The Shadow of the Candle

Danny sobbed some more as he woke up the next morning and he dialed his brother Jamie's number, Jamie was too busy having sex with Vinny Cruz and Eddie Janko to even bother answer the phone and when he picked up he grumbled 

"Hello? Who's this?"

"Its Danny you moron!"

"Um! I'm...I'm busy at the moment!"

"Jamie! Please I need you to...agh! CMOOON!"

He found himself angrily yelling at the dial tone and cursing his head off as he called Joe who said 

"I have like no room here, I have a baby that's literally gonna pop out any minute and the other room has been converted to the baby room. Sorry Danny."

He knew Erin was going to reject him anyways because according to her, he was

"Pushing the limit on the amount of favors he could expend from her and she was quite fed up of being used as the warrant printing machine and she had better things to do"

Danny sighed and clicked the button to lock his phone as he tossed it aside and sobbed in humiliation, not even his own siblings were willing to help him during this time and his trial date was rapidly drawing closer and closer with each breath he took and he could feel the terror in his arteries poison him slowly throughout his body and he was helpless to stop this fear. He sighed and unlocked his phone, hating to impose himself on his mom, he felt so embarrassed to be so needy and dependent during this time, he felt so broken and shattered inside, as if nothing anybody said could ever put him back together as he packed his things and called his mom to say that he was going to be staying over at the Bay Ridge house and he grabbed his things and locked his house when he stood near the curb, waiting for the public bus to come when he had a flashback to when he had been knocked out with a iron and he had been dragged inside, he could remember the excruciating amount of pain, and the feeling of someone's hands around his ankles as he was dragged inside his own house again, the flashback faded quickly as he shook his head and sighed as he saw the bus pulling over to pick him and several other passengers waiting, up as well. He went on the bus as he scrolled through his phone and read some news articles while waiting for the bus to go to the transit station and then he boarded another bus to the house in Queens.

He sighed as he hauled his bag with him and went to the house and knocked on the door, he felt tears running down his face in shame for reaching out for help, but he knew he needed this, he needed comfort so much right now, he needed all of their strength as he was still awaiting STD results and the anxiety was drowning him it its darkness and he hated it so much as Henry opened the door and he simply hugged his grandfather wordlessly in tears, mentally exhausted and drained out of his mind. He knew the rapist was out there, and he wanted to die from that fact so much, he was so demoralized and drained beyond belief.