluffy yet serious my concentration was at them , and his coziness was a bile rising for my throat, and i was gulping , my visions become colourful , my body goes all down like a sinking orange sun deep in the womb of a sea, and he just appeared to be at my face ,even when I was very much nervous, you won't see the sweat but sweat was forming inside me.

" I don't see , anything to have a talk with you , besides I had an important meeting to be attend , so excuse me !" I tried to sound normal and a bit serious, as I set my footsteps . and then I saw a change of his face from being guilty to that of scowling.

"Which type of meeting ? And with whom, I really need an answer from you valentina ! Damn it , look at me !! When I m talking to you " and he pulled me towards the empty room of dissection hall , a wrecked one with rotten woods of teak , even the chambers where they used to fill with sticky animals and insects were broken, and he released his grip,

His steel grip From me, but that didn't Defined him of being so aggressive like , his red - purple bruised over my exposed sleeveless top, but he was too focused into checking me.

"You are no one, asking about my personal business , and let me go ! I m just sick of your brain games Ryan !" I scouted over Ryan Vaughan, and for some times, it bewitched him, because I was shooing him away , as if our positions had been alternated with each others, This story which is running between us is the result of the differences between the darker part and Defeated part ,

Now my heartbeat were beating their own natural frequencies , they were just trying to not being fade with the chills running over my spine. He back out three two four steps away from me.

And for sometimes , he was sterned and was like that Bob of pendulum which had been stuck in the moment , where no one knows that what would be the next move, not caring that the odour of the earth changed from dusty to that of moony , and the sun had been sailed away from its cloudy foams to that of black hole .

the night is being highlighted for double underlines , just to mention that this night in which , I am again alone with the greatest Quirkyalone of this time , trapped and had no way, it's 5:20 I looked over my brown strapped watch with black frame in round shape and again protected with fibre glass of Bianca 's company of optics. It's minute hand had passed the second hand like that horse which is flippantly faster to that of the other horse , which is in a race of time.

"Don't get start about minding my own business or whatever you had back in your mind, because that doesn't answer my questions, Who are you meeting at this hour of time! Tell me ." like a hungry wolf he sprung over me , and again wrapped my waist with his long laced fingers, my clothes curbed to his hands and our noses were at their proximity , there was a sensed spark,

which I thought had been died , I thought I had moved on from his accent, his thick Galician accent , his words and his attitude , he is not a gentleman, he is rude, he is arrogant , he is a loner and a bit ill  mannered, he would always shut up , he is very private person and now the sunbeams had been replaced by the tiny clusters of stars, a blurred one as it was only 5:45 p:m, I m driving crazy with this closeness, a thin line of chilliness is under grounding my brain.

"I m meeting my boyfriend . I think this answers your burning curiosity Mr. Vaughan and now ! I may like to leave ....so please excuse me." I broke the indefinable eye contacts between us, it was like confiding myself in the shell shock state. It was very bold answer , Which was again a shameful Lie to my own pride, but I gave him the answer , so that he could end his unnecessary chase of hurting me and playing with my emotions,

I wriggled through his clutch and tried to move, his face fell upon and he looked shocked and very much disappointed , but why ! I can say about shocking state, but Disappointment ? Why ...why I m getting a feeling that he is disappointed from me.

But then I stopped in my track, he couldn't be the man on which I can pity, but again this foolish heart of mine is no brainier,

"Oh! So you were faking , all this time ?" His words were out of my reach .

"I didn't fake anything, it is you who fakes everything, even your name !" I spat out back at him and his yearning eyes searched mine.

"Then .....why did you said , that you loved me Valentina, you were faking at that time, you are such a disgusting woman , who can stoop very low, that when you were unable to trap me in your bloody love sick games, you searched another goat to be sacrificed, and congrats ! You got your hands wow... !!"  And he was sarcastically laughing, a bitter laugh ! Which he was practically letting out , and what broke my heart was that his thinking of me as a gold digger.

"What did you just say, you think ! I m a gold digger, first of all It's my choice , to whoever I want to be with in my life, and I m not a slut ....And third thing, you are no one to whom , I should detriment my thoughts and personal life ...."  With this , I walk away leaving him there in that big and empty old dissection hall alone, just like he left me there at 2 :a:m and he must learn what he managed to feel through my pain and agony , and it was the end of his intrusion in my life , and Now I will go for cafe, for that person , who had invited me with much dignity , he never questioned me, and if we two are dating, I think ....we are really perfect for each other's halfway . It's not the electric spark or veins sensation or whatever shitty but he was about my semblance.

"Well, One Last thing Ryan, I would like to ask, you flirted with me, then said we could be more than a fling, and then you dumped me and leave me there alone  myself at 2:a:m in That jungle, didn't you feel shame, guilty , what did the players boy like you get in reward, by breaking the hearts of innocent girls, don't you get lonely when you pollute our lives , don't you get hurt .!"

"Do you think ? I m happy Valentina ?" Ryan moved swiftly , and with one blink of my left eye, he stood there , again cornering my already emaciated body , his up and down breath of mint flavour were flooding into my sense, why did he always want to touch me, why ?

"I think , you just used me and you won!" I simply stated him, and at this time , no one looked aside, here and there, just lost into each other's eyes, and he holding me in his arms, outside the broken window of teak tree's boundaries, the dusky and amber faded light was casting its parallel tubes of rays over us, he looked just right to my face, and this time , a care or desperation and an urgent need of a young 22 years old man was peeking over from his face.

"Fuck ! Valentina, I can't resist now , it's just too much of torture for me."

And with this words, which he just shot from his lips, those same lips started moving over my paled lips, the same lips which was once nurtured by this man, yes who is now kissing me like there will be no tomorrow, kissing like an impatient avaricious beast, one month ago, this place was different but the people ,right now ! Were present there ,and they were like trapped in the same position, but when I just tried to kissed him  he turned me, down , he denied me and now  , he wants me, his hovering lips ! Undressing my lost lusciousness is telling me, that he was getting tortured by my absence, his searching eyes with lots of pain desperation is replying with his furious attacks of lips.

He was throwing his hands to cup my white cheeks, and after resting there for one nanoseconds, his hands made their ways to my neck, to my collarbone, and then to my shoulders , moving down to my hips and giving them a light squeeze, he pulled me back to him , giving a sudden jerk to my body , and then squeezing my hips , much more harder, making me gasp and allowing his begging tongue to explore my each and every corners of mouth to be acclaimed his property, thrusting his tongue and his hands squeezing my Butt's apple.

I was held, unconditional, unconscious , and unconsidered , but again this 'un',  between our with was So uneven to our unexplained, tag less relationship.

And about 40 minutes, of unstoppable kissing, I and he both waited for some fresh air, and he then placed his head over the crest of my head, and holding me in his tight very tight like a caged embrace, Just because , he was a man, he forgot even about my permission to kiss me, and his kisses were like an attacking Toronto over my small lips, the pressure intensity of his needed urge , could be still feel through my lips' moisturized surface, wetted by his liquid,

"You drive me crazy Valentina, and this was end of my self-restraint mode

. You don't what you do to me, you don't even had the slightest idea, how torturous these one month was for me, you don't even had the idea, May be this is.....umm ..this is the lust or just the plain physical attraction , I fuck! Don't know myself, what I m getting into but, The one and only one this I know , is that I can't detach myself from you ."

These words, were above the shock , they were directly the thunderbolts, my ears are unbelievable to hear such comments, did he was telling the truth?, Or ! I was his another pawn in his game of mind, I don't know , because I know , he had already trapped me in himself, and there is no escape for me to run away, I just got too lost in his deep hazel eyes, I don't know myself, but I just ! Oh ! My god!!!

"Did he kissed you ?" He asked.

"Why did you asked this thing?" I retorted back, he is such a jealous man.

"Just answer me Valentina, or you kissed him?" His silliness is a drowning boat.

"No! A big no! I never ever kissed him." I told him in very explaining mode.

"Okay! So he is not your boyfriend , I knew it from beginning!" He said and again , with leaving a quick peck on my lips, he left me there and I was again fooled by his bloody charm.

But I think , the kiss was real,

His touches were real

And he , himself was real into me.

Sometimes, chasing me,

His stalks over my life, his questions threatening his feeling for me.

Who is this Ryan Vaughan?

What does his kisses, his words meant to be??

I really don't know, and I m dead ,

A dead kissed girl .....