Broken hearts bleed red

Danny stared blankly at the mess of shredded items and fingerprint dust lying on walls, floors, furniture, the place was still a mess and the mess weighed heavily on him, just as much as the assault did and he wished he couldn't feel this way, he tried his hardest to stay strong as he examined the damage and noticed Joe's picture was missing so he contacted his mom who ordered there be police protection for Joe and he tried to clean up the mess as much as he could as tears swam in his vision and he could feel his chest heave up and down as he sobbed loudly, his walls of strength that he had tried to build up in front of everyone, including Captain Benson shatter into a million pieces. He fell to his knees bawling, he felt so overwhelmed by the physical, mental and emotional destruction that surrounded him right now, he felt all alone and he felt like he was crumbling at times because he was so busy pushing people away due to his strong feeling of shame and embarrassment from what had happened...after all...every male rape victim has been told at one point or another:

"Men don't get raped."

He pulled out a bottle of soda, chugging it all up and burping loudly while eating nachos and watching TV and letting the tears fall, not responding to any phone calls or anybody knocking on his door, he was too emotionally drained to even greet visitors, much less see anybody or deal with their messy emotions because he was so exhausted from learning that William Lewis had raped him and what was even worse was that he couldn't even remember where was he raped or how, no matter how much he tried to think. He went to work and sighed bitterly, he was touched by the efforts of Staten Island despite them hitting walls from Lewis's attorneys in resisting his arrest warrant, he could see that Detectives Vendaya Cruz and Jamie Luis were working round the clock with ADAs Adam Northholt and Eli Manning, Manning was more specialized in sexual assault cases since his own sexual assault in college decades ago that changed his career trajectory from Football to Criminal Law and now he had a personal mission against this rapist, he was determined to take down William Lewis when many other ADAs including Barba had failed and now he was ready to stake his career on the line to take down this bastard, however he knew he needed the help of ADA Rafael Barba, a man of experience and sass and the perfect amount of attitude to help break down any objections that the defense may have. Danny was praying that the trial would never come in his entire lifetime, he prayed that the people would forget about his rape and that the trial would be forgotten and would never happen at all