The First Day Of School

It been 2 weeks now and 2 weeks since I was with my first foster Mother. I miss her so much and wished I could've just told her about what really happen to me. But I didn't I guess it was just that I didn't wanna be a bother anymore. I just wanted us to have so much fun on that day and I know one day it will happen all over again. I laid in my bed a little while long just thinking about all this. Did I deserve to get beat by mother? I don't know I really don't anymore. I finally sat up in the bed and slowly took off my clothes to go take a shower. And once I got to the bathroom I stepped into the shower and just letting the water run from my head to my toes. I still spend my 30 minutes into the shower it was just so relaxing and calming.

after I got out the shower I checked time. making sure I wouldn't be late for school. I put on my rhythm nation outfit. I wanted to feel like the baddest chick going to school. I was really nervous and scared, what If the kids didn't like me there? I'm a very odd person and can be weird sometimes. I stood there staring at myself in the mirror. Do I look fat? I said to myself, Sonia girl you beautiful just the way you are. I tried fixing my hair like Janet's. Darn baby, I look fine as heck. After I was finish in the bathroom I walked out. Putting my books and pencil in my book bag. That's right I had a scream rolling book bag. I wanted to bling out. I wanted to show everyone I'm the hottest chick. I then thought to myself why am I being so competitive with others? That shot doesn't fly by with me like that.

After I was finish getting all my things together I headed out the house with my little speaker and music blasted up loud listening to rhythm nation.

Bye mom I'm leaving for school as I said to her walking towards the front door.

Sonia Jaxnson aren't you going eat breakfast? Mom I have no time, my school bus will be coming soon. Go on Sonia make yourself look embarrass looking like that. "Not this again" please mom don't. I don't wanna hear it. (walks out the door) Sonia Jaxnson don't walk away from me when I'm talking you. Mom I have to go and I like what I'm wearing. A girl can't freaking come in her own darn room. Oops did I really said that out loud? I thought to myself. What did you just said to me. My mom said back. I only said I love you mom. I lied" hoping she would by it. Love you too Sonia and be safe. I ran down road. Jumping and dancing. People were staring at me like I was crazy. But I didn't care, I was jamming to my rhythm nation as I crossed the street not paying attention I was almost hit by a limo. Till it came to compete stop. My heart was beating fast. Wow what else could happen. Kill me why don't you.

I couldn't tell who the person was in the limo. She had a soft loving voice.

Are you ok? She said to me, I'm fine I'm not hurt. Maybe you should watch where you walking dumb child the driver said to me. I look down feeling like an dumb child. Till I heard her voice again. Shut the heck up and leave the kid alone. Maybe you should've watched where you driving. How would you if someone said that to your child? I couldn't help but laugh as I ran off waving bye to the sweet lady in the limo.

Why you talked to me that way ?cause you are an idiot. You know what you fire. What the neck women?! You heard me. You cursed out a child. Get your ugly self out my limo, I'll drive my darn self. Ms. Jackson I need this job. Did this nigga just call

me old? Do I look like a Ms. To you.

I turned around and saw the lady throw the man out of the limo. She seemed piss off. She drove right pass me then stop. Would you like a ride to school? My heart raced fast, really thank you so much. I jumped in the limo as I looked at her. She had on shades and a black Fedora. I'm Sonia Jaxson. The lady smiled at me and said you can call me J. Thank you J for bringing me to school as I showed her which way to go. This was the luckiest day of my life. First day of school riding in a limo. Here you are, thank you again J I said as I stop out the limo and everyone just stopped and stared. Wondering who was driving that limo. After I wave bye to the lady driving the limo. I walked up to the school door as I heard some of the girls saying. Who the heck she think she is? While another one say ho this is our school. Let's beat her up, I heard as the group was chatting to each others. They were all just staring at me while talking. Ignoring them would be the best thing to do. I knew if I said something I would get beat. So I just walked up the stairs to the school door. Then I was stopped by two girls. 1 had long black luscious hair with a hairband. She also wore nice shirt that says stay cool with the Apple bottle jeans and the boots with the fur that whole school boys was looking at her. I would be lying if I said she wasn't drop dead gorgeous. The 2nd girl had long curly red and black hair and the bang covering one eye. Her shirt was black and white and she was wearing the same pants as her friend along with the boots. She's glamorous looking like she could fly first class.

Who the heck are you looking at? Tamara? What Linda? That brat think she can just get through this door.

Come on guys I just need to get to my class. I don't won't no trouble. Well you done started it. Tamara is the one that's talking to me. Her attitude stinks. But I wouldn't say that to her face. I just feel like I just wanna run away. This whole school hates me already. Back up girl. You tell her Linda. You don't belong here. And you not welcome here. No!! You will step aside and let me in. You don't own this school. Whoa, did I just said that to these girls? Hey everyone the new girl feel like a Rhythm Nation. The whole school was now laughing this feels so embarrassing. I can't just run away like a coward. It would make things worst. And I don't wanna start a fight and get in trouble on my first day of school. I'm going to use my words like a sword. What you going to do now little girl? Back off Tamara and Linda. Oh we are so scare. What you going to do bite us?

Looking at those 2 girl I start speaking a language they never even heard of. I was speaking in tongues as I stepped forward to them. And after a while they let me by. I didn't even know I could do that. Once I got through the school doors I was finally able to breathe again. I thought my heart was going to jump outta my chest.

That new girl going to pay Linda we still got time. I don't know Tamara whatever she was speaking kind of scares me. Linda don't you be afraid of that brat. I swear to you home girl she isn't going to get away with that. I guess you right. I'm always right Linda now let's go.

I needed to get away those girls would gang back up on me again. So I ran to the back of the school heading out the door. I ran as far as I could. I mean what am I supposed to do? Tell? Like yeah right. Like no one going to believe the new kid. I just kept running. I already hated this school. I really miss from being in private school I mean everyone knew me there. The teachers was really friendly. And the children's was really nice to me. Accept for that one girl name Holly. But was going through her trouble back at home. Her father was a pimp and also an alcoholic. Her mother was just doing everything. She was pretty much left at home by herself a lots. Holly isn't nothing like these children's at this school. She's nothing like Tamara and Linda. As for Holly she could put those 2 girls back in their place. She was the popular girl back in our private school. Holly was also going through mentally breakdown. Till she became suicidal she also try killing herself multiple times. She ended up in the hospital mostly every week. One of her teachers helped paid for her to go to private. I think she enroll her own self into the school.

Flashbacks of Holly

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Who you looking at Sonia? You think you all that now?

I didn't think that at all Holly. Are you feeling alright? Do you need a drink?

Do it look like I drink alcohol Sonia? You must be stupid or something.

Holly I wasn't talking about alcohol.

Bull crap Sonia!! Don't make me bust you in your lips.

There's no need for that Holly I was only talking about water. Does it look like I drink to you?

You tell me girl? Maybe I should take that shirt from you.

That's enough out of you 2.

Ms. Angie is our teacher. She's a sweet lady and caring for her students and also know how to put us in our place when we act out in class. Ms. Angie never sent none of her students to the office only because she knew how to handle us and our behavior. Other teachers be jealous of our teachers. But she doesn't pay them no mind. She just tell us haters going to hate.

Girls we do not fight. We talk it out to one another.

Why? What the point in that ?

Holly you will sit with me and so will Sonia.

I'm not sitting near Sonia I don't even like her.

I don't mind sitting next to Holly Ms. Angie.

That's sweet of you Sonia.

Thank you Ms. Angie

Do we have to sit next to each other's I prefer to sit alone.

Holly there's nothing wrong with sitting next to Sonia.

Holly was just embarrassed by the smell of her clothes and body she normally tries to cover it up. And sometimes I wonder or wanted to ask her about her parents. Then again I knew it was rude to ask those type of questions. I could tell that Holly was uncomfortable sitting next to me. But all I did was just smiled at her. I wanted to help her and help heal her broken heart. Holly looked at me couple times and gave me the death stare as if she wanted to kill me. I could tell by the look in her eyes that she was hurting. And I knew I had to do something.

Holly I have an extra pencil that you can have.

I don't won't your stinky pencil Sonia keep it to yourself.

Fine then I won't give it to you. I'll just give it to someone who needs it unlike you.

Holly shook her head at me and just laid her head on her desk. She didn't even notice what I was doing. I just went over to my teacher quietly.

Ms. Angie Holly doesn't have a pencil and I was wondering if you can give her this for me?

I think you should do it yourself Sonia.

I tried Ms. Angie but she wouldn't accept it from me. But I know she'll accept it from you.

That's so sweet of you Sonia you are an amazing girl. Always Trying to help someone.

I do try my best and thank you so much Ms. Angie. I appreciate you so much.

And with that I went quietly back to my seat and sat down and continue to finish my work. I glare from the side and watched as Holly accepted the pencil. I turned my head quickly before she noticed I was watching her. I just smiled to myself.

See I didn't need your stupid pencil Sonia.

I guess you were right Holly I'm sorry. I was just only trying to help but I didn't mean to make you mad.

Well stop helping alright I'm fine and don't need your pity party.

I looked away without saying another word I just needed to focus on my work so I wouldn't get a bad grade. I need all the good grades I can get. But I kept noticing that Holly was struggling with her work. Without saying anything I raised my hand.

Yes Sonia?

May I go to the bathroom I really need to use it.

Be back in 5 minutes.

I left my work on the desk so Holly can copy off my work. I stood in the bathroom to give her sometime to copy of my work. I took my time and used the bathroom. Once I was finish I washed and dried my hand and walked back to the classroom. When I got there Holly was gone. Where was Holly? I thought to myself. I looked around and didn't see her. To be honest I felt lonely without sitting next to me.

Holly father came to get her Sonia and that was a slick trick you pull.

Slick trick? I don't understand Ms. Angie.

SONIA I wasn't born yesterday that bathroom trick you pull just to let Holly copy off of your work.

I'm sorry please forgive me.

Sonia Holly have to learn on her own you don't get no where with cheating. Remember that Sonia.

Yes ma'am I won't forget and I'm sorry again. I just didn't wanna see her failing that's all.

And you are a very nice and caring person.

I try to be.

After getting all my work done and just a few more minutes before school let out. I thought about all the things that are possible by the work of God.

Flashbacks over.

Holly just needed time she really wasn't a bad person. Enough of Holly right now. She just only a memory of my pass.

I love the lilies and the sweet smell of the flowers. I skipped my way back slowly to school. Anyways it was about time I headed back. I don't wanna get in trouble from being late on my first day of school. Still I'm not even sure if I would ever get use to this whole public school thing. I would rather be back in private school. I guess changes can be a good thing. I just have to see things on a brighter side. Just like I did with Holly. Maybe those girls having issue just like Holly did. Or maybe not. Oh no I forgotten my backpack. I have to go back in get it. I ran to the first place I left from. Oh just my luck I'm going to be late for my first day of school. Does it even matter if I'm late or not? I thought to myself. I just need to hurry up and get to class. I know I shouldn't have left the school grounds. But I needed to get away from those girls. They so mean and yet they don't even know me. But I have to make the best out of it and stay humble. Because when life is unfair God is Good. Just by memoring these words I know it'll help me throughout the day. There's my backpack. I don't know what I'll do if I lost this. It was giving to me by my first foster Mother Sarah. She told me how it use to be hers. If I let more of these flashbacks take control of me I'll be late for class or even worst in trouble. And being in trouble isn't a good it's bad very bad. My new foster mother will be the heck outta me. And I don't know how much I can handle of this.